So yes, I managed to get my hair braided finally like I set out to do. I deadass got the 2 fishbone braids I've been hoping to get, only downside is I dont have a line up and I have to eventually get my split ends clipped. I'm scared to like clip my ends on some honest shit, the more I contemplate it the more I just might have to do it nah mean? other than that my day has been lagging since I had to rush from Jessica's spot (the chich whom braids my hair) to my grandmother's home. To sit with my lil cousin while grandma and my aunt head to the ER, I hope everything is everything with my grandmother. I may not like the woman most times but I honestly cannot deal with 2 funerals within the same year, but let me not go in on that topic I'll move to something else. Ummm tomorrow is suppose to be the day I get the call to start work (Hopefully) and be on and rising, doing something positive and continuing to become something someone swore I'd never be. I kept telling people not to sleep on me, But hey you cant make those believe who do not want to believe nah mean?
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Ummm outside of that I was thinking about my gf, in reference to the lil situation that pissed her off. Yet again I really do not intend to piss no one off, and hope that it never happens again. Every time something pops off it simply reminds me of a similar situation I had dealt with, I mean its totally different yet I just do not want to do or touch anything to make this relationship falter. There is nothing worse than making a relationship falter, its the 2nd worst feeling to hearing a supposed love of your life is not pregnant (Someone will try to shit on me about that). I'm just trying to clear my head since I am sitting here lost in thought of alil of everything from work, To this Fli Life (Relationship and all) will not come to an end. I swear I keep telling myself I do not understand what it is about me that can be extremely willing to risk all no matter the cause just to see a relationship I personally enjoy see another day, and now since I've been with Ajene I feel like I am more than obliged to protect her @ any given cost. Just like I told myself with that last person I was with, I just want to see and enjoy her smile and keep her happy.
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I call myself doing that in the previous relationship, but I know given alot of shit that did not go right or be told lead to different reasons of that downfall. Especially the fact there was lil to no faith in me, even to see me succeed. I'ma stop while I'm ahead before I put myself back into a mental state of hurt or slight depression knowing I had pissed my love off, I do not know where I got that from but its best I stop while I'm ahead. So moving on, I swear I wish i could be heading back to the apt. I just wanna lay in peace and enjoy her company, I dont mean to sound cakey but hey. I do enjoy when she lays her head on my back. or falls asleep laying her head on my back, or just cuddling with her in the bed not having to worry about being told "move the fuck over" or anything else of that nature.I enjoy the fact we can just lay up and converse about any and everything, right along with the fact I enjoy her music as much as she enjoys mine. Without worry of having to be snapped on, I mean it may sound like I'm bashin someone or throwing them under the bus when I'm not. Just simply making note and known of what I really do enjoy of this woman, I dead ass enjoy her beauty to a point it cannot even be put into words...
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I feel out of it today, which was pretty much the point of this blog but so happened to turn into something else. Hey but then again creation today, I was left out of it. Damn...left out of it....Anywhom I'm off to browse the web until its time to get ghost so...laters...
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