It's so much I want to blog about...

I just don't ever get the chance to sit back and live in those emotions at that particular time. Nor do I ever try to sit back an rekindle that emotion from hours ago..

I guess it is true, by 30 you don't be loud and vocal as much as you used to be....

Randomly I still want my fucking Carmine's!!!

One day I enjoy being around....

Next I wanna murder something....lol no ferg trap lord tho

Happy!

I love when I get things people knew I'd like. lol like actually pay attention to me....I got my 2 rocksmith hoodie from the fall delivery 2013. All I need now is the red one. Then I'll try tracking down the sweatpants. Thanks Jess 

I really had my heart set on getting a MacBook....

Like Deadass, I hate when I get anxious just to be told no. Which is probably why I see myself possibly growing older and more selfish....when it comes to things I want, especially when someone asks me to give them a chance to secure it for me.

5:50am

It's 5:50am.

And I'm still wide awake....

I started writing this at 5:50am, and yet I don't know where I am going with this. I'm just writing just to be writing. 

More so trying to get comfortable back blogging. This was this original stress reliever before I got far away from it, like I let a lot of things take me from what I used to enjoy doing. At one point and time, I'd never end a day without blogging my daily blog. Hell or even a nightly reflection on what transpired...

Views from the 3. Lol it's hilarious when you have your own personal jokes, and only you can laugh about it. It feels good to laugh amongst myself, I mean I laugh with Jess & B. But I rarely laugh amongst myself in my own personal time....

I want a MacBook!!! Like Deadass 15.4 with a terabyte harddrive, so I can really put all my music in one place, and not have to carry around my offices (two externals I have.)

Well I'm out of things to say... Maybe later this evening if I return, I'll have something more to say....

Keeping it G real....today I got time cuh.... - Sin

Toilet chronicles.

It may be slightly immature....but we all take our phone, tablet, laptop to the bathroom while at home.

I got slightly mad, I had a picture I wanted to throw in this random ass post. As I sit here on the toilet, butttttt that just means next time I'll have more pictures locked and loaded to go. 

Anywhom, I'm really trying to get back in to blogging. Trying to mentally drive away all of this stress....

Trying to get out of this mental state I'll call "Biscayne blvd."

Am I 3 years too late?

I mean, am I? Is it true? 

I happened to finally put the blogger app on my phone again, with hopes of actually trying to get better at finding the me I once was that loved to blog.

Hell...found it therapeutic at all times. Ya know?

To better times of blogging.

The Sin has returned....home.

The Few Moments Of Clarity...

At one time it was pretty damn easy to sit down in front of a computer, When I actually just felt like talking to be talking. Now it is pretty farfetched in between my stretches of blogging, I mean I have great intentions. Just most times when I sit down, I typically get sidetracked easily. Rather its someone catching my attention, or me getting up and leaving to do something with the idea of me saying "Ahhhh I'll comeback to it..". Knowing damn well I'm prone to lose any momentum on whatever it is I was typing.

I've been having a lot to say, Just have lacked the motives to put it to my blog. Hell it has been a lot going on in my life since September, I mean it is nothing I didnt contribute to it being what it is. Then again it also was things that were out of my own control.

Though I will depict on what happened with my now ex, I mean we broke up a while ago (Perhaps recently if you were to ask her. But I seen the signs from when we ended up on the mudslide anyway...)

Since I've been through 2 other worse break-ups, I will share what I have done that you should know not to do. Or probably need to stop doing at this moment...

Please learn from my past, als some of my mistakes:

1. Making big changes to your appearance:
A few months ago, as I awaited the final words I knew I was coming. I stopped caring as much about my appearance..

Mind you, I have a closet full of new things I wanted yet worn yet. So for like almost a month consistently I stayed within the same outfit, Which consisted of a some plain ass basketball T I had from a league I played in. Some regular as jeans, my beat around SB's that I always wear when I'm not going somewhere worth while. Didn't shave my face at all...Last time I had shaven, was the night before I went to Norfolk, VA on 10-31-12. Once I returned, I pretty much just existed.

So my own advice to you, Male or Female. DONT DO IT!!! Please, I understand being wounded from a breakup of someone who meant something to you. Just do not stop being what made someone Attracted to you alright?

2. Stalking all of their Social Media Pages: 
We’ve all done it, No shame in it. Though some people really take it as a very BIG emotional wound to see something of a recent ex.

Some of us tend to over think in to it, Its a big No No. Please, especially after a break up, by no means do not bother visiting their pages...Even if it appears on your newsfeed on FB. If need be simply use the Unfriend option or simply block them. No need to continue to deepen a wound that will make seem automatically crazy. 

I've done back in 09, When I lost a ex. So I'm telling you from experience...."Jeezy dont do it!"

I've done it, I've simple wanted to kill a chick or 2. But I just took a brief hiatus from all things social, Even though my recent ex probably stills follow me on both twitter and IG...

3. Return their shit in dramatic fashion:
I silently still have pictures of a few of my exes, More so the meaningful ones. Then my most recent, I found 2 pairs of her panties in my shoebox. Please...Lmao do not ask why, I'm a guy..Thats nuff said. So I stared at them, reminisced on the matches that earned me these 2 trophies. Then reality hit, Like what in the F*ck am I going to do with these now?! I didn't throw them away yet, nor have I returned them. Plus she still has my hoodie, my other cardigan and like some other knickknacks I gave her... 

Fuck being dramatic about it, Either keep it store it or fucking incinerate it and move on G.

4. Calling your hood monkey friends:
I'm quite the "Tweener" when it comes to hoodrat things, I do it in a classy type of fashion. So it doesnt make it seem as if I'm not one who does this on the regular, Get me doe? Lol. But for both sexes...Please dont call your hood nigga friend talking about "Mannnn Fuck that bitch..." because you never know, that may be the chick he was planning on back dooring you for...Just some advice...And my ladies, Please dont call Pineapple Kiesha because she just may have you throwing bricks..Inboxing his new chick...Or lurking her IG...Keep your pain to yourself or those who can give you advice with a level head please?

5. Sending some, “I'm wounded sob story, invoke a argument.” text or email message: 
When you’ve been broken up with, You pretty much want to make a "Last Stand." saying something that'll either make them hurt like you are, or damaged them as well as yourself.

There is really no need for all of that, trust me. I've contemplated doing to my most recent Ex, even though I've been on both sides of that fence. So yeaaa....No buzz killington deal, Just yuck it up. And move along...You'll thank yourself later.

6. Downing your ex to all friends: 
This one is pretty self explanatory. Just because your ex has fan-dangled you, and cut you loose. Just let die, Get me doe? Take some time to cool off, know it is not the end of the world. And take a hiatus for a bit. 

Now that I've managed to get that off of my chest, There will be another blog. It'll be a farewell blog...More info will be divulged soon so...Get me doe!

I'm bowing out...as graceful as possible.

So I've had a post in my to speak about my trip to Norfolk, Va. I had to hold off on it, because thre were many other issues that happened while I was gone.

Do not get me wrong, I had some of the best fun in my life going out to Norfolk. Met some new great faces, with great personalities behind them. It furthers my belief that leaving Detroit the first chance I get, once everything is tied up. Would be one of the best decisions of my life.

It really seems like a dream, but how do you go about chasing a dream that you felt you'd never achieve? How do you feel about losing a lot of things, while reaching for something new in life? When do you decide to walk away from it all? Hell, do you walk away by choice? Or by force? I mean, what if people around you turn their backs on you? What do you do when you make the choice not to voice your opinion? Will they believe anything you have to say? Will they listen to you now? When they barely listened to you before?

At this point, I could possibly sit here and write such a blog as far as why I'm bowing out. For lack there of inspiration, I'll just say its too much to shoulder. I've taken a few big losses while out in va, also taken a win or two. Not as meaningful when you were in the prime of something you felt could keep you in your own home state, but something utterly compelling that makes you, are a harsh decision to leave. I've finally felt in my gut there is nothing left in my own city to keep me here on a journey to greatness, once you've seen people leave you. Lose faith in you, or exile you without reason or care. That lets you know, it's not what it was painted out to be. I've taken me leaving as something that needed to happen to push others, and not throw malicious jabs at them. Just leave cold turkey for options,.. Which was wrong. Yes. But needed? Very much so. Hopefully before I committed to my decision, I'll be able to leave one last blog. A open letter to those so they'll know why I left. And chose not to continue on with them.