I Aint Blacked In Awhile Like I Said I Was So Lemme Hop In

Yo like on some real off the wall type shit as of lately, outside of me just being up under my Gf most of time and spending damn near or more so every moment with her makes me love her even more but probably hate her more to (Lol yeah real Ye' West "Bittersweet" Moment) other than that i've been constantly enjoying my time spent with her....dont mind the fact my supposed gramatical ways aint present in the least bit but hey fuck it i'll be ok and so will you...i did put up that paper i did help Rachele with even though i really would love to know the grade it'll get...you know how some english fessor' will shit on it just because not only its their job but probably because they had a self made raffle and her name happened to been pulled....


anywhom outside of all that bullshit mumbo jumbo, i've been contemplating my past real heavily like all the things that has went wrong. Due to the fact my gf seems to just knowingly throw that at me faster than a fuckin shrukien from a ninja's wrist, but anywhom like outside of all the personal cliques i've either been in or apart of...what was the main factor of the break up or disbandment? Hmmmm think for a sec Sincere....I dunno obviously either someone really showed their true colors and wasnt as down for the cause as i was, but with that said what cause could i have been down for? That not only leaves that issue/question blown wider than some virgin pussy on honey moon night, but it does leave me wondering like in most cases after conversating with some of those i did talk to on the regular before they've either turnt on me or we clashed and fell apart i dunno but yeah we came to the conclusion that i was and probably still are the back bone of the majority of crews i've either hung with and or been around..like is it something about me and my loyalty issues or trust issues that keeps someone wanting to say "Yeah Sincere (Rick) is actually a good person to us but hell to others" Or "Yeah Sincere? He aint about shit but was good for the time being or helped me get past my milestone to help and or make me a better person?" i dont know i never really sit down and try to even hold a candle to the thought of what it could possibly be? Do i care? Honestly? Why yes i do, But care enough to lose sleep over it? Fuck no, I lose enough sleep on my own accord so i dont need to lose any pondering on some shit like i'm brain from pinky & the brain or some shit like dead ass seriously...

Another random shit is..Why in the fuck i do have one of my like "In Depth" Blogs is when sitting here E's laptop? It aint like i aint used to using Rachele's macbook but it seems like everytime all of us is out here (Minus Chris the lost child) I just sit here at 5 in the A.M. and black spit some of my thoughts and try to spill my deepest of thoughts, i mean i really dont know but dont really care long as i know i'm letting it out and getting my stress or "Therapy" as i like to call it out. So i will not have to worry about just blackin on someone and like kickin madd dirt on their shoes or buying a the biggest whiffle bat possible and wearing that ass out...Lmao..Outside of all that..This relationship shit is so called cool...Its like i imagined it but to take it one step further i've been feeling this whole "Committed Relationship" scene, not only does it help share your pain with but also you share theirs, which is pretty much cool when they actually open up and talk to you instead of bitching but hey fuck it comes with the territory. So i dont really mind it, now if she does i mean i dont know then again i do...But not one to care if she's not going to make it known, but hey i'm not one to bitch and moan about something that may not exist...or if it does so fuck me sideways with monkey screw.

On some other ish i've been browsing Luxuryportfolio.com...pretty good site for all those upscale expensive cribs you spend like 12-14 figs on but well worth the price...speaking of which i might go browse it when i'm done but i've been looking at it with Rachele (Damn i know that name comes up alot doesnt it lmblueao)but she been having me lookin' at cribs in the Canadian bridges and shit, not to mention the N.O. (New Orleans) pretty good house but i've personally been diggin the cribs oversea's and on the East coast (Lol I'ma East Coast Ny Kid @ Heart) but i dont know i'm not letting my dreams go of owning one of these homes sometime in the future but dreaming big never hurt no one did it?...Lmao but anywho i'm bout to go shoot at some things and or people on "Wanted:Weapons Of Faith (Demo)" on the 360 or play modern warfare (C.O.D) ...Catch Me Til Next Time Laterz

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