Reminder

"keep me for yourself as long as you can, before they all find out about me... before you start to lose your love for me..taste my thoughts... deep into my mind... love my pain.. i'm here to entertain you all.." - Rosado Populair (Me)

Its been a minute since I've blogged, Nothing really has changed much. Besides I did get a lil plug to follow up at Bed Bath & Beyond, They deadass have this pop art of all of their album covers I'd love to have. I been lost in my own thoughts of my singleness lately, and utter disappointment. Why? I dont know, I do know...More so feel nothing is "Unconditional" so I'm slowly giving up on that dream. I also had already thrown the towel in long ago, especially after getting my hopes up about those Robert Greene books. Mind you its alil bitchy to nag about it, but I'm not perfect so I'll take that moment proudly. I mean outside of all the things I have received (Still receiving also), I got uber hyped about those books. Because not only did I speak of it to "that woman", I brought it up to everyone. and given everyone thought the books were madd expensive when they werent, Lol side gesture: Its been pointed out to me I am quite the expensive guy when it comes to certain things in my world. Rather its kicks (Of course, like duh!) Venturing out to eat...(I never really noticed I had mid expensive taste. I am not a high-end "Foodie"). Then everything else I dabble with, from the the trip to guitar center.

Outside of that, after being in the same Cemetery where we let Mary go home has slightly worn off of me. Though I expected that to be the next thing that "Woman" was going to spew out of her twitter mouth. Havent since checked it since she sent me that "Heartfelt" message, other than that. Have not spoke to her, in my eyes honestly for what? I cant pull myself to conversation with her, Nor will I try. I want to but then again I'll be damn if I speak with her about things that haunt or bother me on a daily. For that level has been fairly destroyed and betrayed. given I rarely ever admit to a woman betraying my trust or confiding level in her, but I guess that shows I am human and getting older. Outside of that my ladies Fe & Ash had a great damn anniversary despite a bumpy start, and probably ended with a beautiful dinner. I wish I was there to had taken pictures, and I am glad they acknowledged me for helping coordinate their outfits and have a hand in selecting gifts, Lol Ash said the other day cant wait til I get a GF. So she could help and see my hopeless romantic side, reluctantly I said without hesitation or thinking in a 2nd nature fashion "Yeah, fucking right! I'll be damned. I am petrified to fall in love again, let alone try to get fresh (close) with a new woman again. After this last situation played out." We talked a lil further in to that. But breakfast is ready and I wanted to anti up a blog that I had plans on finishing so deadass though...Everyone needs a reminder...

"have a history of making decisions very quickly about women. I have always fallen in love fast and without measuring risks. I have a tendency not only to see the best in everyone, but to assume that everyone is emotionally capable of reaching her highest potential." - Rosado Populair

"I have fallen in love more times than I care to count with the highest potential of a women, rather than with the woman herself, and I have hung on to the relationship for a long time (sometimes far too long) waiting for the woman to ascend to her own greatness. Many times in romance I have been a victim of my own optimism" - Rosado Populair...


Just leaving you with Reminding thoughts that'll linger for you.

After the emo post.

So in lue of the emo post I had to get rid of, I dont feel a tad bit better. Its alot on my mind at the moment, Its beginning to bring out the distant feeling. Where I feel I should just go back to distancing myself like I did a few months back, Why? I mean its things I would love to go into detail about. I just dont want to, more so do not feel comfortable doing so. Well atleast at the moment, once the distant feeling comes about. I feel as my defense mechanism comes full bloom, so I'd personally would rather just stay closed mouth about... atleast for now. Before some yuck mouth comes along claiming I'm playig some sort of "victim", or what not.

Honestly how.....Never mind I wont even post that question. That'll be a waste of time, anywhom I had alot of fun down here for the majority of my birthday month. We brought my 24th in right! I mean it probably would not have gotten any better, but I hey! Fuck you dont judge me, I'm glad for what I had. Along with the time well spent, with everything else between. So for the moment I'd like to take this time out to thank those who did get me something for my birthday.

Mommy- Thanks foor everything since I've been down here. I didnt expect you to brin me anything back from Vegas, I was just down here because I had simply missed you all. Also the fact I didnt spend enough time down here to me going to MSU with to see that other chick...As always you came through with surprises thank you I love you.

Ty & E - What more could I ask for besides having hung out with yall, I'm always content just being in the presence of my bro's let alone us going out to do something. So not only thank you for the memories, but the gifts and the club nights deadass though. Its always nothing but love on the up & up.

Fe & Ash - The 2 of yall...What can I say, I said when Ash asked me what did I want for my birthday I had. which was a close knit family, So I didnt expect you nor Ash to have did the things you 2 have done for me being down here with the both of you. From the gifts, to the both of you coming out to the club with E and everyone else. To the both of you taking me to dinner. This birthday is by far the most memorable, and I'm glad I made sure I had came back to kick it. For I didnt get enough time to kick with everyone while I had plans on going up to MSU...So again thank you. I had fun rocking with ya'll for doing everything leading up to you both anniversary, I hope it goes fine and make it another year for me ok?

Well finally this last person...has no name but a "?".

"?" - you were worth something to me at one point and time, but yet swore I was doing much more than you possibly thought when I was nothing but who I said was from day one. I would've enjoyed the gifts of those books from you, but since things took a turn for the worse only thing I can say or do is say "Fuck it" I'll just wait alil longer until I obtain them myself. Outside of that you have really proven that opening up to women is not the best thing to do at this time. Even when you are getting personally attached to someone, you shouldnt be talking about personal things someone divulged to you. It is like myself speaking up things of your past that haunts you, in which case I've stayed true to not engaging. Though the things that were said & seen, made me want to lash out angrily and do bodily harm. Which is far from who I am, I just wanted to vent partially as far as that. As far as anything else go that could be said VIA phone or private message will not be said.

Everything was on schedule

Soooo in the midst of kicking back and having the ending of the best birthday ever!! Its always something negative looming to happen, for sake of hearing someone bitch about me "running to my blog" as always. I'll keep it short and less detailed as possible, Now I'll say 3-4months ago I encountered something I felt could blossom. Even though my record with "Eastsiders" is greatly declining rapidly...

I wanna take a second to remember the taste of that firehouse burger I had at Champps last night. It was damned deeeelisssshhhhh.

Anyway, it was fun & blooming despite the fact the woman constantly thought it was more to me and "Booty Diva's" friendship. In which case since I had a emo-breakdown a few weeks back, I really havent heard from her nor chose to call her. For reasons to be named in another blog someday. To keep moving, I did something I rarely ever do. I havent really said too much to anyone about the chick. I assume that is where I probably eff'd up at, but that is always up for debate. Moving along, I kept true to everything I've said to this person. (So I think I did) If I didnt I'm pretty sure she wouldnt tell me to begin with, Like most women. With the fact of my theory goes as proven even with this forthcoming loss, That nothing with me ever makes it to the coveted "6month" milestone. Even when I show I attach with unconditional feelings or even emotions if you would like to go that far...

Also the one thing that always seems to burn my balls is that, Of all people they all get mad over my blog. Even when I am reflecting on memories, knowing that everyone reflect on memories. Even when I was suspected to be worried about the "past" I still managed to show I was not concerned about it in the least bit, Just reflecting on memories that were. Which is a fucking problem in her eyes...but in the end my theory goes as proven...Pointless no 6month milestone...Oh well gonna Od to these beats and get my shit together. Gonna be heading back to half ass pontiac soon

Yo Weekend Cap

So I've had one of the most memorable birthday's, The entire lead up to it and this closing weekend was one of the best. Despite the ignorance of a young lady, but other than that it was damned great. Mommy & Fe brought me back some stuff from "Sin City", Then Fe & Ash took me out to dinner at Bdubs it was mad fun. Then E came through, copped me some gifts. Ended up going out to Club Necto in Ann Arbor, MI for my bday to shake dick and get drunk. Mind you I havent been drunk since July 10', So it was good times.

I attended my godsisters bday party, wished my godfather a happy birthday today. Now I'm ending my bday weekend with my manz Chicky wing next to me as I type this, I couldnt ask for a better scripted ending to a perfect birthday. Happy 24th to me, oh yeah and The dude Quest got that ankle brace for me. Along with more drinks at the club from last night....Club life is one of the reasons I love life. Oh yea, I didnt get the great literature I wanted from Robert Greene. Its a work in progress...

Law 2 Never put too much trust in friends; learn how to use enemies.

Oh Back memories.

^The image above I seen on some random shit, fucking reminded me of someone. tsk tsk tsk. I love the picture but hate the memory that came with it...Bitch haunts me enough.^

Simply put, What is the one position where a man positions himself behind that woman and dives his penis into the woman’s inviting pussy behind? In this position (doggy style), she is usually bent over something or on her fours.

My ex(s) was particularly damned good for this. One in particular had a soft rounded butt, the type that moves gently in jeans when she struts. Like soft cottoned jelly...I know it makes me sound off, sue me. From the day I took off her clothes for the first time, in my room at my great aunts there was no other position. As I type, I vividly remember that evening many years ago. I dont even remember what we did before she came over and we were upstairs chilling, I do remember we was watching "Illegal Tender" then how we ended up fucking is still a blur.

In one swift move she was kissing my earlobe and her hand wandered to my penis. As I felt on her erect nipples and wet mound, she let me turn her back to me and I proceeded to remove her jeans & panties all in one motion. Parted thighs urging me to put my dick in. I slid into her as she steadied her hands, one on the wall and the other on the my mattress. The pure sight of me thrusting into her at the same time was highly priceless. The power and along with control I felt cant be put in words.

I really thought this was the ultimate experience, til' I fucked my next girlfriend (now my ex, Like the other *eye roll*). (Excuse my french) Bitch had a ass designed by Picasso himself, I knew of her in her "atheist" student days at Mackenzie. Planning to roast the bitch til the cows came home, silently lil did I know years later I'd end up hoping to give her dick at one point. One thing led to another, relationship failed. Then great aunt passed...She came along, I fell for her. She fell for me. It being very memorable like the relationship before her (Reasons as to why are somewhere in this blog), we spent alot of time that summer together and I do mean ALOT. She wore nothing but thongs and fucking lace panties (omg, Dick getting hard just thinking about it), first time she came to my home tipsy from doing a bottle of Vodka (I think) and getting her weed on with her BFF (Wattup Quiggly!).

Bitch gave me the okie doke, got in..I turned the ac on for her (Bitches love AC). Tried to be the gentleman and watch tv keep up small talk, yet she said she was tired so we retired to my room. Funny thing, I didnt expect her to totally undress like she did to her skiffys like she did, little did I know the bitch slept nude like she came into the world. As we laid in my bed held her with her back to me and laying there her body said two words: “fuck me.” I was like a beast released. I banged her hard and fast, fucked her without respect. All I heard was the noise she made. We grunted and moaned til' we were spent. She put both hands on the floor and raised her butt while we were fuckin' in the bathroom (Which I thoroughly enjoyed) I rushed in and out like it was the finale of my life story. As I recall this now, my dick still stands, a sign this blog must be conclude quickly.

I’ll close with my third memorable fuck memory, I obliged. She bent holding the edge of the bed, I put my dick in her. Hearing that gasp made me feel like a man. Then I was only 18, she started moving against me. Back and forth, up and down left & right. For once I didn’t have to move at all, she fucked me dumb (like 2 ex's after her admittedly). Then I took over, Pulling her hips harshly so she could feel all of me, slapping her ass til it echoed loudly in my mother's living room, ramming her til she started for more.

In all of this, we fucked until her friend who brought her over returned with Chris, and we had to finish the art we were creating called "us as one". We were at it for another hour until them fuck jerks pulled up.

And with that, my mind drifts to those special women and the amazing back shots they let privi to me. And I know I can never put pen to paper again. Someone’s ass will damn sure pay for this article sooner or later. Let’s hope she gets turned on enough after reading this...I miss you ma. (Hopefully she'll know I was talking to her)