After the emo post.

So in lue of the emo post I had to get rid of, I dont feel a tad bit better. Its alot on my mind at the moment, Its beginning to bring out the distant feeling. Where I feel I should just go back to distancing myself like I did a few months back, Why? I mean its things I would love to go into detail about. I just dont want to, more so do not feel comfortable doing so. Well atleast at the moment, once the distant feeling comes about. I feel as my defense mechanism comes full bloom, so I'd personally would rather just stay closed mouth about... atleast for now. Before some yuck mouth comes along claiming I'm playig some sort of "victim", or what not.

Honestly how.....Never mind I wont even post that question. That'll be a waste of time, anywhom I had alot of fun down here for the majority of my birthday month. We brought my 24th in right! I mean it probably would not have gotten any better, but I hey! Fuck you dont judge me, I'm glad for what I had. Along with the time well spent, with everything else between. So for the moment I'd like to take this time out to thank those who did get me something for my birthday.

Mommy- Thanks foor everything since I've been down here. I didnt expect you to brin me anything back from Vegas, I was just down here because I had simply missed you all. Also the fact I didnt spend enough time down here to me going to MSU with to see that other chick...As always you came through with surprises thank you I love you.

Ty & E - What more could I ask for besides having hung out with yall, I'm always content just being in the presence of my bro's let alone us going out to do something. So not only thank you for the memories, but the gifts and the club nights deadass though. Its always nothing but love on the up & up.

Fe & Ash - The 2 of yall...What can I say, I said when Ash asked me what did I want for my birthday I had. which was a close knit family, So I didnt expect you nor Ash to have did the things you 2 have done for me being down here with the both of you. From the gifts, to the both of you coming out to the club with E and everyone else. To the both of you taking me to dinner. This birthday is by far the most memorable, and I'm glad I made sure I had came back to kick it. For I didnt get enough time to kick with everyone while I had plans on going up to MSU...So again thank you. I had fun rocking with ya'll for doing everything leading up to you both anniversary, I hope it goes fine and make it another year for me ok?

Well finally this last person...has no name but a "?".

"?" - you were worth something to me at one point and time, but yet swore I was doing much more than you possibly thought when I was nothing but who I said was from day one. I would've enjoyed the gifts of those books from you, but since things took a turn for the worse only thing I can say or do is say "Fuck it" I'll just wait alil longer until I obtain them myself. Outside of that you have really proven that opening up to women is not the best thing to do at this time. Even when you are getting personally attached to someone, you shouldnt be talking about personal things someone divulged to you. It is like myself speaking up things of your past that haunts you, in which case I've stayed true to not engaging. Though the things that were said & seen, made me want to lash out angrily and do bodily harm. Which is far from who I am, I just wanted to vent partially as far as that. As far as anything else go that could be said VIA phone or private message will not be said.