The Odd Nigga Out

The odd nigga out, I mean today was a pretty…well not so pretty day for me. Not only will this blog be posted probably some days after this date which it was written, It is 10/29/09 by the way I’ll probably look back on this blog as one of the most monumental days where it was I felt like the bottom of the bottom. Could it be the fact I have yet to start my job? Maybe it could be the question’s my love asked me still remain in the back of my head, which makes me feel even less of a person or probably a great boyfriend or love. Whichever you prefer to label it, Then my grandmother constantly bitchin’ and or making me feel more of the reason I am between the bickering that goes one between the woman who birthed me and the woman who birthed her. It does not make it any better that I caught wind that my little brother witnessed a person get completely ran over by a truck, that kinda pissed me off to know that but also put me at ease that nothing negative happen to the nigga. I’m slowly beginning to wish all of these emotions will like sub-side before I slip into some sort of depression (Again!), like I love how everything is going minus a few bumps and scrapes nah mean? Outside of that, there is nothing really plaguing me besides the main event of my day that kind of really like destroyed my feelings, I haven’t seen mommy in a grip which meant I felt overdue for a visit and it just so happened Ty. Had impeccable timing I got to kick it with him for a bit, see my manz Chick Wigity TuFli but mommy caught a attitude with me as if I did something wrong. Which was not complete the task she asked of me, nonetheless Ty did do it and it may not have been, but that is the “Trial & Error” aspect of giving someone a shot at something you believed them not capable of them doing. Outside of that I still feel some hostility between me and Brittany which I could care less about at this point, I would love for it to be nonexistent but oh well that is just part of the territory.
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I am like having the wildest craving for some junk food or some wing dings, I cannot wait until I begin getting money as I work so I can like handle the things I want to as a male or as a man some would say. I still believe “Good Things Come To Those Who Wait” even though I believe I’ve ran out of patience, I still hope everything falls into place or something picks my mood up even though Ajene will be attempting to take my “Box” after I get done with this blog. Other than that I miss my nigga Tuna P (Boogie) atleast when she was here before she left I knew I could call the nigga and talk to her unlike the other person who I call my “Lil Sista”, That’s all I want to go in on as far as that goes. That’s another blog for another day, I just want everything back to how it was before people left and money, Ego’s, and car’s, courts and shit got involved. I guess I am just wishing for the impossible when I say that not only due to to the things and the decisions that were made, but then again everything happens for reason or Treason? <~~ just something for you to ponder on while reading this blog, I had the feeling after Ty went on to class I just wanted to be alone with my sweetie. Like deadass though, I enjoy all of my brothers company and know it’s well needed but everyone is off doing their own thing which is always a plus but it has been a minute before we were all in the same place at the same time. I assume I miss that and wish for it to happen again but do not know where to start or have it happen, I would love for all of us and our love ladies in our life to go out but Chris would not bring Jenniva. Ty would bring probably bring Britt or someone else , Egan would find a way to wiggle out of it unshaved so he would not have to be badgered about who he would have had to bring…or he would come alone. I would be content with it being myself, Ty, Ajene, Chicky Wing, and maybe Britt if she ever comes off of that high fucking horse of hers. Until then I’m dreaming on the lost and not bound to happen. Well that completes this blog my lady went and hit the shower, I assume because of my mood but its nothing against her it never is. She’ll be banging my box soon enough so everything will be ok hopefully….Night yall…

Tell Ya Friends Your Ok, Your Just Chillin Wit Me...Have A Drink Its On Me

Umm my fucking right hand is tingling in the worst way as I type this, I’m kinda better right now so let’s jump in. Today was not the best of days for some reason; I honestly do not know why things were slow. I slept most of the day away and feeling beyond low, which is not like me and it’s fucked up when my love took notice and constantly reminded me. Not that it was anything wrong with that I did make her aware of my ways for feeling such a way, and she reminded me about why I shouldn’t feel that particular way. Which I am totally glad that is why I love and or her being present in my life is for, other than that my foul mood came with the fact my grandmother came calling and interrogating me on someone else’s life. Which I do not have a problem with long as she are going through the right channels to do this, don’t come to me flinging outrageous questions at me about where this person stayed and or their address for a lot of reasons. I mean like she came hounding me as if I am to be her personal information seeker like I’m supposed to involve myself in someone else’s business, that does not include those of the Fam (ilia) Royale Administration. Other than that was pretty much the reasoning behind my foul mood, so this blog wont turn out to be as long as I intended for it to be. I cant wait to get to work, my bloodthirst for my own money and hustle again is beginning to pique. I refuse to be let down, or let others around me down unlike some folk I have a crew I have to get busy for. I have a clique of brothers and sister I have to get busy for, I have my Chicky wing I have to get busy for. Ajene is whom I get busy for, Ty, Alicia,Kobe, Bitty, NaeNae,Tuna P, B Howze ole dumbass. The list goes on forever and I refuse to be let down even if some people on my list do not give me the respect I deserve or earned, that’s all good though I’ll continue to take it by force and make you understand. That’s my rant for the day…P.S. I still protect you until my very last breath no matter how this turns out…I Love You. She’ll read this when she awakes or sooner or later, Thank you for everything.
“AZ – I Just Wanna Be There.” Youtube This Song…..

Unsung Woes

The unsung hero…I that’s like been one of my major thoughts throughout the day, like I was really kickin’ back and thinking of my past personal accomplishments. I can honestly say that I’ve done a lot rather it was for me or the betterment of others, even though it may sound as if I am gassing myself up or something of that caliber I assume that is the humble asshole speaking inside of me. Outside of that I was thinking about someone claiming that “Rick is too nice”, which wouldn’t normally be a problem if you knew me and why I decide to reveal that side of me. Given that person did not know me on any possible mutual level to say that it made that female sound quite fucking stupid, but I am not to knock her in the least bit. Just if you are to pre-judge someone based on little to no interaction that would make whatever you would have to judge or think kind of irrelevant correct? Or am I just jumping the gun or something? Then again I could care less so does that make me just as fucked up that person? Oh well, moving along I haven’t blogged in a while given I’ve been ass cheeks deep under my gf. Which is always a great thing but I do not want to seem as if I’m smothering her with myself or such, last time I tried that..That backfired terribly. Any whom the day went by smoothly given the lil episode I refuse to speak on, only bad thing was Chris had gotten into a car accident. My lil dun is str8, and so is Chris so all is wel and not many more worries are burdening me for now.
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The other reason for this blog is because of what was said to me earlier on this past Tuesday, and that was someone I considered a great person/friend in my inner circle. She referred to me as spiteful and bitter, shows how much she know when and one point and time she was my right hand in reference to the women I dealt with. That was before she ended up getting sexed up, I’m not even going to go in on that particular time. Moving along she was quite smart we happened to have been there for her in times of need over and over again, but you cannot simply just put all your eggs in one basket. Which was simply my mistake little did she know I was there to protect her from shit that was said or shit she had got entangled in, but I simply know I will not miss the friendship but the bond we had and cherished memories. Going off into another part of the day, Umm I really haven’t heard from Ty TuFli and Chick wiggity. Kind of pissed about that, I heard from Egan (you’re a bad dude sir) we politicked for a minute he was supposed to call me back. I’m beginning to think that my job will continue to prolong the finale of this hiring process, rather it is to conclude in my hiring or not being hired even though we all know I hope for the best.
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Umm haven’t heard from Tuna P in a day or 2, might be busy with band and classes I assume. Other than that wasn’t much out of order, besides Ladana hittin’ me up on my FB wall. That my homie not only because she’s a fellow Pisces, but because if she brightens up a tad more she’d be going further in life. Charmaine kind of lifted my spirits in telling me I’m not “Too nice” hell, I say again if you tell me something consistently over and over again I’m bound to begin believing you. That just goes to show it is not hard to hurt me, but long as you attempt to keep it honest with me you can heal and hurt me at the same time. I am the only one that can kill me, you might not understand where I got it from but if you do thank you. Until next time people I’m off to the stars.

Bk STAND UP!!!!

I Just not got a chance to watch
Loso's Way...Since It Is One Of My Fav Top 5 Dead Or Alive....
Fav Borough Still Harlem World..Nigga Wat It Look Like...
For Now...Its Ty's Fav Borough Bed Stuy Bitch...Fabolous Wat It Look like...

Harlem Boi Feels Left Out Of It...

So yes, I managed to get my hair braided finally like I set out to do. I deadass got the 2 fishbone braids I've been hoping to get, only downside is I dont have a line up and I have to eventually get my split ends clipped. I'm scared to like clip my ends on some honest shit, the more I contemplate it the more I just might have to do it nah mean? other than that my day has been lagging since I had to rush from Jessica's spot (the chich whom braids my hair) to my grandmother's home. To sit with my lil cousin while grandma and my aunt head to the ER, I hope everything is everything with my grandmother. I may not like the woman most times but I honestly cannot deal with 2 funerals within the same year, but let me not go in on that topic I'll move to something else. Ummm tomorrow is suppose to be the day I get the call to start work (Hopefully) and be on and rising, doing something positive and continuing to become something someone swore I'd never be. I kept telling people not to sleep on me, But hey you cant make those believe who do not want to believe nah mean?
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Ummm outside of that I was thinking about my gf, in reference to the lil situation that pissed her off. Yet again I really do not intend to piss no one off, and hope that it never happens again. Every time something pops off it simply reminds me of a similar situation I had dealt with, I mean its totally different yet I just do not want to do or touch anything to make this relationship falter. There is nothing worse than making a relationship falter, its the 2nd worst feeling to hearing a supposed love of your life is not pregnant (Someone will try to shit on me about that). I'm just trying to clear my head since I am sitting here lost in thought of alil of everything from work, To this Fli Life (Relationship and all) will not come to an end. I swear I keep telling myself I do not understand what it is about me that can be extremely willing to risk all no matter the cause just to see a relationship I personally enjoy see another day, and now since I've been with Ajene I feel like I am more than obliged to protect her @ any given cost. Just like I told myself with that last person I was with, I just want to see and enjoy her smile and keep her happy.
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I call myself doing that in the previous relationship, but I know given alot of shit that did not go right or be told lead to different reasons of that downfall. Especially the fact there was lil to no faith in me, even to see me succeed. I'ma stop while I'm ahead before I put myself back into a mental state of hurt or slight depression knowing I had pissed my love off, I do not know where I got that from but its best I stop while I'm ahead. So moving on, I swear I wish i could be heading back to the apt. I just wanna lay in peace and enjoy her company, I dont mean to sound cakey but hey. I do enjoy when she lays her head on my back. or falls asleep laying her head on my back, or just cuddling with her in the bed not having to worry about being told "move the fuck over" or anything else of that nature.I enjoy the fact we can just lay up and converse about any and everything, right along with the fact I enjoy her music as much as she enjoys mine. Without worry of having to be snapped on, I mean it may sound like I'm bashin someone or throwing them under the bus when I'm not. Just simply making note and known of what I really do enjoy of this woman, I dead ass enjoy her beauty to a point it cannot even be put into words...
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I feel out of it today, which was pretty much the point of this blog but so happened to turn into something else. Hey but then again creation today, I was left out of it. Damn...left out of it....Anywhom I'm off to browse the web until its time to get ghost so...laters...

Ratatat!!!

Hyyer!! That is like one of my fav joints off of that album, If you do not know what album I speak of you better ask someone. Today was a slow yet busy day; I hit the gym with Edwardo this past afternoon. Had somewhat of a decent run along with the 10 people whom were present, afterwards I made it back home to be left in limbo if the Mrs. Was coming back to her queendom ( I was shot down mind you it is 10:12pm), So I feel let down given I just like had a complete urge to blog. Since it seems like shit just will or won’t go right for me for some odd reason, I’m left to talk to Ty which is always a great thing it keeps our path of communication flowing like a river with a smooth current. The typical women I have great conversation with are nowhere to be found; Jeanette is probably still working or probably asleep early. LaLa is out chasing dick…I take that back I find funny how soon as I type her name she text’s me, Kellee is probably being in the hood somewhere. Ajene the most important woman is probably sleeping soundly or still conversing with her father, Ty is playing the game or getting some box. I would go holla @ Q (Ajene’s bestfriend) but honestly outside of seeing her when I am with Ajene I try not to really float around Q, Its not like I wouldn’t mind hanging with her I just assume that is one of those unspoken/unwritten boundaries you do not want to cross nah mean?
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Outside of that someone believes I was wronged from a past relationship and wants to make amends for it, I do feel once you wrong someone rather they had it coming or not depending on the degree you wronged them. You should not want to warrant another go around because of that person could still be upset that they were wronged and was aware of it while it happened and yet still kicked and scratched to the very bitter end, and was not rewarded with what that person wanted at that time and being in chronic belief that it would never happen again I personally sought out comfort and love in other arms. Lucked up and found more than that in Ajene, but with me typing this I am liable to make some shit worse and make some things better this is just thoughts in my mind while I’m smacked soberly intoxicating my blog with potent words of love/hatred. I am at a limbo for fiending for affection knowing sweetest day is tomorrow, and my misses is nowhere to be found besides probably in her bed sound asleep.
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Umm other than that I still am like pissed I am texting LaLa as I write this and still in need of direct comfort from my love, is that a bad sign? I hope not. Then again it may not be just shows how much devotion or dedication I have to her, or maybe I’m just a terrible boyfriend…Lmao but deadass though, If I am a terrible boyfriend what is my husband rating or husband resume looking like? See this is why I need not to be listening to “Well Isnt This Awkward?” while gettin smacked on a blog. This is some total bs I would be browsing the net in search of some flick scenes from my fav porn star’s Kitten, Angel Eyes, Jada Fire, Or Beauty Dior, But I already said the net is to be used in increment’s. So yet I am here on Microsoft word blogging my life and erect penis away, bullshit right? Anywhom I am about ready to like blow a wad on someone’s cheeks, Let me chill and fallback off the sex talk. I’ma just continue to enjoy the music I’m bangin in hopes of my love calling me back, and or bang some Chuck Hamilton and read my book. I re iterate the book I am reading is titled “Velocity” by Dean Koontz great book so far, even though I am like in “porn on pages mode” I want a Zane book to read but I strayed away from those books for a great reason. Anywhom starchasers its your boy Sincere Hamilton/Sincere Hamalades Off to the stars again. If anything new pops up you’ll see a new blog…Beaming up to scotty’s pad for the night…

Just Self Kept Time In My Mind

Umm am I a fuck up? Or just someone who does things that one may not be pleased with? That is just one of the many questions I ask myself day in and day out, I never come up with the right or wrong answer so I ask again why I should be thinking about that in the first place. Any whom today was a ok day me and the love went to CVS to grab a few household products, I did not want to blog this out but given the text message that had yet to be answered caused that series of questions/daily thoughts ya know? Then after we hit up CVS my mother finally showed her face to help me go grab a few more things to toss into the fridge, she bitched as always but I assume it was because of her pulled muscle in her arm or whatever is wrong with her left wing (arm). Outside of that I did get a chance to see my youngest cousin Courtney, she had gotten her tonsils removed this past Tuesday she seems like she is handling the healing process well. Even though I found out they cut out the whole”ice-cream” thing after the process, Um I seen my aunt Cora and had great mini-conversation along with that. Other than that I found a cool look Dean Koontz book to read called “Velocity” it is cool thus far, Outside of that I’ve been kinda self kept. Where the fuck is Ty Tufli @? On days like this we usually have us a great in depth conversation; then again he did call me earlier while I was sleep so that could be the missed opportunity. Damn it! Lol deadass though that opportunity will present itself again b4 the night is over with. I Hope…
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Other than that I’ve been pondering work Monday, also kind of hurt my kicks had to be returned. Due to the wrong size but hey it’s cool though, I’ll see them again sooner than I think. I’ve been pondering other things I’ve yet made clear to my love, which are typical things… If I’ll succeed at work, or will I even start you know? Just typical jitter bugs I assume so when you read this don’t press spacebar and flip on me. I love you though like deadass tuff, Other than that she did answer my text message back in the process of me typing this blog. Just to clear that up and get that out the way, I got a chance to briefly get @ boogie earlier lol my nigga Tuna P (Tunapuna) but had to hit her back later since at that time I was out with my mother and moving things. So if and when you see this Tuna P (Boogie) I didn’t forget about you on purpose kiddo, I was busy no pun intended love. Umm I did receive a few other calls the were out of the ordinary, well at least for me…The first came from Charmaine, which is one of my bro’s Gf. Who hit me up out the random, now mind you I do not really talk to her like that. Given we have been having more serious caliber conversations from time to time, about her and his relationship. I try to answer whatever questions she may have to the best of my ability, but I do not have certain answers for her given most people would take that as it being a cover-up for my bro’s. In most cases it is far from it but not a lot of the females we deal with or are connected with understand that in the least bit, they just paint me off as the dude that just “ride or die” and would lie for my brothers at any given chance. Which is true but that is another blog for another day nah mean?
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I’m planning on just slowly falling off the scene now Me and Ty tufli have jobs now, It does not take much to appease me or keep me happy as hell. I’m beyond that when I’m with my Gf and knowing I have a roof over my dome and a bed to sleep in, when I honestly foreseen me being on the street (again) back in the dark emo shit I used to dwell in. I’m not about to go in on that, Lol it sparked a dying moment and I’m trying to keep it high spirited for great reason. Even though it may seem I am blabbering again, if I am…OH FUCKIN WELL!! You shouldn’t have come to this blog anyway, go download some shit or play cyber sex games. Sweetie’s day is still on the prowl and coming closer, what am I to do? It was posed we have a complete sex fest. Which I’m down for but I know she’ll drain me and probably end up pregnant (LMAO!!), Ty gets what I’m saying with that said. Um besides that I am trying to figure out what form of entertainment I could possibly have or get until I get a gaming system in my life again since I passed off the 360 to Ty, I’m beyond bored and hate it I don’t even have no cable to watch and that would be like the last resort thing to do. All I have until I begin working is CH, this netbook with limited internet (I need not to run up any bills I do not pay). I had more than enough trouble with that even when I was not the one running up the bills, so that is why I only rely on a gaming system. Even then if it is not mines I’ll less likely pick it up. Since people have a nature to make a bold statement claiming it’s theirs as if they are a dog pissing on a tree dig me? So with that said I really try to stay off of this netbook since it is not mine, with no pun being shot at its owner I just had my run with people who are beyond tight about their electronics. <~~~with that last line someone is bound to IM me about that, just like earlier which that nigga never answered my question about why she feels I am raging war on her life. <~~~yet again this will be another topic of discussion with that said, Am I not full of attention seeking lines? This is why I shall end thie blog some time soon.
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For the record again my blogs are pre-typed since the internet is to be used in increments, and I would hate to have my gf trying to thrash me so I do type these on Microsoft word b4 hand. I post them and log right the fuck back off, once I am financially sound enough to cop my own laptop and/or internet connection to roll with it then we’d be back up and running so until then. Love me, love Mexican food and anime…Laterz… KeepIt Harlem

Encore...

Ight deadass though, now by time this blog will be posted. Let alone hit the net, I’ll Probably have others up since I am typing this on Microsoft word VIA no net connection. Today was a lil above average nah mean? I got a chance to hang with Jessica (The chick who braids my hair for me), it’s not often I get a chance to venture out and hang with her outside of her being my “Hairdresser” She’s mad cool though. Best friend potential she got a chance to meet Mrs. Ray, They did not get a chance to sit and parlay but they did get introduced since they happen to live less than a mile away from one another. She also got the chance to meet Chris, they kicked it for a bit but not on no “Let’s see who this chick is who braids my bro hair” type shit. Don’t know why I expected Chris to, but then again he can be one to surprise.
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Now to kinda sidetrack for a minute it is not in my character to address inner circle problems publicly, But to Brittany Howze I would like to let it be known that text you received from Ty. In reference to that pot he asked your stupid ass to clean, You didn’t have to text me back with that bitch made attitude. Then along with the other insults and ignorant things of a kin to “Howze” you said behind that was not called for, Let alone the other things that were sent back from my end. For you to take your whack ass attitude out on me because the text wasn’t received until late is not my problem in the least bit, I do not work for fucking T-mobile and you had no right to even attempt to explode on me because of your ass being mad at Ty for whatever fucking reason you decided to blow up. Other than that you are very incompetent (If u know what that means), and when you decide to actually open your damn mind then we can chat and patch this up. I still love you as you are my lil sister but that stupid shit was not called for you whack nigga.
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On to other orders of business now I’ve cleared that up for the dumb people (Niggaz), I received my Dunks today I’m deadass happy about about that. Only downfall is I have to go up a Half size or str8 to a 12, Which is not much of a problem I just hope that I am able to start work on Monday October 19th (My kid brother “Bitty’s” 14th Bday). Damn big bro is getting old watching his babies grow up, Kobe will be 5, Lyandra will be 5 next year, Frank will be 4 Next year, NaeNae Will be 13…Damn that’s alil too much man. Oh!! While I’m thinking of it, Jessica Leavell Tunapuna ass nigga you did not return my call you band boot lickin’ ass crab. I oughta Bust your fuckin head, moving on Umm Mrs Ray…I’m awating your return so this is while I am bloggin’. Ty TuFli didn’t call me when he got off work, If he is off work black bastard. Umm other than that there are nothing more major to cover and or blog about, besides November is coming up so that mean’s I will get back to my every Rick Ray’s Ex Girlfriends Nightmare series soon. Yeah, I know I have taken more than an “Extended break” with that but you all did live through that situation with me. Only because of my ex asking me I believe about 2-3 months ago about what could or would be said within her blog when her name is called, She has somewhat of a general idea, Then again its probably so far off base that I may not even know what I am Liable to say.
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I will say this though while I have spoken to a few sources close to me while I was cookin up some shit for her, I will be droppin pictures of certain points throughout our relationship throughout the months we were together. Now some will read this and think “Why is he acknowledging his Ex so much? Don’t that nigga have a new gf or wifey?”. To answer one of your questions, Why yes I do and I’ve mentioned her name throughout many of blogs. In reference to why the Ex gets this treatment? Is to lead up to answering her supposed questions, or maybe to piss the nigga off even more since I felt I was slated…Well know I was slated. I intend to extract something out of her, what could it be? If I only knew, I do know I have evoke the worst side of that nigga throughout our course of what was once a relationship. So I do know one thing if I know no other about that nigga, I can get completely under her skin and push her beyond her own mental limits or expectations when it comes to antagonizing her like no other. I Stand by that and very willingly admit (Don’t mind this word, even though I said I would never call you one directly) that the bitch can damn sure get under my own skin just as well as I’ve did hers.
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Mrs Zeigler-Ray, however you want to put it or word it. I love you, you set my soul and then some on fire. It is not a little spark but a roaring flame deadass though, I appreciate every little thing that you do and do not do. Not saying there are things you do not do, but you do get the picture correct? I hope you do, outside of that umm if your still reading this emotion I spill onto this blog I thank you. If you made it this far and do not relate nigga it’s the internet go download some porn or music or something bastard. Other than the I’m pretty much done, just blabbin off at the fingers since I was in the mood to type and I’ve had not done a very elaborative blog in a while so just to let you know I’m god with and extra O (Just some shit for you to get mad @ just because) So now you’re here on my blog, You’ve came home with me. Dig? Other than that shouts to Fam(ilia) Royale…Ty, E (You Bitch U Aint Call Me back),Chris, Felicia, Angel…Chicky Wing Tufli….Boogie (AKA Tunapuna) Umm anyone I managed to forget..I didn’t do it on purpose…I’m out on to the next blog…And to the Person Ex, You left me when I was out of it and you’re a fool for what your doing and or whom your with. He may be better than me physically but not mentally, He’s pussy with no tampon. That’s the “Rick Ray” shit I be talking about…oh and a Random thing this blog no was 1,189 words .

Thank Me Later After You Leave Me...

this blog title might or might not hsve much of snything to do while I type this on the shitter, snyehom it eas a busy weekend and yet hell filled after coming to a few more realizations. Given I do not particularky care for masny of my supposed godmother's relatives, I came to the conclusion that the older I get the more I can no longer stand those who knew me when I was younger. Only due to the fact of how shit has been playin' out since June 6th 2009 (R.I.P. Mary), I mean we all knew this was coming and I'm going a tad soft while typing this with tears of anger and of release I guess. I just want those to come home with me (Enter Random Show Tufli Mixtape Track Here), I'm glad I finally made the transition of moving from the old stomping grounds to the new place with new memories to live on with. It's hard to believe it was a year since I had moved there...
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September is what made it a year for me, And if I would've known that this was bound to happen and I mean everything that happened terrible. I would've remained in southfield, Like deadass Life may not have been better or worse but still. I Set back the other day while riding back to my godfathers pad, And came to the realization I stated above. Along with the fact I have a forever growing hatred for those who either have not seen or dealt with me in years, attempt to treat you like you were the same age you were last time they seen you. My godfather...well more so godparents refer to me as their "eldest son", and back in March I probably would've been elated. Now it like pissed me off to another extent, I assume because of the last 2 weeks things with supposed people aint never been the same. Other reasons included, I would go into detail but you know how certain people are...They do not want you to put their "biz out there" , So we'll move on But if you happen to read this blog. The title is for you...marinate on that...Other than that i gotta book out so laterz folk

Chill....

I have had a mediocre day, none the less it did start off super slow. As always it picked up thanks to Ajene, I was able to move my things like we had set out to along with a few other things left behind. I do hope to finish that off tomorrow or sometime soon, Also I talked to the chick at this job I am trying to land in hopes of getting a interview tomorrow and hopefully a hire in. I mean like digz I would love to get a job and begin working, I really do miss working and the fact of helpin' folk and just earning my own money. Hopefully I can and will manage my money better, with the help of her I believe I can do anything. Along with hopes of getting my ipod sometime in the near future if my supposed god-parents do not fuck me in the process like they are known to.
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I'm sittin here texting Ajene as you probably read this but outside of that, I am bangin that Show Tufli "Come Home With Me" Mixtape. Gr8 tunes and one of them set of tracks I bang that gets me by, Plus their from my favorite city in the world...HARLEM WORLDBITCH!!!!!!!! I Am Harlem-American Bitch Wat It Look Like...Outside of that I'm just in deep thought of the things I deal with day to day, also the conversation I've had with Ajene my sweetie. I swear to side track for a quick sec, I Love her to the utmost and it continues to grow at a massive rate. Thank you for the faith and things you bring out in me, I hope this lasts forever this Fli Life should not come to an end anytime soon nah mean?
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Other than that Bro bro Ty has gotten a job finally, so we on the road up to another level.Boogie hold ya head ma, everything will remain okay no need to spazz out your just catching a lil hell for the things...And to my Ex You seemed to hate me ever so much and I've been every name in the book, lil did you know I remained true to the things i first said to you...And u seemed not to respect or knowledge the fact I honored that over anything...And protected you...So U couldnt respect that and called my hustle whach so hopefully when I faded to black you reflect upon the positive things instead of the bad things...

This Is Why I Remain Fuckin' Evil To People...

Who I Used To Be Like Cool With...
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People let dick and pussy goes to their domes, Like seriously that not only pissed me off in the slightest. It just feels like people slight themselves out of friendships because of some dick/pussy gone str8 to their head, Like I want to go off on a loud yet aggravating rant...But I've done enough of that for one day and possibly just had more than enough, seriously like afterwhile if people start apologizing or asking forgiveness. Will not get it, No sir not at all it may be wrong to give it or even fathom that thought. I am deadass tired of that because I get slighted every chance I get, I'm glad it paid off with Ajene being in my life. Even though I felt I was slighted this whole year over people choosing other people or working out a balance of people, but hey who the fuck am I to care anymore? I just simply hate taking losses.....And yet again I'll bang my Anthem as I leave you with the reading above.
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If I was on some ole "Lift Skirts To Exposes The Pussies Or Tampon String" You bitches or Niggaz Have I'd Be a real Whack Dude now wouldnt I? It's completely cool though, This war is not nor really over or close to it. I will be leaving the hallways of everyone's mind, FOR GOOD!!!! So no one will have to worry about me nor will the ones I talk to on a day in day out basis, It'll make everyone happy wont it? I'm pretty sure it will....And If Anyone ever cares to know you should find me here talkin' amongst myself on my own blog...

Just Look Through My Eye's...

I Just want to kick back, And hopefully lay in pastures of green paved ways. I mean it may not sound understandable, But believe you...me I really want this job interview to come and land the job afterwards. Me & Ty spoke about just wanting to work, I mean of course Who does not want to work? Especially @ a place you would love to go to. BTW I'm browsing for my Ipod and bright Yellow Supra's, Since someone...Nah I Aint even going to go there, I am determined to land those Bright yellow jawns like I've planning to since last year in Nov or December. Anywhom I'm to be moving shit right now but given alot of things or having to depend on someone else's schedule, Like really pisses me off. I hate depending on others outside of my clique....For my own particular reasons but anywhom i'm off to browse my drooing love for kicks later's Dun dun's....

The Lost Tapes

There will be blog's that I have not finished being posted throughout the time of this blog, Lol like deadass there are very little I have not finished but the majority of them have been posted. So lets see how much or how far you are willing to go to get to know me, An also I've been intending to get some stickers printed up and or made up for me to post around the city in random ass spots. So just incase you see me garner a lil internet buzz dont mind me, The fake shit will not start flying I only try to post what I live, and or think or breath. So you will be able to get to know me if it is possible or just would like to see whats going on throughout someone else's life nah mean? Outside of that I'm just sitting here looking up shoe's and plottin' on getting this job thing poppin'. I did have more I would've Loved to have yapped about, But I'm off to the crib I have Shit to move....



Verse 2 Is Because of you leaving me when I was out of it, And You should understand the rest...

The Thoughts....

The more I sit here and chill while lost in thought, I find it nah right and outta sight (insider) deadass chillin' and watching the food network. Yeah, A nigga gets his fats on while laidback though. Um other than that I am still thinking praying and hoping I get this interview @ the mall, So I can possibly work there which would seem fun. Outside of the web of Deceit and networking around that I could fall into, I mean call it me thinking wild deep and more than ahead of myself but Hey! that is just flat the fuck out me. Umm other than that there is a tad more drama Amongest the Fam Royale boi's as always, what might it be? Do not ask you all know I stay tight wit the facts depending on the situation since I want to keep things in house if you catch what I am saying.
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Outside of that my lil sister has had her finger slammed in a locker on some fluke shit, And she told me herself her finger is still swollen and she cannot feel it. That has bothered me all the way to the core and its like really pissing me off, I felt like just laying my headback and letting the waterworks flow. Not to mention the little fight me and my GF had, Now do not get me wrong I love her unconditionally and I assume we've moved beyond it. Then again my supposed "Godfather" came rappin that bullshit again, And I Was deadass having a good day glad I have someone who can do more than keep my spirits beyond the sky. Nah mean!? Outside of that I'm slowly but surely hating the fact some of the tension between my crew is gettin' thick, For what reason? Cause one believes someone is always out to be in his business. When it is not like that at all, but what can you do when someone stubborn just does not listen at all?
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Other than that those are the things that was bothering me, I'm off to search for some new music to download and possibly somenew friends and shit...Lol Fam Royale Sincere Hamalades Signing Off

The Moves Closer And Closer...

So Um yea, My last blog was not the best of my blogs. With that being said everything has its ups and downs and hopefully we made it past that, Other than that I hit up fairlane yet again and hope this job lead will go a tad further than what the last one went. Outside of that Me and the lady are back in the frontseat having mad fun,other than that I could blog more but I am not really in the mood to and I'm talking to Cora right about now....Dibbs Laterz