The Odd Nigga Out

The odd nigga out, I mean today was a pretty…well not so pretty day for me. Not only will this blog be posted probably some days after this date which it was written, It is 10/29/09 by the way I’ll probably look back on this blog as one of the most monumental days where it was I felt like the bottom of the bottom. Could it be the fact I have yet to start my job? Maybe it could be the question’s my love asked me still remain in the back of my head, which makes me feel even less of a person or probably a great boyfriend or love. Whichever you prefer to label it, Then my grandmother constantly bitchin’ and or making me feel more of the reason I am between the bickering that goes one between the woman who birthed me and the woman who birthed her. It does not make it any better that I caught wind that my little brother witnessed a person get completely ran over by a truck, that kinda pissed me off to know that but also put me at ease that nothing negative happen to the nigga. I’m slowly beginning to wish all of these emotions will like sub-side before I slip into some sort of depression (Again!), like I love how everything is going minus a few bumps and scrapes nah mean? Outside of that, there is nothing really plaguing me besides the main event of my day that kind of really like destroyed my feelings, I haven’t seen mommy in a grip which meant I felt overdue for a visit and it just so happened Ty. Had impeccable timing I got to kick it with him for a bit, see my manz Chick Wigity TuFli but mommy caught a attitude with me as if I did something wrong. Which was not complete the task she asked of me, nonetheless Ty did do it and it may not have been, but that is the “Trial & Error” aspect of giving someone a shot at something you believed them not capable of them doing. Outside of that I still feel some hostility between me and Brittany which I could care less about at this point, I would love for it to be nonexistent but oh well that is just part of the territory.
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I am like having the wildest craving for some junk food or some wing dings, I cannot wait until I begin getting money as I work so I can like handle the things I want to as a male or as a man some would say. I still believe “Good Things Come To Those Who Wait” even though I believe I’ve ran out of patience, I still hope everything falls into place or something picks my mood up even though Ajene will be attempting to take my “Box” after I get done with this blog. Other than that I miss my nigga Tuna P (Boogie) atleast when she was here before she left I knew I could call the nigga and talk to her unlike the other person who I call my “Lil Sista”, That’s all I want to go in on as far as that goes. That’s another blog for another day, I just want everything back to how it was before people left and money, Ego’s, and car’s, courts and shit got involved. I guess I am just wishing for the impossible when I say that not only due to to the things and the decisions that were made, but then again everything happens for reason or Treason? <~~ just something for you to ponder on while reading this blog, I had the feeling after Ty went on to class I just wanted to be alone with my sweetie. Like deadass though, I enjoy all of my brothers company and know it’s well needed but everyone is off doing their own thing which is always a plus but it has been a minute before we were all in the same place at the same time. I assume I miss that and wish for it to happen again but do not know where to start or have it happen, I would love for all of us and our love ladies in our life to go out but Chris would not bring Jenniva. Ty would bring probably bring Britt or someone else , Egan would find a way to wiggle out of it unshaved so he would not have to be badgered about who he would have had to bring…or he would come alone. I would be content with it being myself, Ty, Ajene, Chicky Wing, and maybe Britt if she ever comes off of that high fucking horse of hers. Until then I’m dreaming on the lost and not bound to happen. Well that completes this blog my lady went and hit the shower, I assume because of my mood but its nothing against her it never is. She’ll be banging my box soon enough so everything will be ok hopefully….Night yall…