The Few Moments Of Clarity...

At one time it was pretty damn easy to sit down in front of a computer, When I actually just felt like talking to be talking. Now it is pretty farfetched in between my stretches of blogging, I mean I have great intentions. Just most times when I sit down, I typically get sidetracked easily. Rather its someone catching my attention, or me getting up and leaving to do something with the idea of me saying "Ahhhh I'll comeback to it..". Knowing damn well I'm prone to lose any momentum on whatever it is I was typing.

I've been having a lot to say, Just have lacked the motives to put it to my blog. Hell it has been a lot going on in my life since September, I mean it is nothing I didnt contribute to it being what it is. Then again it also was things that were out of my own control.

Though I will depict on what happened with my now ex, I mean we broke up a while ago (Perhaps recently if you were to ask her. But I seen the signs from when we ended up on the mudslide anyway...)

Since I've been through 2 other worse break-ups, I will share what I have done that you should know not to do. Or probably need to stop doing at this moment...

Please learn from my past, als some of my mistakes:

1. Making big changes to your appearance:
A few months ago, as I awaited the final words I knew I was coming. I stopped caring as much about my appearance..

Mind you, I have a closet full of new things I wanted yet worn yet. So for like almost a month consistently I stayed within the same outfit, Which consisted of a some plain ass basketball T I had from a league I played in. Some regular as jeans, my beat around SB's that I always wear when I'm not going somewhere worth while. Didn't shave my face at all...Last time I had shaven, was the night before I went to Norfolk, VA on 10-31-12. Once I returned, I pretty much just existed.

So my own advice to you, Male or Female. DONT DO IT!!! Please, I understand being wounded from a breakup of someone who meant something to you. Just do not stop being what made someone Attracted to you alright?

2. Stalking all of their Social Media Pages: 
We’ve all done it, No shame in it. Though some people really take it as a very BIG emotional wound to see something of a recent ex.

Some of us tend to over think in to it, Its a big No No. Please, especially after a break up, by no means do not bother visiting their pages...Even if it appears on your newsfeed on FB. If need be simply use the Unfriend option or simply block them. No need to continue to deepen a wound that will make seem automatically crazy. 

I've done back in 09, When I lost a ex. So I'm telling you from experience...."Jeezy dont do it!"

I've done it, I've simple wanted to kill a chick or 2. But I just took a brief hiatus from all things social, Even though my recent ex probably stills follow me on both twitter and IG...

3. Return their shit in dramatic fashion:
I silently still have pictures of a few of my exes, More so the meaningful ones. Then my most recent, I found 2 pairs of her panties in my shoebox. Please...Lmao do not ask why, I'm a guy..Thats nuff said. So I stared at them, reminisced on the matches that earned me these 2 trophies. Then reality hit, Like what in the F*ck am I going to do with these now?! I didn't throw them away yet, nor have I returned them. Plus she still has my hoodie, my other cardigan and like some other knickknacks I gave her... 

Fuck being dramatic about it, Either keep it store it or fucking incinerate it and move on G.

4. Calling your hood monkey friends:
I'm quite the "Tweener" when it comes to hoodrat things, I do it in a classy type of fashion. So it doesnt make it seem as if I'm not one who does this on the regular, Get me doe? Lol. But for both sexes...Please dont call your hood nigga friend talking about "Mannnn Fuck that bitch..." because you never know, that may be the chick he was planning on back dooring you for...Just some advice...And my ladies, Please dont call Pineapple Kiesha because she just may have you throwing bricks..Inboxing his new chick...Or lurking her IG...Keep your pain to yourself or those who can give you advice with a level head please?

5. Sending some, “I'm wounded sob story, invoke a argument.” text or email message: 
When you’ve been broken up with, You pretty much want to make a "Last Stand." saying something that'll either make them hurt like you are, or damaged them as well as yourself.

There is really no need for all of that, trust me. I've contemplated doing to my most recent Ex, even though I've been on both sides of that fence. So yeaaa....No buzz killington deal, Just yuck it up. And move along...You'll thank yourself later.

6. Downing your ex to all friends: 
This one is pretty self explanatory. Just because your ex has fan-dangled you, and cut you loose. Just let die, Get me doe? Take some time to cool off, know it is not the end of the world. And take a hiatus for a bit. 

Now that I've managed to get that off of my chest, There will be another blog. It'll be a farewell blog...More info will be divulged soon so...Get me doe!

I'm bowing out...as graceful as possible.

So I've had a post in my to speak about my trip to Norfolk, Va. I had to hold off on it, because thre were many other issues that happened while I was gone.

Do not get me wrong, I had some of the best fun in my life going out to Norfolk. Met some new great faces, with great personalities behind them. It furthers my belief that leaving Detroit the first chance I get, once everything is tied up. Would be one of the best decisions of my life.

It really seems like a dream, but how do you go about chasing a dream that you felt you'd never achieve? How do you feel about losing a lot of things, while reaching for something new in life? When do you decide to walk away from it all? Hell, do you walk away by choice? Or by force? I mean, what if people around you turn their backs on you? What do you do when you make the choice not to voice your opinion? Will they believe anything you have to say? Will they listen to you now? When they barely listened to you before?

At this point, I could possibly sit here and write such a blog as far as why I'm bowing out. For lack there of inspiration, I'll just say its too much to shoulder. I've taken a few big losses while out in va, also taken a win or two. Not as meaningful when you were in the prime of something you felt could keep you in your own home state, but something utterly compelling that makes you, are a harsh decision to leave. I've finally felt in my gut there is nothing left in my own city to keep me here on a journey to greatness, once you've seen people leave you. Lose faith in you, or exile you without reason or care. That lets you know, it's not what it was painted out to be. I've taken me leaving as something that needed to happen to push others, and not throw malicious jabs at them. Just leave cold turkey for options,.. Which was wrong. Yes. But needed? Very much so. Hopefully before I committed to my decision, I'll be able to leave one last blog. A open letter to those so they'll know why I left. And chose not to continue on with them.

Care to read? Read with dare. I dare you. Infact, I care for you to care about me. Just be careful with what you read...Also read with open ears & heart.

I know it is always something that makes me return to this blog, even if I dont have a reason to. I just would like to keep this avenue somewhat open for me to express what bothers me. Though times have changed me and made me very self contained from my own blog, Yes the same blog that I ran to to chronicle what bothered me. I've treated this blog as a shoulder to cry on, something to uplift myself from a self induced slump. Fuck...on occasion even give myself a e-dap on some sort of silent conquest.


That was random.

But to business shall we?

So my girlfriend decided to stay with me, for what reason? Hell if I know, I assume she loves. Again like in previous relationships, a lot of the things I do manage to convey gets a little misinterpreted. For I do not get pissed when I hear her mention "I told you so.", I only get pissed when I constantly hear it with little to no reassurance that everything will be ok or get better. I tried to convey this, also its said that all I do is complain. Which could be true, but when you feel as if your life is falling apart and your spiraling uncontrollably into the ground. How else are you to feel? even when you used keep your calm?

Then I made a decision to not open my mouth again, Atleast for now. I know that it is very detrimental to our relationship, but what else am I to do? I'm out of ideas, Not that I ever really had one. I can atleast admit that, Then I'm winging it right now. Hoping that this little vacay to VA will be somewhat promising and I can atleast come back more happier than I am, its not due to my girlfriend. More so to all the decisions I've made over the course of this year, Though I will say my girlfriend is one of the best things to have happened to me this year. Outside of making a few sneaker connects, but more so the friendship I've made with those Ive encountered.

Its not like I have not been mad at the world, just for the fact I've lost control. No longer feel as if I have a handle on things, well..atleast things I can control. I've made a slew of fucked up decisions, but who doesnt right? anywho, I've became at point of standstill that I choose not to say anything. Which I stated earlier, my communication has not really shutdown. I just choose to shut the hell up for our sake, since I feel everything I said was portrayed as me complaining. So I reverted back to my 2nd best way of communication, personally my best way of communication. My words through my blog, since I am pretty sure this will be taken out of context (Though it should not.) I just want to state I'm still in love with you, as if it was day 1. I just wonder if you feel the same way...since its gradually changing. atleast in my eyes....

Major Worries....

I know again, It has been such a long time since i've been consistent with this blog. I am pretty sure everyone has probably forgotten about it. Its cool I had been stretching myself between here, TheSingleTrio, along with my NSFW tumblr...So It became less and less that I blogged. I have been in a relationship since April 22nd (Check on that..) its been quite refreshing, but like all things it has its ups and downs...I can deal. I am a very patient person...I just do not know how to deal when the word "COMMUNICATION" breaks down, or that pipeline is backed up. I'm probably only doing this because I'm sick from the weather change, not too mention I'm probably irritated at the fact I had gotten hung up on twice back to back. So by time this is posted, I'll probably been gotten over it. let alone just said fuck it...My words and actions mean nothing...life has been just that life. I could sit here and go on and on...but it'd b e a rare glimpse of how I used to open up on this blog....Which I'm not ready for yet. again that is another time and place to elaborate on, just know that I'm growing tired....of alot of things. From typing...to feeling...to dealing..I feel like I'll be gone soon enough...And will have to start completely fresh...Maybe that's what I need....Maybe....

Finally...

The Sincere HAS COME BACK.....To his blog... I been around, a lot has changed. I mean I am in a relationship now (as you see me and my old lady in the picture above.). Which is cool, on a grander scale I did not forget about my blog at all. I just happened to had lost touch with everything, Boy do I have stories to tell. I just wanted to share this minor update, I'm still part of TheSingleTrio. Just have not posted anything, I have a bigger more in depth blog on the way for that. Outside of that I've been doing my Sneaker thang...YES! You'll learn more in Due time aight? laters...Blog I missed you..I thought I had out grown you.