Fear

This is why I do blog.I think they call this, umm...venting last I ever checked.
Look this is me no artificial things, just things I feel that plague me over time. More so things I go through on a daily, or weekly basis. I'm still the same despite a few bumps and scrapes, I play the game because games were played on us. If that makes any sense to you, but I hope you can feel the my pain sometimes as I articulate some of the things I go through. Rather mentally, physically I let it all come spilling out. I hope you all know that, alot of people are the reason I have fun in life. Some thinking that I'm highly self absorbed with myself, Honestly I do not think I am. Equal opportunity amongst different females I know say other wise, to me that shit is a lil too unreal for me. That's not how it'll work, that will not be how it goes. An we alil to far high on my horse, then I fell and got lost in the lows. Though I always openly share my thoughts, and my heart that's honestly all I know. Every time I try to close that door, it opens up my eyes. These blogs are insights to the things that you'll see when you look into my eyes, And I would be continuing this as long as I possibly can. So every word I utter will always be mine.

Even if everything you could hear about me may or may not be lies, Ever want truth? Look me in my eyes, don't be scared of me. Please don't be scared of what you might see. I remember her, Those feelings are no longer new or true.

Fuck all yall, I'm bound to ignore feelings here. But it's funny having a blog.
That could get you found before anybody ever has the chance, And plus things are just surreal at home. People Know I've changed just because my mind has probably gone, actually I feel I am alone, It just always feel alone. "I think I'm scared of what the future holds." Word to Aubrey lol, I was wish some things that I dont get and now am used to those. Every woman I met either thinks I'm fucking some of my female friends or I was with that Jacinta woman. The honesty of my blog really leaves me too exposed, All my old crew think I got a new crew. Also people seem to notice every time I do smile, I guess that means that defense mechanism comes few and far between....That's all I have. Room for more, as my life continues.... ~Sincere Ray