in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine. ~Pablo Neruda
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Friday, November 26, 2010
Fear
This is why I do blog.I think they call this, umm...venting last I ever checked.
Look this is me no artificial things, just things I feel that plague me over time. More so things I go through on a daily, or weekly basis. I'm still the same despite a few bumps and scrapes, I play the game because games were played on us. If that makes any sense to you, but I hope you can feel the my pain sometimes as I articulate some of the things I go through. Rather mentally, physically I let it all come spilling out. I hope you all know that, alot of people are the reason I have fun in life. Some thinking that I'm highly self absorbed with myself, Honestly I do not think I am. Equal opportunity amongst different females I know say other wise, to me that shit is a lil too unreal for me. That's not how it'll work, that will not be how it goes. An we alil to far high on my horse, then I fell and got lost in the lows. Though I always openly share my thoughts, and my heart that's honestly all I know. Every time I try to close that door, it opens up my eyes. These blogs are insights to the things that you'll see when you look into my eyes, And I would be continuing this as long as I possibly can. So every word I utter will always be mine.
Even if everything you could hear about me may or may not be lies, Ever want truth? Look me in my eyes, don't be scared of me. Please don't be scared of what you might see. I remember her, Those feelings are no longer new or true.
Fuck all yall, I'm bound to ignore feelings here. But it's funny having a blog.
That could get you found before anybody ever has the chance, And plus things are just surreal at home. People Know I've changed just because my mind has probably gone, actually I feel I am alone, It just always feel alone. "I think I'm scared of what the future holds." Word to Aubrey lol, I was wish some things that I dont get and now am used to those. Every woman I met either thinks I'm fucking some of my female friends or I was with that Jacinta woman. The honesty of my blog really leaves me too exposed, All my old crew think I got a new crew. Also people seem to notice every time I do smile, I guess that means that defense mechanism comes few and far between....That's all I have. Room for more, as my life continues.... ~Sincere Ray
Look this is me no artificial things, just things I feel that plague me over time. More so things I go through on a daily, or weekly basis. I'm still the same despite a few bumps and scrapes, I play the game because games were played on us. If that makes any sense to you, but I hope you can feel the my pain sometimes as I articulate some of the things I go through. Rather mentally, physically I let it all come spilling out. I hope you all know that, alot of people are the reason I have fun in life. Some thinking that I'm highly self absorbed with myself, Honestly I do not think I am. Equal opportunity amongst different females I know say other wise, to me that shit is a lil too unreal for me. That's not how it'll work, that will not be how it goes. An we alil to far high on my horse, then I fell and got lost in the lows. Though I always openly share my thoughts, and my heart that's honestly all I know. Every time I try to close that door, it opens up my eyes. These blogs are insights to the things that you'll see when you look into my eyes, And I would be continuing this as long as I possibly can. So every word I utter will always be mine.
Even if everything you could hear about me may or may not be lies, Ever want truth? Look me in my eyes, don't be scared of me. Please don't be scared of what you might see. I remember her, Those feelings are no longer new or true.
Fuck all yall, I'm bound to ignore feelings here. But it's funny having a blog.
That could get you found before anybody ever has the chance, And plus things are just surreal at home. People Know I've changed just because my mind has probably gone, actually I feel I am alone, It just always feel alone. "I think I'm scared of what the future holds." Word to Aubrey lol, I was wish some things that I dont get and now am used to those. Every woman I met either thinks I'm fucking some of my female friends or I was with that Jacinta woman. The honesty of my blog really leaves me too exposed, All my old crew think I got a new crew. Also people seem to notice every time I do smile, I guess that means that defense mechanism comes few and far between....That's all I have. Room for more, as my life continues.... ~Sincere Ray
Thursday, November 25, 2010
For you...Whoever you are, Where ever you are, I'll never let you burn
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"Things used to be, now they not
Anything but us is who we are
Disguising ourselves as secret lovers
We’ve become public enemies
We walk away like strangers in the street
Gon for eternity
We erased one another
So far from where we came
With so much of everything, how do we leave with nothing
Lack of visual empathy equates the meaning of L-O-V-E
Hatred and attitude tear us entirely"
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Monday, November 22, 2010
The over packing male.
This post is inspired by a blog, that I had read and made me think of my ownself. lmao there I go again...being self absorbed. So what better to do on a rainy morning outside of work? or Sex? Blog, So here we roll.
I am:
A duder (obviously), single (i.e. playing the field with no main squeeze) I have/had a stable (more so collection) of ladies in my life that for some reason or another, I just might cant get rid of. As a result, I often tend to state that "The one for me" does not exist at all for me not one bit or, I have yet to me her Or probably lost her numerous times. Deadass though, when I scroll though my mental I often come across the following:
The “Crazy” Ex - (CX)
At one point in my life, I kept her number in my phone so I could avoid her calls or all together. When we were together, our relationship was nothing but stress and drama (depends on which ex of mines you pose this question/statement to) with some good sex thrown in, Oh yeah! Dont forget the attachment also because we all know that the crazier she was, the better the sex was deadass though.
The "Hell No! She's no hoe" friend (HG "Homegirl")
She is honestly and really one hell of a good friend to me. I’ve never shared any benefits, and she’s just od. Nah sayin? A really great friend also hey, it’s strictly platonic. no sexual attraction at all (maybe on her end ;)
The Friend who hands the pussy over (P.O.D) (Or Fakeass bestfriend)
We really did have an arrangement and seemingly that’s all there really is between the two of us. Though, on certain occasions I’ve been notorious to give her a call to just hang out, also sometimes that hanging out feels something more like a date (Even if the failed relationship with your other bff didnt work). It’s a really nice feeling to me atleast, so now I might call her up if I'm bored (and no one else is available) and want to go see a movie or dinner, Hell I'll maybe get some after…
The Random Twat (TRT)
Ma was a random freethrow from a few months back, hell maybe a year ago and it was worth a hit for this full moon out. But I have my P.O.D., so I don’t really need to call her, but if my plan with the p.o.d fails, I have this (adrenaline twat) to fall back on.
The Swimmer (TS)
She’s kinda like the HG, except mamio is not a friend. She could be someone I work with, or maybe know through a friend. But after a few choice meetings, this woman probably knows my favorite colors, my favorite positions (even though she hasn’t had the pleasure),My favorite teams and maybe possibly even knows that you have a CX or 3 or 4. How so you ask? Simple, remember when your crazyass ex showed messaged you on FB, looking for “closure” and you used the "Swimmer" as a prop girlfriend? Yeah sounds about right.
The Mamio that Got Away (TMTGA)
Lol Le Sigh… I wonder if her number is the same, hard to figure out why we never worked out yeah? I realized after it drifted that there may have been something there, but somehow it got fucked up. I wish those times I would have in the past drunk texted & called her. Maybe she Wouldn’t respond or may have.
The New Chapter (TNC)
I wish I could say that just met her, and I think there could be something there. but just in case, I won’t delete the numbers of any of the above…Why? Because you do not exist in my fantasy right now. I wish it was different, Though it is not for now. Just me lost in the single world...An you havent fluttered my way just yet....*Le Sigh*
You just can’t let go can you? No, I try to seemingly I do a horrible job at it. I remind myself of them people on that show called "Hoarders", sometimes they just can’t let go of shit; they believe they need to keep hold. Do you know what the hell happens to these people? They fucked around and end up being trapped by their own shit. That’s what typically happened to me my friend. I got kinda trapped by some of these women. Life is catching up with me, and I realized I was sorta trapped. I might not get to meet anyone new. An having actual friends (I.e. Juli B & Booty D) outside my bros, I’ve had the opportunity to watch myself how they see me. When I add to my collection and it’s impressive. If I say so myself...*distantly hears Booty D voice* (Bitch please our friendship began because I am his ex…and just about every broad knows who I am)
I was keeping them around because it felt good: deadass it fed my lil ego (Yes I do have one, I'ma damn guy for crying out loud!). Deadass, keep in mind that those above descriptions are not all my friends…hell but me the Hoarder?
Yeah, I am a Hoarder. Now is there anything wrong with Hoarding? Fuck yes! I could be stringing along women who are fully aware of my own actions, and maybe even judge me accordingly. Or they could completely be oblivious to my motivations (and fucked up past) when made aware of these, they could resent you. This is the reputation I am risking on putting out there ma. Let me put it this way:
I have to stop!!
(I’ll give you a minute to think…)
Do you see the signs? Are you thinking why haven’t "Sincere" met her? It’s probably because I might have already, but she couldn’t see me past all that garbage cluttering up my fucked up romance life. The majority of women can tell when us dudes are a Hoarder even if they don’t admit it to their-self.
So I’ll tell you what I told him: it’s time to clean house deadass though. Hope you enjoyed.
I am:
A duder (obviously), single (i.e. playing the field with no main squeeze) I have/had a stable (more so collection) of ladies in my life that for some reason or another, I just might cant get rid of. As a result, I often tend to state that "The one for me" does not exist at all for me not one bit or, I have yet to me her Or probably lost her numerous times. Deadass though, when I scroll though my mental I often come across the following:
The “Crazy” Ex - (CX)
At one point in my life, I kept her number in my phone so I could avoid her calls or all together. When we were together, our relationship was nothing but stress and drama (depends on which ex of mines you pose this question/statement to) with some good sex thrown in, Oh yeah! Dont forget the attachment also because we all know that the crazier she was, the better the sex was deadass though.
The "Hell No! She's no hoe" friend (HG "Homegirl")
She is honestly and really one hell of a good friend to me. I’ve never shared any benefits, and she’s just od. Nah sayin? A really great friend also hey, it’s strictly platonic. no sexual attraction at all (maybe on her end ;)
The Friend who hands the pussy over (P.O.D) (Or Fakeass bestfriend)
We really did have an arrangement and seemingly that’s all there really is between the two of us. Though, on certain occasions I’ve been notorious to give her a call to just hang out, also sometimes that hanging out feels something more like a date (Even if the failed relationship with your other bff didnt work). It’s a really nice feeling to me atleast, so now I might call her up if I'm bored (and no one else is available) and want to go see a movie or dinner, Hell I'll maybe get some after…
The Random Twat (TRT)
Ma was a random freethrow from a few months back, hell maybe a year ago and it was worth a hit for this full moon out. But I have my P.O.D., so I don’t really need to call her, but if my plan with the p.o.d fails, I have this (adrenaline twat) to fall back on.
The Swimmer (TS)
She’s kinda like the HG, except mamio is not a friend. She could be someone I work with, or maybe know through a friend. But after a few choice meetings, this woman probably knows my favorite colors, my favorite positions (even though she hasn’t had the pleasure),My favorite teams and maybe possibly even knows that you have a CX or 3 or 4. How so you ask? Simple, remember when your crazyass ex showed messaged you on FB, looking for “closure” and you used the "Swimmer" as a prop girlfriend? Yeah sounds about right.
The Mamio that Got Away (TMTGA)
Lol Le Sigh… I wonder if her number is the same, hard to figure out why we never worked out yeah? I realized after it drifted that there may have been something there, but somehow it got fucked up. I wish those times I would have in the past drunk texted & called her. Maybe she Wouldn’t respond or may have.
The New Chapter (TNC)
I wish I could say that just met her, and I think there could be something there. but just in case, I won’t delete the numbers of any of the above…Why? Because you do not exist in my fantasy right now. I wish it was different, Though it is not for now. Just me lost in the single world...An you havent fluttered my way just yet....*Le Sigh*
You just can’t let go can you? No, I try to seemingly I do a horrible job at it. I remind myself of them people on that show called "Hoarders", sometimes they just can’t let go of shit; they believe they need to keep hold. Do you know what the hell happens to these people? They fucked around and end up being trapped by their own shit. That’s what typically happened to me my friend. I got kinda trapped by some of these women. Life is catching up with me, and I realized I was sorta trapped. I might not get to meet anyone new. An having actual friends (I.e. Juli B & Booty D) outside my bros, I’ve had the opportunity to watch myself how they see me. When I add to my collection and it’s impressive. If I say so myself...*distantly hears Booty D voice* (Bitch please our friendship began because I am his ex…and just about every broad knows who I am)
I was keeping them around because it felt good: deadass it fed my lil ego (Yes I do have one, I'ma damn guy for crying out loud!). Deadass, keep in mind that those above descriptions are not all my friends…hell but me the Hoarder?
Yeah, I am a Hoarder. Now is there anything wrong with Hoarding? Fuck yes! I could be stringing along women who are fully aware of my own actions, and maybe even judge me accordingly. Or they could completely be oblivious to my motivations (and fucked up past) when made aware of these, they could resent you. This is the reputation I am risking on putting out there ma. Let me put it this way:
I have to stop!!
(I’ll give you a minute to think…)
Do you see the signs? Are you thinking why haven’t "Sincere" met her? It’s probably because I might have already, but she couldn’t see me past all that garbage cluttering up my fucked up romance life. The majority of women can tell when us dudes are a Hoarder even if they don’t admit it to their-self.
So I’ll tell you what I told him: it’s time to clean house deadass though. Hope you enjoyed.
Sunday, November 21, 2010
My life....OMG no one understands do they?
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OoOoOoOo my life...I cant stand it, And shit like this makes me want to shoot and dispose of a bitch. (Literally)....Forgive the anger read and weep it.
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Today is a new
Just had to say that...Off to the shower I diddy bop. Damn its good to be walking again, lol cant wait to run again also. Deadass though...
Friday, November 19, 2010
Women...Lmao...
Another day another personal victim, calling me going off about me and my status.
Stick that in your pipe and smoke it...lmao
Update!!! She mad tight about my FB status again....
All cause of this...
Oh yeah, and this too.
Thursday, November 18, 2010
The letter to the woman who gave birth to me. She'll probably never see.
Dear Ann,
I really do love you and commend you for giving birth to me, minus all of the other bullshit that happens to surround us. I honestly love you til my very last breath, yet there are alot of things...Let me rephrase the. There are alot of "pointless" things that you do that really irks me, now I know as parents you all are not really totally wrong let alone right. I will say how I viewed you coming up to this point really changed how I look at you especially how you act toward me, I mean ok. Yeah, I fucked up plenty of times in life. Should that make you act differently to your first born child? Or no matter what that thing they speak of "Unconditional love" I believe. I do not think we have that, Well its more so a one-way street than anything.
That is generally speaking, because there are 2 handfuls of things we could personally debate. However the case may be, but I know for a fact things took a total turn for the worse when that infamous lawsuit money came. Not too mention the fact of when I caught my felony (Yes readers, Your boy made a ignorant ass mistake at 18 that cost me having a record.) but more so due to Keith being in your life. There are a lot of questions I'll never have answers to, There are many of things I know not about you. As well as you believe you know about me, though you will never take the time out to ask or probably care, In which case this is just me venting to my own personal blog. Which only feels my interim tears. Not too mention the bond between myself & and my younger siblings, Me & Bitty rarely have the ideal "Big bro lil bro" relationship. Which irks me to no end, but I settle for the sibling relationships I've found outside of my own flesh and blood. Then NaeNae, omg We act alike yet she is turning into a miniature you. Which I really cannot stand with a passion, but fuck it I cant nor will I do shit about it. I just honestly hope they do now have some of the same issues I have with you once they become of age...If they ever do.
Me personally, I never really intended to feel like I dont have the ideal mother I could look to and converse with as you are my bestfriend. I never really looked to you to be the mother who I would have a uncut unadultered conversation with about what goes on in my personal bubble you may know nothing of, Or even the reasoning on some of the things I've probably done that may have caused you to look at me differently. I do know these are things that will probably go unanswered until I am in the grave or if the grandchild(ren) you may have out of me tell you how "Papa really felt"...But as long as my name is Roderic. I'll continue to have this undying affection for you, that is because you are who birthed me. Nothing more nothing less...well maybe less.....
I really do love you and commend you for giving birth to me, minus all of the other bullshit that happens to surround us. I honestly love you til my very last breath, yet there are alot of things...Let me rephrase the. There are alot of "pointless" things that you do that really irks me, now I know as parents you all are not really totally wrong let alone right. I will say how I viewed you coming up to this point really changed how I look at you especially how you act toward me, I mean ok. Yeah, I fucked up plenty of times in life. Should that make you act differently to your first born child? Or no matter what that thing they speak of "Unconditional love" I believe. I do not think we have that, Well its more so a one-way street than anything.
That is generally speaking, because there are 2 handfuls of things we could personally debate. However the case may be, but I know for a fact things took a total turn for the worse when that infamous lawsuit money came. Not too mention the fact of when I caught my felony (Yes readers, Your boy made a ignorant ass mistake at 18 that cost me having a record.) but more so due to Keith being in your life. There are a lot of questions I'll never have answers to, There are many of things I know not about you. As well as you believe you know about me, though you will never take the time out to ask or probably care, In which case this is just me venting to my own personal blog. Which only feels my interim tears. Not too mention the bond between myself & and my younger siblings, Me & Bitty rarely have the ideal "Big bro lil bro" relationship. Which irks me to no end, but I settle for the sibling relationships I've found outside of my own flesh and blood. Then NaeNae, omg We act alike yet she is turning into a miniature you. Which I really cannot stand with a passion, but fuck it I cant nor will I do shit about it. I just honestly hope they do now have some of the same issues I have with you once they become of age...If they ever do.
Me personally, I never really intended to feel like I dont have the ideal mother I could look to and converse with as you are my bestfriend. I never really looked to you to be the mother who I would have a uncut unadultered conversation with about what goes on in my personal bubble you may know nothing of, Or even the reasoning on some of the things I've probably done that may have caused you to look at me differently. I do know these are things that will probably go unanswered until I am in the grave or if the grandchild(ren) you may have out of me tell you how "Papa really felt"...But as long as my name is Roderic. I'll continue to have this undying affection for you, that is because you are who birthed me. Nothing more nothing less...well maybe less.....
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
A post I held on to, Now being posted for Juli B.
Deadass though for a bit though. I have been keeping a tight seal door on this post, because I didn’t wanna come across as emo, which I probably already do in most of these blogs. Fuck around and lose my FB friends, my irl friends. Then I'll have to go steal and ride a scooter off a jagged cliff.
Like alot of my readers out there, I have been....Many a times hurt before. Each time that this happened, I’ve grown colder and awkwarder (Yes!I make up words fuck you dont judge me). Doesn’t mean I walk around body'n every xy chromosome and not calling them after I pop then vanish away in the night. I’m far from that type duder. I mean that I keep finding items falling out of my trunk as I drag it away from the baggage claim at "Mypast International Airport."
There were points in time where I really thoughtlessly did thoughtful things. There are also points in time where chica's started with my trust & it was their's to lose if they fuck up. Also there was a point an time where I really didn’t have to ask subtle questions about where you were, or who was that duder that was that she hugged for a .3 milliseconds too long. There were times where I didn’t expend so much of my life energy trying to find the fucking tragic flaw upfront rather than just fucking letting things progress naturally and learning along the damn way.
I used to openly acknowledge that I didn’t have the emotional resilience that women are obviously notorious for. Most dudes do not rather they care to admit it or not, and this is why it takes us so long to love... or maybe at least get to a point where we are completely open and honest with you. Don’t have to rack your brain figuring out how we feel about you. So deadass, I do tend to get over things and eventually try to bounce back, but it does take a lot longer than I’d for like it to. Let me spit some talk talk for a quick sec specifically about heartbreak deadass though.
Heartbreak, whatever the jagged reason. Has always been one of the biggest bullies in life. It has been one of the few things in my world that has made me not wanna go to school, work or anywhere else other than a bed or couch. Even a chick you wouldnt give play to on a sunnyday (or maybe its just me.). Heartbreak has taken my emo lunch tokens one too many damn times and left me quick to put a Malcolm X hand over the pocket on my shirt that covers the most valuable part of me. Heartbreak has given me plenty nightmares than alcohol and benadryl together. It has drained me more than the heat of a mid-summer day after hooping and left me infinitely re-charging No ion battery. It Sucks.
No! I don’t need a damn tissue! I’m fine...Just go away... But anyway…
As I was moping around looking discouraged due to the things that happened in my past. Yes sorta, Was I listening to old Ginuwine while asking myself "why oh why?" Hell yea. Was I struggling in my ability to find and maintain that productive relationship where as the only thing I could worry about is making sure she’s happy? Yeah, I am. Did I find myself feeling equally as not really fufilled after sex as I did beforehand, deadass I realized I didn’t care about the woman laying next to me? Yep,shit that happens too. Am I more ambiguous in describing how I feel? now as a result of past mistakes and pain? Yuppers. The whole “love like you’ve never been hurt” doesn’t get a damn seat at my table. I will continue to go muse about it cautiously until that special woman that makes me a better person so makes the whole idea of heartbreak a fucking afterthought. How is that for your pipe to smoke it?
I say all of this to say yall are not the only ones that get your feelings hurt, or jerked and your emotions rattled. Just deadass remember that the guy you can’t get to commit, can’t get to tell you how he feels and can’t seem to make any sense of may have taken a traumatizing ride on the emotional roller coaster. deadass you have 2 choices. Either stay and work with him or be off to the next one.
Also if you’re one of the people out there being shady to a damn good man, you’re probably fucking up the game for at least 5 to 10 women. Love changes a duder and it is not always for the better more so when heartbreak is involved.
That’s all I got.
I really don’t need a tissue and if you keep asking I’ll punch you in the face bitch. lmao deadass though
Like alot of my readers out there, I have been....Many a times hurt before. Each time that this happened, I’ve grown colder and awkwarder (Yes!I make up words fuck you dont judge me). Doesn’t mean I walk around body'n every xy chromosome and not calling them after I pop then vanish away in the night. I’m far from that type duder. I mean that I keep finding items falling out of my trunk as I drag it away from the baggage claim at "Mypast International Airport."
There were points in time where I really thoughtlessly did thoughtful things. There are also points in time where chica's started with my trust & it was their's to lose if they fuck up. Also there was a point an time where I really didn’t have to ask subtle questions about where you were, or who was that duder that was that she hugged for a .3 milliseconds too long. There were times where I didn’t expend so much of my life energy trying to find the fucking tragic flaw upfront rather than just fucking letting things progress naturally and learning along the damn way.
I used to openly acknowledge that I didn’t have the emotional resilience that women are obviously notorious for. Most dudes do not rather they care to admit it or not, and this is why it takes us so long to love... or maybe at least get to a point where we are completely open and honest with you. Don’t have to rack your brain figuring out how we feel about you. So deadass, I do tend to get over things and eventually try to bounce back, but it does take a lot longer than I’d for like it to. Let me spit some talk talk for a quick sec specifically about heartbreak deadass though.
Heartbreak, whatever the jagged reason. Has always been one of the biggest bullies in life. It has been one of the few things in my world that has made me not wanna go to school, work or anywhere else other than a bed or couch. Even a chick you wouldnt give play to on a sunnyday (or maybe its just me.). Heartbreak has taken my emo lunch tokens one too many damn times and left me quick to put a Malcolm X hand over the pocket on my shirt that covers the most valuable part of me. Heartbreak has given me plenty nightmares than alcohol and benadryl together. It has drained me more than the heat of a mid-summer day after hooping and left me infinitely re-charging No ion battery. It Sucks.
No! I don’t need a damn tissue! I’m fine...Just go away... But anyway…
As I was moping around looking discouraged due to the things that happened in my past. Yes sorta, Was I listening to old Ginuwine while asking myself "why oh why?" Hell yea. Was I struggling in my ability to find and maintain that productive relationship where as the only thing I could worry about is making sure she’s happy? Yeah, I am. Did I find myself feeling equally as not really fufilled after sex as I did beforehand, deadass I realized I didn’t care about the woman laying next to me? Yep,shit that happens too. Am I more ambiguous in describing how I feel? now as a result of past mistakes and pain? Yuppers. The whole “love like you’ve never been hurt” doesn’t get a damn seat at my table. I will continue to go muse about it cautiously until that special woman that makes me a better person so makes the whole idea of heartbreak a fucking afterthought. How is that for your pipe to smoke it?
I say all of this to say yall are not the only ones that get your feelings hurt, or jerked and your emotions rattled. Just deadass remember that the guy you can’t get to commit, can’t get to tell you how he feels and can’t seem to make any sense of may have taken a traumatizing ride on the emotional roller coaster. deadass you have 2 choices. Either stay and work with him or be off to the next one.
Also if you’re one of the people out there being shady to a damn good man, you’re probably fucking up the game for at least 5 to 10 women. Love changes a duder and it is not always for the better more so when heartbreak is involved.
That’s all I got.
I really don’t need a tissue and if you keep asking I’ll punch you in the face bitch. lmao deadass though
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Dont Play This Song
Yeah, dont do it to me. I wont do it again, Mindfully I am sound of mind enough not to black on you. For it is been past its expiration date, You should never do it again. Focus where your going, Leave me alone. I'd personally be kept in my own mind going Trippy, things are better there. No point in this blog...Just a random post of someone who just pissed me off less than 10 minutes ago...fucking queef
blogging opens you up to scrutiny, even when you scrutinize others, so don’t be surprised when you critique a blogger/past associate and they hear about it or see it. They gon finnnnnnnnd you...
For a while now I blacked and complained about the Church of Twitter and Blogger Day Saints. These bitches & niggaz who all of a sudden use blogs and comments to define or bash the moral character of others. These type of meat eaters find people they dealt with previously to diss people as whores, deadbeats, losers etc, when I just want to scream “Ay bitch I knew you/known you in real life!! You’re throwing STONES now!!”
The Things We Can Do Within 20 Minutes...
I dont know, its limitless. Though, That is not why I am here. I'm just rambling alil, So do not get bodied in the process deadass though. She stays on my mind, I'm running out of time. Flatout...Though I am back to walking again, This should be funnnnnn!!!!
Oh yea!! Vlooper & ModLee's "AnaloG Lov3" is complete straight Digi love at its best, I have not heard many of my fav producers do anything like this in a while. Plus visiting the Bandcamp site itself is very refreshing, Soul with the musings of 808's. Dead though...P.ersonal mamio. Remember that....
Um outside of that, Ya duder has been back on his foot. Which I think I previously stated before *scratches head and thinks*, There were a few things I had to address but i'm in no situation to address them through my blog. November has been good to me thus far, Though November is still a bitch (No subliminals fired, b4 some other peanut gargling broad gets tight about it). Like all things said someone always does get tight, oh well. Far from my issue, that is yours and yours only. Not that I say anything referring to much of her, I honestly dont. Majority of my things Revolve around Booty Diva, maybe Juli B (My Shrink/New bestfriend). Even the few women I associate myself with. So again people (Watch the comments or a loose shots fired blog followed), I dont understand. Last I check, There is some afrocentric nigga out there who wants me dead for some of the shit I say. Who feels it pertains to them? I wouldnt know, shit. It know all of my readers (I think) even the ones who are first initials are either J(Beans),L(Dock),S(Fletch),A(Ziegler),J(Williams),Z(Montgomery). And few and other far between readers who hit me on FB. So keep the hits coming people...I dont engage no one in the bullshit of the world. Nor should you initiate it, I told alot of folks I wouldnt dive down that jagged rock bed of shit. I am not nor will I, So let bygones be bygones. Swallow some boric acid, and go away. As I've did the same, stay in your Matrix. I'll stay in mines.
An to a certain someone, I was on your side of town this past Wednesday. remember I wasnt yesterday, nor later on that evening ma....Keep your shit on your side of the internet pond of lil internet fishers and surfers As I've did the same...Deadasss though. Serve me, Volley, Gone....An as always...It is still subtly that easy...
Oh yea!! Vlooper & ModLee's "AnaloG Lov3" is complete straight Digi love at its best, I have not heard many of my fav producers do anything like this in a while. Plus visiting the Bandcamp site itself is very refreshing, Soul with the musings of 808's. Dead though...P.ersonal mamio. Remember that....
Um outside of that, Ya duder has been back on his foot. Which I think I previously stated before *scratches head and thinks*, There were a few things I had to address but i'm in no situation to address them through my blog. November has been good to me thus far, Though November is still a bitch (No subliminals fired, b4 some other peanut gargling broad gets tight about it). Like all things said someone always does get tight, oh well. Far from my issue, that is yours and yours only. Not that I say anything referring to much of her, I honestly dont. Majority of my things Revolve around Booty Diva, maybe Juli B (My Shrink/New bestfriend). Even the few women I associate myself with. So again people (Watch the comments or a loose shots fired blog followed), I dont understand. Last I check, There is some afrocentric nigga out there who wants me dead for some of the shit I say. Who feels it pertains to them? I wouldnt know, shit. It know all of my readers (I think) even the ones who are first initials are either J(Beans),L(Dock),S(Fletch),A(Ziegler),J(Williams),Z(Montgomery). And few and other far between readers who hit me on FB. So keep the hits coming people...I dont engage no one in the bullshit of the world. Nor should you initiate it, I told alot of folks I wouldnt dive down that jagged rock bed of shit. I am not nor will I, So let bygones be bygones. Swallow some boric acid, and go away. As I've did the same, stay in your Matrix. I'll stay in mines.
An to a certain someone, I was on your side of town this past Wednesday. remember I wasnt yesterday, nor later on that evening ma....Keep your shit on your side of the internet pond of lil internet fishers and surfers As I've did the same...Deadasss though. Serve me, Volley, Gone....An as always...It is still subtly that easy...
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
If You Dont Make This Team, You Can Try Out For Another.
A Coach (Male/Female) should have atleast enough respect to at least cut their team player in training camp, who are not going to make it through teams camp. As of right now, most Coaches were in spring training. Workin' out options, different plays to see who is going to make this year’s squad. Well, after a few weeks, along with a few cuts. You have a good idea of who is not going to make the SQ. I am here this morning to say real Front Office workers dismiss the players who will not make the SQ.
Here could be several signs of a player won’t make the SQ, I believe and hope every Coach agrees with me.
1.)We are on completely different planets and playbooks… I be thinking to self that I’d be wit it to see you again. You’re probably thinking to yourself, "I wonder if he’s my boyfriend now". I may just text you & ask "How you are doing?" You may decide to not hit m back to my messages because you maybe upset that I might treat you like a freethrow and a real duder should call. Maybe you’d like to spend a night with a bottle of wine, a blanky and/or romantic comedy. Hell no! a bottle of Vodka, no blanket, loud blaring music, and a comedy DVD on in the background.
2.)You’re moving too fast shorty… I am truly sorry I’m just not one of those guys who can be dating a girl for two weeks and then make her my girlfriend. My average relationship gestation period is about four to six months. If it were to happen faster than that, well I’d be convinced you were my god given soul mate nigga. It aint even you, it’s all me. It’s takes superb long deadass time for me to want to give up single life. It’s my recent problem, and I don’t ask that you help solve it stupido (word to ZK *blood boiling sarcasm*).
3.)We are fundamentally different playstyle utilizing people, in a very so un-complimentary way… This was really a hard one to divulge into about it. Honestly, some times folk are just not compatible. You can try all the fuck you want, but at a certain point & time you will have to realize when to ask that person to leave your Dojo. I love to go out on the weekends deadass, I really hate the Monday thru Friday routine, and so Thursday at 5PM, I’m all about happy hour and practicing my gaming techniques in my Soul Dojo Or taking you to The Grandmasters room, for some extra time. I am not saying that I need to be in the club, because I really dont find much fun in it. I could very well be a quiet evening at a restaurant of choice (Loco's), having drinks & dinner. However, if you are a 100% homebody, it just might workout. I deadass like people & have a large group of friends with whom I would like to spend a lot of time around. Deadass if you are not a people person, and do not like just staying at your dojo all the time while I’m out with my fam, it just won’t work.
4.)You’re crazy!!!! Do not befriend my friend’s to get closer to me. Do not FB friend them to get at me, do not contact them when I am not around to get alil closer insight on or to me. Do not do any of this, AT ALL!! Do read my notes, blog, and other forms of communication and always ask how this applies to “us.” I enjoy telling you how it does or does not apply. Do not, not not not NOT NOT ever!!!! I also should tell you that I do not respond very well to tears, I did with few women in my life. Like as in recent years,but not like I cant because I just cannot understand why the person is crying half the time. I usually just have a blank stare followed by something extremely insensitive spewing from my mouth like, “I do NOT get it!”
5.)Can’t really take your yamp ass no where… This is the important for me personally because I tend to hang around a very diverse bunch. skinny people, fat people, light skin and dark skin people. If your yamp ass is a conservative republican...keep your damn "anti-Obama" hating comments to a minimum. Mamio, we can get our "Obama bashing" all the fuck you want in the privacy of our own company. (Deadass though, politics are a intimate topic, people often tend to forget this, especially in current days when it’s so cool to be politically active. FUCK Diddy)
6.)I can’t see myself holding conversation with you longer than five minutes… I can go on forever & day here, but I’ll just speak about one type of girl that just irks my soul to no end. If I have to man the conversation completely on my fucking own, I’m livid. If you are one of those Yamps who has to be asked a fucking question to speak, I wish you would just hurry up and fucking die already. See below:
Sincere: What it look like?
Mamio: Nothing much.
Sincere: Deadass though, how was your day?
Mamio: It was ok, you know work...same thing everyday.
Sincere: I know how that can suck, my job pisses me off to no end at times.
[deafening silence]
Sincere: Deadas...Any plans for tonight?
Mamio: Yeah me and my friends are all going out to dinner in about two hours and then out to a club. You should come.
Sincere: Deadass though, where at?
Mamio: Plumm.
Sincere: Deadass, I’ll check it out.
[deafening silence]
Sincere: So deadass though, maybe I’ll see you there. Send me a text when you are heading over.
Sickening right? I know deadass though.
Finally!You just don’t have “it”...This is one of the hardest things to elaborate on. Because “it” is something you deadass either have or you don’t fucking have. It’s fa real, like either there or it’s not there. It is a difference between your jumpoff...and the girl you would like to make your fulltime girlfriend. It is the total package with the additional franchise benefits. Maybe...Just maybe you have a combination or...one of any of the things discussed on the following blog.
The best way I can attempt to describe it. Is like when booty diva said, “When I can see the end before it even begins.” And even this statement only describes about deadass 25% of “it.”
In conclusion, all of the previously stated types of men/women will probably be dismissed because they have no shot at making the team anyway. God damn it...Good day good sir's and madam's..Coaching meeting Adjourned
GIFSoup
Here could be several signs of a player won’t make the SQ, I believe and hope every Coach agrees with me.
1.)We are on completely different planets and playbooks… I be thinking to self that I’d be wit it to see you again. You’re probably thinking to yourself, "I wonder if he’s my boyfriend now". I may just text you & ask "How you are doing?" You may decide to not hit m back to my messages because you maybe upset that I might treat you like a freethrow and a real duder should call. Maybe you’d like to spend a night with a bottle of wine, a blanky and/or romantic comedy. Hell no! a bottle of Vodka, no blanket, loud blaring music, and a comedy DVD on in the background.
2.)You’re moving too fast shorty… I am truly sorry I’m just not one of those guys who can be dating a girl for two weeks and then make her my girlfriend. My average relationship gestation period is about four to six months. If it were to happen faster than that, well I’d be convinced you were my god given soul mate nigga. It aint even you, it’s all me. It’s takes superb long deadass time for me to want to give up single life. It’s my recent problem, and I don’t ask that you help solve it stupido (word to ZK *blood boiling sarcasm*).
3.)We are fundamentally different playstyle utilizing people, in a very so un-complimentary way… This was really a hard one to divulge into about it. Honestly, some times folk are just not compatible. You can try all the fuck you want, but at a certain point & time you will have to realize when to ask that person to leave your Dojo. I love to go out on the weekends deadass, I really hate the Monday thru Friday routine, and so Thursday at 5PM, I’m all about happy hour and practicing my gaming techniques in my Soul Dojo Or taking you to The Grandmasters room, for some extra time. I am not saying that I need to be in the club, because I really dont find much fun in it. I could very well be a quiet evening at a restaurant of choice (Loco's), having drinks & dinner. However, if you are a 100% homebody, it just might workout. I deadass like people & have a large group of friends with whom I would like to spend a lot of time around. Deadass if you are not a people person, and do not like just staying at your dojo all the time while I’m out with my fam, it just won’t work.
4.)You’re crazy!!!! Do not befriend my friend’s to get closer to me. Do not FB friend them to get at me, do not contact them when I am not around to get alil closer insight on or to me. Do not do any of this, AT ALL!! Do read my notes, blog, and other forms of communication and always ask how this applies to “us.” I enjoy telling you how it does or does not apply. Do not, not not not NOT NOT ever!!!! I also should tell you that I do not respond very well to tears, I did with few women in my life. Like as in recent years,but not like I cant because I just cannot understand why the person is crying half the time. I usually just have a blank stare followed by something extremely insensitive spewing from my mouth like, “I do NOT get it!”
5.)Can’t really take your yamp ass no where… This is the important for me personally because I tend to hang around a very diverse bunch. skinny people, fat people, light skin and dark skin people. If your yamp ass is a conservative republican...keep your damn "anti-Obama" hating comments to a minimum. Mamio, we can get our "Obama bashing" all the fuck you want in the privacy of our own company. (Deadass though, politics are a intimate topic, people often tend to forget this, especially in current days when it’s so cool to be politically active. FUCK Diddy)
6.)I can’t see myself holding conversation with you longer than five minutes… I can go on forever & day here, but I’ll just speak about one type of girl that just irks my soul to no end. If I have to man the conversation completely on my fucking own, I’m livid. If you are one of those Yamps who has to be asked a fucking question to speak, I wish you would just hurry up and fucking die already. See below:
Sincere: What it look like?
Mamio: Nothing much.
Sincere: Deadass though, how was your day?
Mamio: It was ok, you know work...same thing everyday.
Sincere: I know how that can suck, my job pisses me off to no end at times.
[deafening silence]
Sincere: Deadas...Any plans for tonight?
Mamio: Yeah me and my friends are all going out to dinner in about two hours and then out to a club. You should come.
Sincere: Deadass though, where at?
Mamio: Plumm.
Sincere: Deadass, I’ll check it out.
[deafening silence]
Sincere: So deadass though, maybe I’ll see you there. Send me a text when you are heading over.
Sickening right? I know deadass though.
Finally!You just don’t have “it”...This is one of the hardest things to elaborate on. Because “it” is something you deadass either have or you don’t fucking have. It’s fa real, like either there or it’s not there. It is a difference between your jumpoff...and the girl you would like to make your fulltime girlfriend. It is the total package with the additional franchise benefits. Maybe...Just maybe you have a combination or...one of any of the things discussed on the following blog.
The best way I can attempt to describe it. Is like when booty diva said, “When I can see the end before it even begins.” And even this statement only describes about deadass 25% of “it.”
In conclusion, all of the previously stated types of men/women will probably be dismissed because they have no shot at making the team anyway. God damn it...Good day good sir's and madam's..Coaching meeting Adjourned
GIFSoup
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
10 Quickes For Dummies, And Rats maybe..lmao
Deadass though I noticed a trend on the up & up. Which is, Single women looking for more insight to us Men, Yet relationships & Love. Usually our Queens go get at their best female friends for some precise advice (Lmao), though now a days your chica may be sinking faster than Lil Wayne around Purple Drank. So you turned to a few good Men. Who maybe better than us duders to kick knowledge of wisdom. Who better than me? To point you toward that heaven at night. Who else better than disturbed ole Sincere to give you alil fucked up advice so your love interest can get bent anddrop a shot at pulling down your La pearla?
*Takes a deep breath* Deadass though here goes. How To Get A Man In a year or Less.
1. first off ma, get rid of all and every damned emotional baggage. Deadass if you meet that special guy. You probably don’t want to bore him out with sob stories of how your last relationship sunk out on you not to trust men (Unless your me, I like to listen). Contrary to what the hell you all believe all men are not the same!! Do not start throwing Kunai daggers at the first sign of trouble you twit. Example “ He may not call at his usual time ” No need to start turning into scrappy doo & shit. Give him the benefit of doubt deadass. If he continues on with that behavior do not (I repeat)DO NOT!!!!! RUSH in with the verbiage. Just fling him alil taste of his own medicine. You’ll see how fast that ass gets right.
2. Please Please Please PLEASE!!!!!! don’t chase a man who is not physically attracted to you. I seen alot of women I know do this all the damn time. If you’ve seen the duder give attention to women that look like Beyonce, Gabriel, or Nia and you know damn well you don’t even come close miss. Why in the Bootylicious bubble! You feel? duder is going to be interested in you! Spending alot of damn time wishing papi and hoping, that when ole dude the moderately chubby yet handsome accountant tries to get on. You don’t notice. The next thing you know papi is dating one of the Bad bitch wannabee’s and you’re wondering “HOW IN THE FUCK? ” Turns out Tall, Dark and dick swinging cutie was an ASSHOLE. Dig a little deeper Chica's.
3. Don’t be afraid to go out by yourself. Hanging with your girlies will not be the way to get a man to fuck with ya. Especially if all of them are good looking & fucked up at the same time. Remember, Us dudes are simple beings we will not be able distinguish your glowing personality through all that glitter and shit. All we are gonna do is Hit on your girl with the swine in her back pockets (IE beggin strips commericials). So go to a book signing. Hang out at a golf range, bump your shopping cart into some unsuspecting negro in walmart or something, attend networking events and social gatherings hosted by coworkers even if they are white (Booty Diva!!). Oh! One more thing. If you work in an office building that gets a lot of traffic and has a different company on each floor.Walk ya sexy thick ass around and take inventory. You may be surprised of who you might find hiding behind their cubicle or in for a minute to get at your boss.
4. Get that ass in shape. That’s right I fucking said IT! and I don’t mean model skinny. Most men I know are not attracted to sloppy looking women (Unless your someone I know). So if you have a large tummy that takes away from your beautiful pear shaped ass I opt handcuff that ass to the treadmill. you start doing sit ups. Don’t believe that “ A man should love me for me” BULLSHIT! What the fuck do you think attracted us to you in the FIRST PLACE it wasn’t your CRACKER JACK MIND BITCH! (Sorry had a angry moment)
5. If you are fashion challenged. Please invest in a wardrobe that accentuates them hips ma, or them best body parts and will attract the type of dude you want. Hoodmonkeys mama chic is not the way to go if you’re looking for more than a one night stand. freak...
6. Keep hair, fingernails, and toes well groomed. We do pay attention to things like that. "When Eddie Murphy pulled the covers away from Lela Rochon’s toes in boomerang was an indication that MEN are very aware." Take notice, We arent that dumb.
7. When out and Dolo (Solo). Do not appear too desperate or too damn eager. This does not deadass mean to be standoffish. The quickest way to get a duder’s attention is DIRECT!! eye contact. Do not smile while doing it. Give up that “You don’t know what your missing look“ (Booty Diva does this shit in person. I'm speaking off the interaction I had with her in person in September) Confidence is key. If a undesirable nigga approaches or is in your rotation (Shouts out to Booty D again) you don’t brush him off right away. Use him to get the attention of other dudes folk (Like his friends, Which again I'm using things I've picked up from talking to Booty Diva). They will peep the way you politely dismiss him showing them you have class and that you are approachable.
8. Remix someone you once had a date with. Maybe their could've been a time in your life when you weren’t quite damn fond yourself. You hopped out of a bad break up, money for dude were out of wack causing you to be distracted, or you just had fucked up issues. A really nice guy took you on a few refreshing dates, though you couldn’t hear him over the music going on in your fuckin' head. If he’s still single give the nigga a call. You never know.
9. According to my associates. A good black man is damn near extinct. I’m sorry to agree. Dudes are on some new & improved shit. We get our 1st round pick of the litter male or female. Women please don’t be afraid to date outside of race. Let go those stereotypes and make love to find you in whatever spectrum it comes in. If a Black man cannot see you as his future why should you depend on him for yours!?
10. Stop being so fickle & picky! If you are 5’3 stop holding out for a man who’s over 6 damn feet (I'm 6'4"). That shit is ridiculous (to the undersized men). Everyone is the same size in bed just about...anyway. A duder with a child is not necessarily much of a bad thing either as long dude knows how to manage his time right and has a damn good relationship with the mother. Who are committed just to the child no extra's (Again shouts to Booty Diva) Do not discriminate against these things that may have happened before you met guy. Everyone makes mistakes sometimes the mistakes have made them better men.
There you have it. 10 Quick tips to finding Love and Happiness in 2010 going into 2011. Now this is just Sincere's opinion. I am not a fucking guru. This list is based on my experiences with the female population. Along with my ignorance, There are plenty of duder out there ladies. Get out of your own fucking way and let US see you for a change.
*Takes a deep breath* Deadass though here goes. How To Get A Man In a year or Less.
1. first off ma, get rid of all and every damned emotional baggage. Deadass if you meet that special guy. You probably don’t want to bore him out with sob stories of how your last relationship sunk out on you not to trust men (Unless your me, I like to listen). Contrary to what the hell you all believe all men are not the same!! Do not start throwing Kunai daggers at the first sign of trouble you twit. Example “ He may not call at his usual time ” No need to start turning into scrappy doo & shit. Give him the benefit of doubt deadass. If he continues on with that behavior do not (I repeat)DO NOT!!!!! RUSH in with the verbiage. Just fling him alil taste of his own medicine. You’ll see how fast that ass gets right.
2. Please Please Please PLEASE!!!!!! don’t chase a man who is not physically attracted to you. I seen alot of women I know do this all the damn time. If you’ve seen the duder give attention to women that look like Beyonce, Gabriel, or Nia and you know damn well you don’t even come close miss. Why in the Bootylicious bubble! You feel? duder is going to be interested in you! Spending alot of damn time wishing papi and hoping, that when ole dude the moderately chubby yet handsome accountant tries to get on. You don’t notice. The next thing you know papi is dating one of the Bad bitch wannabee’s and you’re wondering “HOW IN THE FUCK? ” Turns out Tall, Dark and dick swinging cutie was an ASSHOLE. Dig a little deeper Chica's.
3. Don’t be afraid to go out by yourself. Hanging with your girlies will not be the way to get a man to fuck with ya. Especially if all of them are good looking & fucked up at the same time. Remember, Us dudes are simple beings we will not be able distinguish your glowing personality through all that glitter and shit. All we are gonna do is Hit on your girl with the swine in her back pockets (IE beggin strips commericials). So go to a book signing. Hang out at a golf range, bump your shopping cart into some unsuspecting negro in walmart or something, attend networking events and social gatherings hosted by coworkers even if they are white (Booty Diva!!). Oh! One more thing. If you work in an office building that gets a lot of traffic and has a different company on each floor.Walk ya sexy thick ass around and take inventory. You may be surprised of who you might find hiding behind their cubicle or in for a minute to get at your boss.
4. Get that ass in shape. That’s right I fucking said IT! and I don’t mean model skinny. Most men I know are not attracted to sloppy looking women (Unless your someone I know). So if you have a large tummy that takes away from your beautiful pear shaped ass I opt handcuff that ass to the treadmill. you start doing sit ups. Don’t believe that “ A man should love me for me” BULLSHIT! What the fuck do you think attracted us to you in the FIRST PLACE it wasn’t your CRACKER JACK MIND BITCH! (Sorry had a angry moment)
5. If you are fashion challenged. Please invest in a wardrobe that accentuates them hips ma, or them best body parts and will attract the type of dude you want. Hoodmonkeys mama chic is not the way to go if you’re looking for more than a one night stand. freak...
6. Keep hair, fingernails, and toes well groomed. We do pay attention to things like that. "When Eddie Murphy pulled the covers away from Lela Rochon’s toes in boomerang was an indication that MEN are very aware." Take notice, We arent that dumb.
7. When out and Dolo (Solo). Do not appear too desperate or too damn eager. This does not deadass mean to be standoffish. The quickest way to get a duder’s attention is DIRECT!! eye contact. Do not smile while doing it. Give up that “You don’t know what your missing look“ (Booty Diva does this shit in person. I'm speaking off the interaction I had with her in person in September) Confidence is key. If a undesirable nigga approaches or is in your rotation (Shouts out to Booty D again) you don’t brush him off right away. Use him to get the attention of other dudes folk (Like his friends, Which again I'm using things I've picked up from talking to Booty Diva). They will peep the way you politely dismiss him showing them you have class and that you are approachable.
8. Remix someone you once had a date with. Maybe their could've been a time in your life when you weren’t quite damn fond yourself. You hopped out of a bad break up, money for dude were out of wack causing you to be distracted, or you just had fucked up issues. A really nice guy took you on a few refreshing dates, though you couldn’t hear him over the music going on in your fuckin' head. If he’s still single give the nigga a call. You never know.
9. According to my associates. A good black man is damn near extinct. I’m sorry to agree. Dudes are on some new & improved shit. We get our 1st round pick of the litter male or female. Women please don’t be afraid to date outside of race. Let go those stereotypes and make love to find you in whatever spectrum it comes in. If a Black man cannot see you as his future why should you depend on him for yours!?
10. Stop being so fickle & picky! If you are 5’3 stop holding out for a man who’s over 6 damn feet (I'm 6'4"). That shit is ridiculous (to the undersized men). Everyone is the same size in bed just about...anyway. A duder with a child is not necessarily much of a bad thing either as long dude knows how to manage his time right and has a damn good relationship with the mother. Who are committed just to the child no extra's (Again shouts to Booty Diva) Do not discriminate against these things that may have happened before you met guy. Everyone makes mistakes sometimes the mistakes have made them better men.
There you have it. 10 Quick tips to finding Love and Happiness in 2010 going into 2011. Now this is just Sincere's opinion. I am not a fucking guru. This list is based on my experiences with the female population. Along with my ignorance, There are plenty of duder out there ladies. Get out of your own fucking way and let US see you for a change.
Monday, November 8, 2010
Post 300!! Lets get it, Open a lil more to you my readers
Now since it is my 300th post, I should attempt to give you more personal insight to me as a person. Which seemingly I do without staying on topic, Which probably makes me seem deadass type: Rambler. Though its in good intentions, So without further a do lets get it.
Shouts to Juli B, My homie I thank you from the bottom of my heart. For the words shared and opinion given, I aint the best. Though, Its a work in progess. I'll try to keep my head up...
I've struggled in recent years with the fact that I have a easy time trusting, Yet not trusting women. I typically always have some sketchy things going down in most relationships I'm in. Could be that I’m just very lenient when it comes to ladies? Probably. I’ve never been the type to read your texts, or ask how you know papio hittin you up. My advice to that, come up with whatever you feel is the truth is based on that person's behavior, and then check if you can live with that. Deadass though, I had it set in my mind that a diablo who had been with however many dudes, came to find out she had really only been with a handful.
Yeah, its about to get emo.
I believe the main reason why I don’t believe much of anyone is because in my teen years, I used to kinda front to women often… about everything. That whole thing about suspecting people to do things you probably would do in a certain situation is actually the truth. If ya chick said she was going out, Why isn’t she responding to text messages? Doesn’t she keep her phone right next to her? In my past, I was never that duder who thought I was being cheated on. Because I know that at one point in life, when I was with one chick I would just never ignore my cell phone. Like straight up ignore it.
I another reason why I feel my trust in women is faulting because a lot of messed up shit has happened to me since I started getting real attached with women. First, I lost my piece of my sanity to a little fro having person who has now probably legally bipolar (Watch the comments for a harsh one fired off).I honestly wanted her forever and more, but she said very harsh things and thought I couldnt do this, that and the 3rd. No need for the politics of it so we had to let it go. early on after we made it official, she cheated on me with probably one of her random male friends. Nuff said on that note.
Then, the next girl I was with...Everyone knows how that story went. Shit I lived it out through my blog.but…le sigh. Ash Jenks didn’t help, I was trying to build some shit with who I thought was going to be the girl of my dreams until she wrote me a FB letter and broke up with me, Then Ruby also played me to be with some dude who is probably gonna ended up playing her. This is when I started to believe that not only was she not to be trusted, but she wasn’t that smart either, and it bothered me that she wasn’t that smart because I was attracted to her.
Deadass let me tell you, it doesn’t get any better from there.
"Raise your hand if you’ve ever been trying to talk to a girl and shoot the straight one only to find out you’re like her #2 option. The messed up part about it is, your #1 option treats you like a #2, and your #2 option, probably feels the same way about you. Raise your hand if you’ve ever been deaded and the next dude your shorty was talking to was a complete dirtbag. Makes you wonder why she would rather that than you. Raise your hand if you’ve ever been flat out lied to, like right to your face. The messed up part is that often times when you know you’re being lied to, you can’t even tell the person how you know because you did some psycho shit. Raise your hand if you’ve ever decided to give it one more chance and that person let you down, just like all the rest of the ones before did." - One of my favorite blogs.
My paw has been raised this entire blog.
So deadass, I am just alil too trusting of women, because I have interacted with too many women, romantically, that I can/cant trust. I think that women in general do what’s best for them, when it’s best for them. I think that if a person thinks they will get away with something, they just do what the hell they want to do. That’s how life is, I’ve kinda came to grips with it. I’ve sorta tried all the remedies and suggestions and no avail that shit ever work. Trust is given, or trust is earned, I think those are two bullshit. I think my strategy works alil, I don’t try to trust you as far as I can see you. I’ve had a conversations with women up until this point in my life where they ask me if I trust them, and I say, I do but then again dont need to trust you. At the end of the night, if I’m not in bed with you, or on the phone with you. You could be anywhere in the world, doing whatever/whoever. People have told me that they were going to sleep and come to find out they were in their car,when i told them they were fronting. So I have been led to believe that more times than not, I shouldn’t have been trusting the person. So I don’t really trust them.
I’m working on my shit deadass though. I’m kinda getting better. It’s a major work in progress. I try force myself to trust less now, in hopes that it becomes habit later. Cannot say that I actually feel it working, but also I think that I’m not likely to do anything psycho, and I’m not liable to blow up anytime soon.. That’s progress right? Closer today than I was yesterday. (This is actually a motivational quote I learned. Try it out sometime.) Deadass though.
Shouts to Juli B, My homie I thank you from the bottom of my heart. For the words shared and opinion given, I aint the best. Though, Its a work in progess. I'll try to keep my head up...
I've struggled in recent years with the fact that I have a easy time trusting, Yet not trusting women. I typically always have some sketchy things going down in most relationships I'm in. Could be that I’m just very lenient when it comes to ladies? Probably. I’ve never been the type to read your texts, or ask how you know papio hittin you up. My advice to that, come up with whatever you feel is the truth is based on that person's behavior, and then check if you can live with that. Deadass though, I had it set in my mind that a diablo who had been with however many dudes, came to find out she had really only been with a handful.
Yeah, its about to get emo.
I believe the main reason why I don’t believe much of anyone is because in my teen years, I used to kinda front to women often… about everything. That whole thing about suspecting people to do things you probably would do in a certain situation is actually the truth. If ya chick said she was going out, Why isn’t she responding to text messages? Doesn’t she keep her phone right next to her? In my past, I was never that duder who thought I was being cheated on. Because I know that at one point in life, when I was with one chick I would just never ignore my cell phone. Like straight up ignore it.
I another reason why I feel my trust in women is faulting because a lot of messed up shit has happened to me since I started getting real attached with women. First, I lost my piece of my sanity to a little fro having person who has now probably legally bipolar (Watch the comments for a harsh one fired off).I honestly wanted her forever and more, but she said very harsh things and thought I couldnt do this, that and the 3rd. No need for the politics of it so we had to let it go. early on after we made it official, she cheated on me with probably one of her random male friends. Nuff said on that note.
Then, the next girl I was with...Everyone knows how that story went. Shit I lived it out through my blog.but…le sigh. Ash Jenks didn’t help, I was trying to build some shit with who I thought was going to be the girl of my dreams until she wrote me a FB letter and broke up with me, Then Ruby also played me to be with some dude who is probably gonna ended up playing her. This is when I started to believe that not only was she not to be trusted, but she wasn’t that smart either, and it bothered me that she wasn’t that smart because I was attracted to her.
Deadass let me tell you, it doesn’t get any better from there.
"Raise your hand if you’ve ever been trying to talk to a girl and shoot the straight one only to find out you’re like her #2 option. The messed up part about it is, your #1 option treats you like a #2, and your #2 option, probably feels the same way about you. Raise your hand if you’ve ever been deaded and the next dude your shorty was talking to was a complete dirtbag. Makes you wonder why she would rather that than you. Raise your hand if you’ve ever been flat out lied to, like right to your face. The messed up part is that often times when you know you’re being lied to, you can’t even tell the person how you know because you did some psycho shit. Raise your hand if you’ve ever decided to give it one more chance and that person let you down, just like all the rest of the ones before did." - One of my favorite blogs.
My paw has been raised this entire blog.
So deadass, I am just alil too trusting of women, because I have interacted with too many women, romantically, that I can/cant trust. I think that women in general do what’s best for them, when it’s best for them. I think that if a person thinks they will get away with something, they just do what the hell they want to do. That’s how life is, I’ve kinda came to grips with it. I’ve sorta tried all the remedies and suggestions and no avail that shit ever work. Trust is given, or trust is earned, I think those are two bullshit. I think my strategy works alil, I don’t try to trust you as far as I can see you. I’ve had a conversations with women up until this point in my life where they ask me if I trust them, and I say, I do but then again dont need to trust you. At the end of the night, if I’m not in bed with you, or on the phone with you. You could be anywhere in the world, doing whatever/whoever. People have told me that they were going to sleep and come to find out they were in their car,when i told them they were fronting. So I have been led to believe that more times than not, I shouldn’t have been trusting the person. So I don’t really trust them.
I’m working on my shit deadass though. I’m kinda getting better. It’s a major work in progress. I try force myself to trust less now, in hopes that it becomes habit later. Cannot say that I actually feel it working, but also I think that I’m not likely to do anything psycho, and I’m not liable to blow up anytime soon.. That’s progress right? Closer today than I was yesterday. (This is actually a motivational quote I learned. Try it out sometime.) Deadass though.
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Leave me all alone. November...
Should of known I was getting shunned though love is transparent, fuck is the sense of peeping through it? At times it feels like I needed the abuse. Gorgeous views me as a needle proof fiend being addictive. Contagious if you will, A drifter that lives in a large maze. mentally gone from all wounds rather it was self inflicted or brought on by someone else, Picturing days when bitches wouldn't give me a "hey" or flippin' the page, with no time or day. Just to sit with the days I visit to get some inspira-I'm used to the tion(shun), 2nd nature Heaven at night makes it so I can't really escape the moon I was shunned to. Log on, so I can get my blog on. My truth is lonely cause I speak the Doggone lonely loner things.I'm starting to turn to a loner, followed by loners people who get publicly abused then apologize. Far from who the fuck I am.
I feel like I was the Outcast, no friends more so friends turned Fam.No window of escape from my zone-age,I finally gravitated to the music that I made & enjoy listening to. I wonder if anyone was glad I made it, I befriended her during her time of feeling she couldnt hold a relationship.I never seen myself as a star, I'm the Moon.I was too scared to melt her from afar but things was cool, our friendship made her talk down about me. Hurt me like as I was the loser in school not to be confused, she wrote down her favorite songs of mine in mind. I guess it was to be strong in mind, her insecurity reflected mine.I dont respect her, why? The bond was never real. Just fabricated lies turned truth? or truth turned lies?
Sometimes I think peep's on my heels...But nah, people uses my songs to heal. Which makes me strong as steel,Why in the fuck would I need mainstream appeal to whack niggas & fake bitches?
The chick said I was too fat,I was to scared to admit I wasnt and that I honestly havent ate much. Her father was a staple in her life a lot of foundation of her sanity I would've guessed,And her mother's a subject that she don't bother with
Not a virgin, but not proud. After the nigga came, she was knocked down or needed to talk down on someone. So she visits my blog to see what I say that parallels between her life and my life, Just to assume things I'm not doing or am doing. Maybe, even who I'm doing. Makes me wish that I could take all of my readers and associate to orbit, Where we can hawk loogies and spit in niggas' faces. Then play the biggest of Asteroid in life, Forget the days we missed, feigned guiltiness. The game isn't as dope as it looks, its dope. Lookin' for more dopes to get hooked, Before you cross-over I just hope that you look at the words that I wrote on this blog. Then go in to the mirror an stare at yourself and realize deeply something, no matter what it is. An quit with the bullshit I dont talk shit about you, nor engage or indulge you in it.
Somebody I was talking to one day. said that "because all the shit that i been goin' through in reference to women, ain't never gonna have no content heart/relationship. kinda."..whatever that's the biggest piece of bullshit, that I've ever heard in my life. I don't know how many times I'm going to say it, I don't be doin' this shit so I can fuck every woman in the world, and not give one my heart or all of me. Even if i have 5 fans, and i save 5 lives. Or help someone realize their life may be simply better than my own, or someone out there who goes through the same to show. There is light at the end of whatever tunnel your in...That's what's most important to me
You can't tell me these people don't exist. You can't tell me that, these are fuckin' wanna be cool cats, who do not feel the same way as I. Disguising themselves as fake niggas/bitches, Just so they can fuck with my head. I know music has saved lives and I know I'm trying changing the world in a little way, You can sick my duck if you think otherwise.
Sincere Ray, I'm done...Nigga By the way I ain't never done. Keep on doin' this shit, whatever it may be as long as I live....
I feel like I was the Outcast, no friends more so friends turned Fam.No window of escape from my zone-age,I finally gravitated to the music that I made & enjoy listening to. I wonder if anyone was glad I made it, I befriended her during her time of feeling she couldnt hold a relationship.I never seen myself as a star, I'm the Moon.I was too scared to melt her from afar but things was cool, our friendship made her talk down about me. Hurt me like as I was the loser in school not to be confused, she wrote down her favorite songs of mine in mind. I guess it was to be strong in mind, her insecurity reflected mine.I dont respect her, why? The bond was never real. Just fabricated lies turned truth? or truth turned lies?
Sometimes I think peep's on my heels...But nah, people uses my songs to heal. Which makes me strong as steel,Why in the fuck would I need mainstream appeal to whack niggas & fake bitches?
The chick said I was too fat,I was to scared to admit I wasnt and that I honestly havent ate much. Her father was a staple in her life a lot of foundation of her sanity I would've guessed,And her mother's a subject that she don't bother with
Not a virgin, but not proud. After the nigga came, she was knocked down or needed to talk down on someone. So she visits my blog to see what I say that parallels between her life and my life, Just to assume things I'm not doing or am doing. Maybe, even who I'm doing. Makes me wish that I could take all of my readers and associate to orbit, Where we can hawk loogies and spit in niggas' faces. Then play the biggest of Asteroid in life, Forget the days we missed, feigned guiltiness. The game isn't as dope as it looks, its dope. Lookin' for more dopes to get hooked, Before you cross-over I just hope that you look at the words that I wrote on this blog. Then go in to the mirror an stare at yourself and realize deeply something, no matter what it is. An quit with the bullshit I dont talk shit about you, nor engage or indulge you in it.
Somebody I was talking to one day. said that "because all the shit that i been goin' through in reference to women, ain't never gonna have no content heart/relationship. kinda."..whatever that's the biggest piece of bullshit, that I've ever heard in my life. I don't know how many times I'm going to say it, I don't be doin' this shit so I can fuck every woman in the world, and not give one my heart or all of me. Even if i have 5 fans, and i save 5 lives. Or help someone realize their life may be simply better than my own, or someone out there who goes through the same to show. There is light at the end of whatever tunnel your in...That's what's most important to me
You can't tell me these people don't exist. You can't tell me that, these are fuckin' wanna be cool cats, who do not feel the same way as I. Disguising themselves as fake niggas/bitches, Just so they can fuck with my head. I know music has saved lives and I know I'm trying changing the world in a little way, You can sick my duck if you think otherwise.
Sincere Ray, I'm done...Nigga By the way I ain't never done. Keep on doin' this shit, whatever it may be as long as I live....
See these sounds, beyoottttccchhhh!!!
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111.78Gb's of music later....Yes, Score....Goodmorning.FlyLo Produce...Deadass though.
Friday, November 5, 2010
Could this last forever?
They say things dont last forever. I'm aware of that, all around. Though, I do want to say to Mrs. Obama that you were wrong for assuming the things on my blog were not in tune or had nothing to do with you. In the exact sense that it did, I'm not fucking around with that. We just talked about it, You seen the blogs. I hope you are computer savvy enough to look at older posts outside of my first page you ass. Like fa real, I chronologically put things on this page to chart & cherish memories of past present with a possible future. You are the reason like other that I'll be losing my damn mind, Its bad enough November is a fucked up month to me. Then Decemeber.....Nuff said. Deadass though, I'm off to continue on with my day. Shouts out to Juli B, thanks for the words of encouragement. An telling me to keep my head up mamio...Also Booty D (Diva) I hope your coolin yo, You was straight bugging the fuck out. An your obviously not meant to be his though you heart him...So I'll let it go. Serve Me, Volley, Gone...
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Deadass though
FUCK NOVEMBER!!! Lmao that is all. I'm not looking forward to this opening week that has taken place, Because I reflected on what the fuck I was doing. Or lmao...Who I was doing...Then 23rd...Nuff said..Fuck that date, even though its etched in to me damn mind. Nov. 23rd 4:16AM & 25th 2008 My life changed...I'll elaborate on a later blog on that. and then last year around this time, Best relationship of my life went south. Then Nov 23rd...Caught up to me, and So the war started....Man I cant wait to blog that one out...20's 50's 5's 10's...Go!!!
Nothin Make Me Feel Better Than...
Od'n to some of my favorite producers musical musings, Just str8 beat. No LYRICS!!!! I like it better that way, shows the emotion or the picture they were trying to depict with it. Plus it makes me feel a tad better or worse depending on the vibe, deadass still up tight about feeling like I had to close that door. It seriously hurts, An I'm trying to see where the new one has opened up. So for now I'm letting the music who always loves me and always faith talk to me, Try having a mental conversation with a sample and see what you come up with.
Deadass though, got a doc appointment today. Hope everything goes well, I've been moving alittle more fluently on my foot with out my boot. So Let hope this stays on the up & up then I'll be able to get back to the game...YES!!! GOALLLLLLL!!!!!!!!! Deadass bye bye
Deadass though, got a doc appointment today. Hope everything goes well, I've been moving alittle more fluently on my foot with out my boot. So Let hope this stays on the up & up then I'll be able to get back to the game...YES!!! GOALLLLLLL!!!!!!!!! Deadass bye bye
Thru these eyes...
Remember these things...
* Law 1 Never outshine the master
* Law 2 Never put too much trust in friends, learn how to use enemies
* Law 3 Conceal your intentions
* Law 4 Always say less than necessary
* Law 5 So much depends on reputation. Guard it with your life
* Law 6 Court attention at all cost
* Law 7 Get others to do the work for you, but always take the credit
* Law 8 Make other people come to you, use bait if necessary
* Law 9 Win through your actions, never through argument
* Law 10 Infection: avoid the unhappy and unlucky
* Law 11 Learn to keep people dependent on you
* Law 12 Use selective honesty and generosity to disarm your victim
* Law 13 When asking for help, appeal to people's self-interest, never to their mercy or gratitude
* Law 14 Pose as a friend, work as a spy
* Law 15 Crush your enemy totally
* Law 16 Use absence to increase respect and honor
* Law 17 Keep others in suspended terror: cultivate an air of unpredictability
* Law 18 Do not build fortresses to protect yourself. Isolation is dangerous
* Law 19 Know who you're dealing with, do not offend the wrong person
* Law 20 Do not commit to anyone
* Law 21 Play a sucker to catch a sucker: play dumber than your mark
* Law 22 Use the surrender tactic: transform weakness into power
* Law 23 Concentrate your forces
* Law 24 Play the perfect courtier
* Law 25 Re-create yourself
* Law 26 Keep your hands clean
* Law 27 Play on people's need to believe to create a cultlike following
* Law 28 Enter action with boldness
* Law 29 Plan all the way to the end
* Law 30 Make your accomplishments seem effortless
* Law 31 Control the options: get others to play with the cards you deal
* Law 32 Play to people's fantasies
* Law 33 Discover each man's thumbscrew
* Law 34 Be royal in your fashion: act like a king to be treated like one
* Law 35 Master the art of timing
* Law 36 Disdain things you cannot have: Ignoring them is the best revenge
* Law 37 Create compelling spectacles
* Law 38 Think as you like but behave like others
* Law 39 Stir up waters to catch fish
* Law 40 Despise the free lunch
* Law 41 Avoid stepping into a great man's shoes
* Law 42 Strike the shepherd and the sheep will scatter
* Law 43 Work on the hearts and minds of others
* Law 44 Disarm and infuriate with the mirror effect
* Law 45 Preach the need for change, but never reform too much at Once
* Law 46 Never appear perfect
* Law 47 Do not go past the mark you aimed for; in victory, learn when to stop
* Law 48 Assume formlessness
Phase One: Separation
Stirring Interest and Desire
1. CHOOSE THE RIGHT VICTIM
Everything depends on the target of your seduction. Study your prey thoroughly, and choose only those who will prove susceptible to your charms. The right victims are those for whom you can fill a void, who see in you something exotic. They are often isolated or unhappy, or can easily be made so- for the completely contented person is almost impossible to seduce. The perfect victim has some quality that inspires strong emotions in you, making your seductive maneuvers seem more natural and dynamic. The perfect victim allows for the perfect chase.
2. CREATE A FALSE SENSE OF SECURITY- APPROACH INDIRECTLY
If you are too direct early on, you risk stirring up a resistance that will never be lowered. At first there must be nothing of the seducer in your manner. The seduction should begin at an angle, indirectly, so that the target only gradually becomes aware of you. Haunt the periphery of your targets life- approach through a third party, of seem to cultivate a relatively neutral relationship, moving gradually from friend to lover. Lull the target into feeling secure, then strike.
3. SEND MIXED SIGNALS
Once people are aware of your presence, and perhaps vaguely intrigued, you need to stir their interest before it settles on someone else. Most of us are much too obvious- instead, be hard to figure out. Send mixed signals: both tough and tender, both spiritual and earthly, both innocent and cunning. A mix of qualities suggests depth, which fascinates even as it confuses. An elusive, enigmatic aura will make people want to know more, drawing them into your circle. Create such a power by hinting at something contradictory within you.
4. APPEAR TO BE AN OBJECT OF DESIRE- CREATE TRIANGLES
Few are drawn to the person whom others avoid and neglect; people gather around those who have already attracted interest. To draw your victims closer and make them hungry to possess you, you must create an aura of desirability- of being wanted and courted by many. It will become a point of vanity for them to be the preferred object of your attention, to win you away from a crowd of admirers. Build a reputation that precedes you: If many have succumbed to your charms there must be a reason.
5. CREATE A NEED- STIR ANXIETY AND DISCONTENT
A perfectly satisfied person cannot be seduced. Tension and disharmony must be instilled in your targets minds. Stir within them feelings of discontent, an unhappiness with their circumstances and themselves. The feeling of inadequacy that you create will give you space to insinuate yourself, to make them see you as the answer to their problems. Pain and anxiety are the proper precursors to pleasure. Learn to manufacture the need that you can fill.
6. MASTER THE ART OF INSINUATION
Making your targets feel dissatisfied and in need of your attention is essential, but if you are too obvious, they will see through you and grow defensive. There is no known defense, however, against insinuation- the art of planting ideas in peoples minds by dropping hints that take root days later, even appearing to them as their own idea. Create a sublanguage- bold statement followed by retraction and apology, ambiguous comments, banal talk combined with alluring glances- that enters the targets unconscious to convey your real meaning. Make everything suggestive.
7. ENTER THEIR SPIRIT
Most people are locked in their own worlds, making them stubborn and hard to persuade. The way to lure them out of their shell and set up your seduction is to enter their spirit. Play by their rules, enjoy what they enjoy, adapt yourself to their moods. In doing so you will stroke their deep-rooted narcissism and lower their defenses. Indulge your targets every move and whim, giving them nothing to react against or resist.
8. CREATE TEMPTATION
Lure the target deep into your seduction by creating the proper temptation: a glimpse of the pleasures to come. As the serpent tempted Eve with the promise of forbidden knowledge, you must awaken a desire in your targets that they cannot control. Find that weakness of theirs, that fantasy that has yet to be realized, and hint that you can lead them toward it. The key is to keep it vague. Stimulate a curiosity stronger than the doubts and anxieties that go with it, and they will follow you.
Phase Two: Lead Astray
Creating Pleasure and Confusion
9. KEEP THEM IN SUSPENSE- WHAT COMES NEXT
The moment people feel they know what to expect from you, your spell on them is broken. More: You have ceded them power. The only way to lead the seduced along and keep the upper hand is to create suspense, a calculated surprise. Doing something they do not expect from you will give them a delightful sense of spontaneity- they will not be able to foresee what comes next. You are always one step ahead and in control. Give the victim a thrill with a sudden change of direction.
10. USE THE DEMONIC POWER OF WORDS TO SOW CONFUSION
It is hard to make people listen; they are consumed with their own thoughts and desires, and have little time for yours. The trick to making them listen is to say what they want to hear, to fill their ears with whatever is pleasant to them. This is the essence of seductive language. Inflame peoples emotions with loaded phrases, flatter them, comfort their insecurities, envelop them is sweet words and promises, and not only will they listen to you, they will lose their will to resist you.
11. PAY ATTENTION TO DETAIL
Lofty words of love and grand gestures can be suspicious: Why are you trying so hard to please? The details of a seduction- the subtle gestures, the offhand things you do- are often more charming and revealing. You must learn to distract your victims with a myriad of pleasant little rituals- thoughtful gifts tailored just for them, clothes and adornments designed to please them, gestures that show the time and attention you are paying them. Mesmerized by what they see, they will not notice what you are really up to.
12. POETICIZE YOUR PRESENCE
Important things happen when your targets are alone: The slightest feeling of relief that you are not there, and it is all over. Familiarity and overexposure will cause this reaction. Remain elusive, then. Intrigue your targets by alternating an exciting presence with a cool distance, exuberant moments followed by calculated absences. Associate yourself with poetic images and objects, so that when they think of you, they begin to see you through and idealized halo. The more you figure in their minds, the more they will envelop you in seductive fantasies.
13. DISARM THROUGH STRATEGIC WEAKNESS AND VULNERABILITY
Too much maneuvering on your part may raise suspicion. The best way to cover your tracks is to make the other person feel superior and stronger. If you seem to be weak, vulnerable, enthralled by the other person, and unable to control yourself, you will make your actions look more natural, less calculated. Physical weakness- tears, bashfulness, paleness- will help create the effect. Play the victim, and then transform your targets sympathy into love.
14. CONFUSE DESIRE AND REALITY- THE PERFECT ILLUSION
To compensate for the difficulties in their lives, people spend a lot of their time daydreaming, imagining a future full of adventure, success, and romance. If you can create the illusion that through you they can live out their dreams, you will have them at your mercy. Aim at secret wishes that have been thwarted or repressed, stirring up uncontrollable emotions, clouding their powers of reason. Lead the seduced to a point of confusion in which they can no longer tell the difference between illusion and reality.
15. ISOLATE THE VICTIM
An isolated person is weak. By slowly isolating your victims, you make them more vulnerable to your influence. Take them away from their normal milieu, friends, family, and home. Give them the sense of being marginalized, in limbo- they are leaving one world behind and entering another. Once isolated like this, they have no outside support, and in their confusion they are easily led astray. Lure the seduced into your lair, where nothing is familiar.
Phase Three: The Precipice
Deepening the Effect Through Extreme Measures
16. PROVE YOURSELF
Most people want to be seduces. If they resist your efforts, it is probably because you have not gone far enough to allay their doubts- about your motives, the depth of your feelings, and so on. One well-timed action that shows how far you are willing to go to win them over will dispel their doubts. Do not worry about looking foolish or making a mistake-any kind of deed that is self-sacrificing and for your targets sake will overwhelm their emotions, they wont notice anything else.
17. EFFECT A REGRESSION
People who have experienced certain kind of pleasure in the past will try to repeat or relive it. The deepest-rooted and most pleasurable memories are usually those of early childhood, and are often unconsciously associated with parental figures. Bring your target back to that point by placing yourself in the oedipal triangle and positioning them as the needy child. Unaware of the cause of their emotional response, they will fall in love with you.
18. STIR UP THE TRANSGRESSIVE AND TABOO
There are always social limits on what one can do. Some of these, the most elemental taboos, go back centuries; others are more superficial, simply defining polite acceptable behavior. Making your targets feel that you are leading them past either kind of limit is immensely seductive. People yearn to explore their dark side. Once the desire to transgress draws your target to you, it will be hard for them to stop. Take them farther than they imagined-the shared feeling of guilt and complicity will create a powerful bond.
19. USE SPIRITUAL LURES
Everyone has doubts and insecurities-about their body, their self worth, their sexuality. If your seduction appeals exclusively to the physical, you will stir up these doubts and make your targets self conscious. Instead, lure them out of their insecurities by making them focus on something sublime and spiritual: a religious experience, a lofty work of art, the occult. Lost in a spiritual mist, the target will feel light and uninhibited. Deepen the effect of your seduction by making its sexual culmination seem like the spiritual union of two souls.
20. MIX PLEASURE WITH PAIN
The greatest mistake in seduction is being too nice. At first, perhaps, your kindness is charming, but soon it grows monotonous; you are trying to hard to please, and seem insecure. Instead of overwhelming your targets with niceness, try inflicting some pain. Make them feel guilty and insecure. Instigate a breakup- now a rapprochement, a return to your earlier kindness, will turn them weak at the knees. The lower lows you create, the greater the highs. To heighten the erotic charge, create the excitement of fear.
Phase Four: Moving In for the Kill
21. GIVE THEM SPACE TO FALL- THE PURSUER IS PURSUED
If your targets become too used to you as the aggressor, they will give less of their own energy, and the tension will slacken. You need to wake them up, turn the tables. Once they are under your spell, take a step back and they will start to come after you. Hint that you are growing bored. Seem interested in someone else. Soon they will want to possess you physically, and restraint will go out the window. Create the illusion that the seducer is being seduced.
22. USE PHYSICAL LURES
Targets with active minds are dangerous: If they see through your manipulations, they may suddenly develop doubts. Put their minds gently to rest, and waken their dormant senses, by combining a non defensive attitude with a charged sexual presence. While your cool, nonchalant air is lowering their inhibitions, your glances, voice, and bearing-oozing sex and desire-are getting under their skin and raising their temperature. Never force the physical; instead infect your target with heat, lure them into lust. Morality, judgment, and concern for the future will melt away.
23. MASTER THE ART OF THE BOLD MOVE
A moment has arrived: Your victim clearly desires you, but is not ready to admit it openly, let alone act on it. This is time to throw aside chivalry, kindness, and coquetry and to overwhelm them with a bold move. Do not give the victim time to consider the consequences. Showing hesitation or awkwardness means you are thinking of yourself, as opposed to being overwhelmed by the victim charms. One person must go on the offensive, and it is you.
24. BEWARE THE AFTEREFFECTS
Danger follows in the aftermath of a successful seduction. After emotions have reached a pitch, they often swing in the opposite direction-toward lassitude, distrust, disappointment. If you are to part, make the sacrifice swift and sudden. If you are to stay in a relationship, beware a flagging of energy, a creeping familiarity that will spoil the fantasy. A second seduction is required. Never let the other person take you for granted- use absence, create pain and conflict, to keep the seduced on tenterhooks
* Law 1 Never outshine the master
* Law 2 Never put too much trust in friends, learn how to use enemies
* Law 3 Conceal your intentions
* Law 4 Always say less than necessary
* Law 5 So much depends on reputation. Guard it with your life
* Law 6 Court attention at all cost
* Law 7 Get others to do the work for you, but always take the credit
* Law 8 Make other people come to you, use bait if necessary
* Law 9 Win through your actions, never through argument
* Law 10 Infection: avoid the unhappy and unlucky
* Law 11 Learn to keep people dependent on you
* Law 12 Use selective honesty and generosity to disarm your victim
* Law 13 When asking for help, appeal to people's self-interest, never to their mercy or gratitude
* Law 14 Pose as a friend, work as a spy
* Law 15 Crush your enemy totally
* Law 16 Use absence to increase respect and honor
* Law 17 Keep others in suspended terror: cultivate an air of unpredictability
* Law 18 Do not build fortresses to protect yourself. Isolation is dangerous
* Law 19 Know who you're dealing with, do not offend the wrong person
* Law 20 Do not commit to anyone
* Law 21 Play a sucker to catch a sucker: play dumber than your mark
* Law 22 Use the surrender tactic: transform weakness into power
* Law 23 Concentrate your forces
* Law 24 Play the perfect courtier
* Law 25 Re-create yourself
* Law 26 Keep your hands clean
* Law 27 Play on people's need to believe to create a cultlike following
* Law 28 Enter action with boldness
* Law 29 Plan all the way to the end
* Law 30 Make your accomplishments seem effortless
* Law 31 Control the options: get others to play with the cards you deal
* Law 32 Play to people's fantasies
* Law 33 Discover each man's thumbscrew
* Law 34 Be royal in your fashion: act like a king to be treated like one
* Law 35 Master the art of timing
* Law 36 Disdain things you cannot have: Ignoring them is the best revenge
* Law 37 Create compelling spectacles
* Law 38 Think as you like but behave like others
* Law 39 Stir up waters to catch fish
* Law 40 Despise the free lunch
* Law 41 Avoid stepping into a great man's shoes
* Law 42 Strike the shepherd and the sheep will scatter
* Law 43 Work on the hearts and minds of others
* Law 44 Disarm and infuriate with the mirror effect
* Law 45 Preach the need for change, but never reform too much at Once
* Law 46 Never appear perfect
* Law 47 Do not go past the mark you aimed for; in victory, learn when to stop
* Law 48 Assume formlessness
Phase One: Separation
Stirring Interest and Desire
1. CHOOSE THE RIGHT VICTIM
Everything depends on the target of your seduction. Study your prey thoroughly, and choose only those who will prove susceptible to your charms. The right victims are those for whom you can fill a void, who see in you something exotic. They are often isolated or unhappy, or can easily be made so- for the completely contented person is almost impossible to seduce. The perfect victim has some quality that inspires strong emotions in you, making your seductive maneuvers seem more natural and dynamic. The perfect victim allows for the perfect chase.
2. CREATE A FALSE SENSE OF SECURITY- APPROACH INDIRECTLY
If you are too direct early on, you risk stirring up a resistance that will never be lowered. At first there must be nothing of the seducer in your manner. The seduction should begin at an angle, indirectly, so that the target only gradually becomes aware of you. Haunt the periphery of your targets life- approach through a third party, of seem to cultivate a relatively neutral relationship, moving gradually from friend to lover. Lull the target into feeling secure, then strike.
3. SEND MIXED SIGNALS
Once people are aware of your presence, and perhaps vaguely intrigued, you need to stir their interest before it settles on someone else. Most of us are much too obvious- instead, be hard to figure out. Send mixed signals: both tough and tender, both spiritual and earthly, both innocent and cunning. A mix of qualities suggests depth, which fascinates even as it confuses. An elusive, enigmatic aura will make people want to know more, drawing them into your circle. Create such a power by hinting at something contradictory within you.
4. APPEAR TO BE AN OBJECT OF DESIRE- CREATE TRIANGLES
Few are drawn to the person whom others avoid and neglect; people gather around those who have already attracted interest. To draw your victims closer and make them hungry to possess you, you must create an aura of desirability- of being wanted and courted by many. It will become a point of vanity for them to be the preferred object of your attention, to win you away from a crowd of admirers. Build a reputation that precedes you: If many have succumbed to your charms there must be a reason.
5. CREATE A NEED- STIR ANXIETY AND DISCONTENT
A perfectly satisfied person cannot be seduced. Tension and disharmony must be instilled in your targets minds. Stir within them feelings of discontent, an unhappiness with their circumstances and themselves. The feeling of inadequacy that you create will give you space to insinuate yourself, to make them see you as the answer to their problems. Pain and anxiety are the proper precursors to pleasure. Learn to manufacture the need that you can fill.
6. MASTER THE ART OF INSINUATION
Making your targets feel dissatisfied and in need of your attention is essential, but if you are too obvious, they will see through you and grow defensive. There is no known defense, however, against insinuation- the art of planting ideas in peoples minds by dropping hints that take root days later, even appearing to them as their own idea. Create a sublanguage- bold statement followed by retraction and apology, ambiguous comments, banal talk combined with alluring glances- that enters the targets unconscious to convey your real meaning. Make everything suggestive.
7. ENTER THEIR SPIRIT
Most people are locked in their own worlds, making them stubborn and hard to persuade. The way to lure them out of their shell and set up your seduction is to enter their spirit. Play by their rules, enjoy what they enjoy, adapt yourself to their moods. In doing so you will stroke their deep-rooted narcissism and lower their defenses. Indulge your targets every move and whim, giving them nothing to react against or resist.
8. CREATE TEMPTATION
Lure the target deep into your seduction by creating the proper temptation: a glimpse of the pleasures to come. As the serpent tempted Eve with the promise of forbidden knowledge, you must awaken a desire in your targets that they cannot control. Find that weakness of theirs, that fantasy that has yet to be realized, and hint that you can lead them toward it. The key is to keep it vague. Stimulate a curiosity stronger than the doubts and anxieties that go with it, and they will follow you.
Phase Two: Lead Astray
Creating Pleasure and Confusion
9. KEEP THEM IN SUSPENSE- WHAT COMES NEXT
The moment people feel they know what to expect from you, your spell on them is broken. More: You have ceded them power. The only way to lead the seduced along and keep the upper hand is to create suspense, a calculated surprise. Doing something they do not expect from you will give them a delightful sense of spontaneity- they will not be able to foresee what comes next. You are always one step ahead and in control. Give the victim a thrill with a sudden change of direction.
10. USE THE DEMONIC POWER OF WORDS TO SOW CONFUSION
It is hard to make people listen; they are consumed with their own thoughts and desires, and have little time for yours. The trick to making them listen is to say what they want to hear, to fill their ears with whatever is pleasant to them. This is the essence of seductive language. Inflame peoples emotions with loaded phrases, flatter them, comfort their insecurities, envelop them is sweet words and promises, and not only will they listen to you, they will lose their will to resist you.
11. PAY ATTENTION TO DETAIL
Lofty words of love and grand gestures can be suspicious: Why are you trying so hard to please? The details of a seduction- the subtle gestures, the offhand things you do- are often more charming and revealing. You must learn to distract your victims with a myriad of pleasant little rituals- thoughtful gifts tailored just for them, clothes and adornments designed to please them, gestures that show the time and attention you are paying them. Mesmerized by what they see, they will not notice what you are really up to.
12. POETICIZE YOUR PRESENCE
Important things happen when your targets are alone: The slightest feeling of relief that you are not there, and it is all over. Familiarity and overexposure will cause this reaction. Remain elusive, then. Intrigue your targets by alternating an exciting presence with a cool distance, exuberant moments followed by calculated absences. Associate yourself with poetic images and objects, so that when they think of you, they begin to see you through and idealized halo. The more you figure in their minds, the more they will envelop you in seductive fantasies.
13. DISARM THROUGH STRATEGIC WEAKNESS AND VULNERABILITY
Too much maneuvering on your part may raise suspicion. The best way to cover your tracks is to make the other person feel superior and stronger. If you seem to be weak, vulnerable, enthralled by the other person, and unable to control yourself, you will make your actions look more natural, less calculated. Physical weakness- tears, bashfulness, paleness- will help create the effect. Play the victim, and then transform your targets sympathy into love.
14. CONFUSE DESIRE AND REALITY- THE PERFECT ILLUSION
To compensate for the difficulties in their lives, people spend a lot of their time daydreaming, imagining a future full of adventure, success, and romance. If you can create the illusion that through you they can live out their dreams, you will have them at your mercy. Aim at secret wishes that have been thwarted or repressed, stirring up uncontrollable emotions, clouding their powers of reason. Lead the seduced to a point of confusion in which they can no longer tell the difference between illusion and reality.
15. ISOLATE THE VICTIM
An isolated person is weak. By slowly isolating your victims, you make them more vulnerable to your influence. Take them away from their normal milieu, friends, family, and home. Give them the sense of being marginalized, in limbo- they are leaving one world behind and entering another. Once isolated like this, they have no outside support, and in their confusion they are easily led astray. Lure the seduced into your lair, where nothing is familiar.
Phase Three: The Precipice
Deepening the Effect Through Extreme Measures
16. PROVE YOURSELF
Most people want to be seduces. If they resist your efforts, it is probably because you have not gone far enough to allay their doubts- about your motives, the depth of your feelings, and so on. One well-timed action that shows how far you are willing to go to win them over will dispel their doubts. Do not worry about looking foolish or making a mistake-any kind of deed that is self-sacrificing and for your targets sake will overwhelm their emotions, they wont notice anything else.
17. EFFECT A REGRESSION
People who have experienced certain kind of pleasure in the past will try to repeat or relive it. The deepest-rooted and most pleasurable memories are usually those of early childhood, and are often unconsciously associated with parental figures. Bring your target back to that point by placing yourself in the oedipal triangle and positioning them as the needy child. Unaware of the cause of their emotional response, they will fall in love with you.
18. STIR UP THE TRANSGRESSIVE AND TABOO
There are always social limits on what one can do. Some of these, the most elemental taboos, go back centuries; others are more superficial, simply defining polite acceptable behavior. Making your targets feel that you are leading them past either kind of limit is immensely seductive. People yearn to explore their dark side. Once the desire to transgress draws your target to you, it will be hard for them to stop. Take them farther than they imagined-the shared feeling of guilt and complicity will create a powerful bond.
19. USE SPIRITUAL LURES
Everyone has doubts and insecurities-about their body, their self worth, their sexuality. If your seduction appeals exclusively to the physical, you will stir up these doubts and make your targets self conscious. Instead, lure them out of their insecurities by making them focus on something sublime and spiritual: a religious experience, a lofty work of art, the occult. Lost in a spiritual mist, the target will feel light and uninhibited. Deepen the effect of your seduction by making its sexual culmination seem like the spiritual union of two souls.
20. MIX PLEASURE WITH PAIN
The greatest mistake in seduction is being too nice. At first, perhaps, your kindness is charming, but soon it grows monotonous; you are trying to hard to please, and seem insecure. Instead of overwhelming your targets with niceness, try inflicting some pain. Make them feel guilty and insecure. Instigate a breakup- now a rapprochement, a return to your earlier kindness, will turn them weak at the knees. The lower lows you create, the greater the highs. To heighten the erotic charge, create the excitement of fear.
Phase Four: Moving In for the Kill
21. GIVE THEM SPACE TO FALL- THE PURSUER IS PURSUED
If your targets become too used to you as the aggressor, they will give less of their own energy, and the tension will slacken. You need to wake them up, turn the tables. Once they are under your spell, take a step back and they will start to come after you. Hint that you are growing bored. Seem interested in someone else. Soon they will want to possess you physically, and restraint will go out the window. Create the illusion that the seducer is being seduced.
22. USE PHYSICAL LURES
Targets with active minds are dangerous: If they see through your manipulations, they may suddenly develop doubts. Put their minds gently to rest, and waken their dormant senses, by combining a non defensive attitude with a charged sexual presence. While your cool, nonchalant air is lowering their inhibitions, your glances, voice, and bearing-oozing sex and desire-are getting under their skin and raising their temperature. Never force the physical; instead infect your target with heat, lure them into lust. Morality, judgment, and concern for the future will melt away.
23. MASTER THE ART OF THE BOLD MOVE
A moment has arrived: Your victim clearly desires you, but is not ready to admit it openly, let alone act on it. This is time to throw aside chivalry, kindness, and coquetry and to overwhelm them with a bold move. Do not give the victim time to consider the consequences. Showing hesitation or awkwardness means you are thinking of yourself, as opposed to being overwhelmed by the victim charms. One person must go on the offensive, and it is you.
24. BEWARE THE AFTEREFFECTS
Danger follows in the aftermath of a successful seduction. After emotions have reached a pitch, they often swing in the opposite direction-toward lassitude, distrust, disappointment. If you are to part, make the sacrifice swift and sudden. If you are to stay in a relationship, beware a flagging of energy, a creeping familiarity that will spoil the fantasy. A second seduction is required. Never let the other person take you for granted- use absence, create pain and conflict, to keep the seduced on tenterhooks
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
The Final Bow.
Dead ever seen some shit that made your heart sink? I did, Again....
"i forgot about u last night.... for the first time in a long time i did. then u text me tell me that u miss me... in a instant i forgot about "him". i thought these feelings had went away... i hate getting messages from you... its like u kno the perfect shit to say, fucks up my whole day... i hate the shit u do, but ...i still text u back & say i missed u too... smh"
Mind you she had the nerve to say "You are who I want"....No I'm not, You lied....As I exit stage right. I thank your for the cherished time and memory.
"i forgot about u last night.... for the first time in a long time i did. then u text me tell me that u miss me... in a instant i forgot about "him". i thought these feelings had went away... i hate getting messages from you... its like u kno the perfect shit to say, fucks up my whole day... i hate the shit u do, but ...i still text u back & say i missed u too... smh"
Mind you she had the nerve to say "You are who I want"....No I'm not, You lied....As I exit stage right. I thank your for the cherished time and memory.
Slowly but surely...
I am losing all sorts of trust for people, Her & Her...Looking for some sort chat, or help. I dont know, I'm lost in the world. Yet found, more no around at all. I mean this will all end, and that door will shut. Which & Where will the other door open?
I know you probably thinking I am talking like I am gon off some LSD, In which case I'm not. Surely I'd love to be off of whatever the beatles were zipped off of though, Knowingly I'd be in Sgt Peppers Broken Heart Band. Hair-do and all...So No love lost. Just meaningless rambles, And Michelle Obama...(Insider) lmao...
Outside of that, Umm I finally got to my godparents so I could make it to the doc appointment tomorrow morning. Outside of that, there is nothing really more to rant about besides I've already nagged about. In which case, Lynnette has pissed me off. Juli B has gave me some words of encouragement and to keep pushing, Though like I told her "I tried, and there will be a terrible ending to this." I refuse to believe otherwise, I mean I tried. There is a lot to make it through, then again alot not to make it through. So...with that said I'm gonna fly out...Until next blog folks. Litermeter....
I know you probably thinking I am talking like I am gon off some LSD, In which case I'm not. Surely I'd love to be off of whatever the beatles were zipped off of though, Knowingly I'd be in Sgt Peppers Broken Heart Band. Hair-do and all...So No love lost. Just meaningless rambles, And Michelle Obama...(Insider) lmao...
Outside of that, Umm I finally got to my godparents so I could make it to the doc appointment tomorrow morning. Outside of that, there is nothing really more to rant about besides I've already nagged about. In which case, Lynnette has pissed me off. Juli B has gave me some words of encouragement and to keep pushing, Though like I told her "I tried, and there will be a terrible ending to this." I refuse to believe otherwise, I mean I tried. There is a lot to make it through, then again alot not to make it through. So...with that said I'm gonna fly out...Until next blog folks. Litermeter....
The Way
I know not how to get over it, Then again I have been. For the fact of I just slowly but surely let go, of everything? I'm close to it. You have someone else on your mind, Its not me. I wanted it to be, but seemingly I might be on someone else mind. Which is dandy long as i'm thought of, That'll so make me feel a tad better. Other than that a duder got his hair flat ironed out...YES!!! Its longer than I thought, Split ends and all...Peep me out....Jokes and tomato's to fly:
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