Boy Who Cried Wolf

"Why are you so quiet?"

"Your never this quiet, Is something bothering you?"

Those have been 2 of the most consistent questions I have been getting as of lately, Why? I wish I knew. Then again I know, I'd be lying if I said I have nothing to talk about. Then I'd be lying if I said there was nothing bothering me, In which case and point it has been. I've just been hesitant to mention it to anyone, because I really dont know if it is the fact of me feeling like its bothering me. Or it is something really fucking with me, I just do not want to make notice of it and it be received as "He's bitching" Or "He is just in need of attention". Ol' Steroid in the face twat biting ma'fuckaz, other than that I've been digitally quiet for the fact of its the summer time firstly. Secondly, I been having a lot to talk about just did not really feel the need to air it out digitally. Especially If I'm not going to express it to someone close to me, I could but like I said a little further back I'll pass on the fact of someone claiming I'm doing this for attention. Other than that, I've been diggin' deep within oneself about school. I'd really enjoy to be there this fall, Lol now the where part I'm keeping to myself. I'll just slowly throw one option out there its Oakland U, now the rest you'd have to question me about in person. Other than that I've been off to the typical fuckery, Hangin with Ruby & Kandis' Gang of misfits. I Will say this about this summer that is in progress, I've been to more damn Detroit clubs than comfort could catch. I see and constantly reminded of why I didnt do detroit clubs, Only way you get me in there is if you throwing me a corona or 3. lmao, Outside of that there is nothing much to report, OH YEAH!!! My damn iPod died on me finally, so now I must be in search of the 160gb so I can throw all of my galaxy ships on it. Also I have to buy another external harddrive to put all of my music back on to one hard drive, I got shit scattered a little of every where. While on the topic of music, I really have been diggin' alot of Curren$y's Music. I slept on him due to the bullshit he was wangin out with Wayne, but I will say this. I'm glad he is no longer with CM/YM, anyway moving along.

As far as my music goes, I've been listening to it again consistently. Really not going back in to no studio no time soon though, I'll gladly pass on that one. It would be one of those Iso moments I had throughout my teen years If approached to/or feel the need to go back to music. I do feel some sort of way about going back to it, let alone doing it. I've left it exactly where it has always been, and that's at my side. So with the formidable thoughts I possess and seek, I just will not go the road. Maybe, your reading this knowing or thinking "Here he goes again speaking out the side of his ass". Maybe I am, Maybe I'm not. Given you or the other have not been in my life as of lately I feel no need to care for you, Yet I still do. So if your reading this Z. Just know regardless of the kid and so on, I Still got it for you. as for the other one, I still have it for you kinda. Though I cant keep up with the jones and probably no further along. <~ That last part was a subliminal,but any whom. I'll try to hit you with another blog asap. Gotta put a halt on it for the time being. Tears flowing uncontrollably..Damn tohse voices....Not whacked out if you listen to my fav mixtape/album you'd know...

Let Me Live

The more I sit back and get lost in the magical waves of musics that never do me wrong, I remain intact with that tad bit of sanity I cling to. Not to say that I am whacked out or anything, but deadass though I've been hoping to get everything to fall back further into place. I know it has been a lil minute since You all have gotten a post from me, but bare with me all. Sincere hasnt fully ended up in a elephants nose just yet, for the slow people I havent ended up in a trunk just yet. So until the next post Just listen to the voices...I think either its me or you losing our mind.

Brighter Days

Ok so um er yeah, I've been m.i.a again. I've been doing alot and moving too much, but still remain standing completely still. I've been hanging out with Ruby & Kandis as of lately, much of a ball. Outside of that enjoying the few past rainy days, I swear I like wanted to mount someone's daughter due to the rain. Another blog for another day, I have not much to say at this given blog. I found it refreshing to hear from my Ex's Bff on FB, good to know someone misses me outside of my crew and fam...Include Few associates. I hate FB sometimes lol, well all the time. I did update my status once since 12-12-09, and as quick as I made it I deleted it. The other reason I hate FB is cuz of the activity on the news feed, I happen to log on one day while I had happen to been thinking of one of 3 recent Ex's. Mind you 3 of these 3 are not on my friendslist but her bff still is, So I seen the Technofest pics. Like I never really shed many tears for any female in my life as far as Gf's went, but deadass we know given the recent one I have. Am I'm not speaking of April 9th's Mishap either, but yeah So lets clear the air on that. More so for myself, I mean yeah that was the first time having sight of her since the very last time I saw her. Then the very last time I peeped her blog, was the last time I kinda wanted to read anything about her life. *Pause* I mean yea it gets very emo, no one cares but I'm stating or writing this to exorcise these demons off of my chest so I'd be able to keep it pushing. So with that said please no one who reads my blog do not judge the things or the impression given from this blog....Just the right thoughts and the very wrong time. deadass though....Laterz until the next blog....

The Cookout

I got the grill (iTunes) ready, got the meat (beats or music of choice) on the grill. Flames on high (Headphones on bang) I'm missing one thing though, Where the fuck are my guests I invited? Whoops Mah bad I did this str8 word of mouth, so one more L is in order to get where I want. I dont mind it, recap the day. I didnt really do too much of anything besides Tweet alil, um Think of an ex or 2. Why!? Dont ask who or why. Like really I do not know why, Then again I do but moving on. I wanted to go to the pool but I decided against it cuz it ended up raining, Ran across the lot to fuck with this chick. Not really much of a conversation. Just a wrestling match, No sex included. Lmao Thats good thing sex alters the playing field, An I am not one for the "Boy toy" role. Fuck I Look like a Ken doll or something slime!?

Anyway, still od'n on the music downloads. I still need a bigger external hardrive slime, right along with a bigger iPod. I got alot of shit I would love to listen to on my own accord, Without having to bother someone else with my blaring tunes one may not listen to. Well thats it for now the next slab of music is still marinating and Its time to throw it on...Laters...Looking for Brighter Days

Sat(t)elite

Deadass though, I'm still listening to those 9th wonder beats. Them shits in particular total 5hours of eargasm dun, Today was fun in the pool like I said it was not one of those days. Where I felt like ranting about the thoughts that haunt me at every which corner, but one of those days where I felt chill. Until someone left a particular comment on my blog, about "taking care of me" and me being a "LIAR" as a fellow reader..well hopefully possible ex-reader said. Like I'll say this, If you want the any of the things back you possibly did for me. We can make arrangments quickly to settle that if you want it back, secondly if you want that shirt you bought me back. I'll most definitely give it back to you, hell I just washed it and havent worn it yet. thirdly I do not see how you really took "Care" of me supposedly, but hey we all have our different views. This also goes to shoe you should not invest time in anyone you believe that will be around longer than expected, because in due time they'll stop being bothered with you. Even after they delivered all that "I enjoy you" or "I enjoy your company" blib blab, Then turn around just to stop fucking with you because of this person believing you have ulterior motives. Or Assuming your fucking with some other woman, and or calling you liar's so on and so forth. Lets not begin on the things you tell them rather it is things that bother you or shit you would like to get off your chest, not caring if the person understands or listen. Yet it is considered "Drama filled bullshit", Not once did i ever not pay you attention I listened to everything that was divulged to me. Not once did I like blow you off during any of the times your fam made you upset, but its deadass cool though. To answer your statement/question: No I dont lose sleep over you, just the friendship you've chose to throw away for whatever reason. In regards to whatever you swore I lied about less likely I didnt lie. An if I did you should've asked me about it, if not oh well to hell with it. I try and unlike yourself I never close the door on friendships, Whatever however whenever you feel like attempting to reach out to me. I'll be where the sky be flying by, holding a cookout. deadass though...


Nashelle Owens es una cogida negra ignorante...Oh Yea, y su estúpido muy de mierda
Its not hard to speak spanish but I would rather you get it translated

Live Life To The Fullest

I really wish i could, have my own studio or a studio I could patch in to with no issues. Just chill an do what I've been doing for the last hour or 2 just listening to beats and samples thinking to myself...always a powerful feeling.

Like deadass, I'm chilling. I had a great day at the pool, Short day though. Last night was fun, I hit Kandis bbq had fun over there with her and Ruby. I met the Darand character, He cool peoples ultra quiet though. I seen Kandis Boyfriend again, he madd height challenged. An he look like Just Blaze LMAO!! But str8 up though, I am chilling this wont be too much of a long blog. I would've came with the sad drawn out thoughts that vividly haunts me, but hanging wit Kandi bop and Ruby and her peoples actually put me at ease in a way. Great feeling, and to the Turner-Owens Person...I do not appreciate how you have time to comment on a nigga blog, but dont fuck with me outside of that like I did something to you. When it was far fetched that you went off to distant yourself from me for whatevr reason, I had more I could speak on as far as that go but he do what the title of the blog says....deadass though I'll be riding the satellite