Just Self Kept Time In My Mind

Umm am I a fuck up? Or just someone who does things that one may not be pleased with? That is just one of the many questions I ask myself day in and day out, I never come up with the right or wrong answer so I ask again why I should be thinking about that in the first place. Any whom today was a ok day me and the love went to CVS to grab a few household products, I did not want to blog this out but given the text message that had yet to be answered caused that series of questions/daily thoughts ya know? Then after we hit up CVS my mother finally showed her face to help me go grab a few more things to toss into the fridge, she bitched as always but I assume it was because of her pulled muscle in her arm or whatever is wrong with her left wing (arm). Outside of that I did get a chance to see my youngest cousin Courtney, she had gotten her tonsils removed this past Tuesday she seems like she is handling the healing process well. Even though I found out they cut out the whole”ice-cream” thing after the process, Um I seen my aunt Cora and had great mini-conversation along with that. Other than that I found a cool look Dean Koontz book to read called “Velocity” it is cool thus far, Outside of that I’ve been kinda self kept. Where the fuck is Ty Tufli @? On days like this we usually have us a great in depth conversation; then again he did call me earlier while I was sleep so that could be the missed opportunity. Damn it! Lol deadass though that opportunity will present itself again b4 the night is over with. I Hope…
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Other than that I’ve been pondering work Monday, also kind of hurt my kicks had to be returned. Due to the wrong size but hey it’s cool though, I’ll see them again sooner than I think. I’ve been pondering other things I’ve yet made clear to my love, which are typical things… If I’ll succeed at work, or will I even start you know? Just typical jitter bugs I assume so when you read this don’t press spacebar and flip on me. I love you though like deadass tuff, Other than that she did answer my text message back in the process of me typing this blog. Just to clear that up and get that out the way, I got a chance to briefly get @ boogie earlier lol my nigga Tuna P (Tunapuna) but had to hit her back later since at that time I was out with my mother and moving things. So if and when you see this Tuna P (Boogie) I didn’t forget about you on purpose kiddo, I was busy no pun intended love. Umm I did receive a few other calls the were out of the ordinary, well at least for me…The first came from Charmaine, which is one of my bro’s Gf. Who hit me up out the random, now mind you I do not really talk to her like that. Given we have been having more serious caliber conversations from time to time, about her and his relationship. I try to answer whatever questions she may have to the best of my ability, but I do not have certain answers for her given most people would take that as it being a cover-up for my bro’s. In most cases it is far from it but not a lot of the females we deal with or are connected with understand that in the least bit, they just paint me off as the dude that just “ride or die” and would lie for my brothers at any given chance. Which is true but that is another blog for another day nah mean?
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I’m planning on just slowly falling off the scene now Me and Ty tufli have jobs now, It does not take much to appease me or keep me happy as hell. I’m beyond that when I’m with my Gf and knowing I have a roof over my dome and a bed to sleep in, when I honestly foreseen me being on the street (again) back in the dark emo shit I used to dwell in. I’m not about to go in on that, Lol it sparked a dying moment and I’m trying to keep it high spirited for great reason. Even though it may seem I am blabbering again, if I am…OH FUCKIN WELL!! You shouldn’t have come to this blog anyway, go download some shit or play cyber sex games. Sweetie’s day is still on the prowl and coming closer, what am I to do? It was posed we have a complete sex fest. Which I’m down for but I know she’ll drain me and probably end up pregnant (LMAO!!), Ty gets what I’m saying with that said. Um besides that I am trying to figure out what form of entertainment I could possibly have or get until I get a gaming system in my life again since I passed off the 360 to Ty, I’m beyond bored and hate it I don’t even have no cable to watch and that would be like the last resort thing to do. All I have until I begin working is CH, this netbook with limited internet (I need not to run up any bills I do not pay). I had more than enough trouble with that even when I was not the one running up the bills, so that is why I only rely on a gaming system. Even then if it is not mines I’ll less likely pick it up. Since people have a nature to make a bold statement claiming it’s theirs as if they are a dog pissing on a tree dig me? So with that said I really try to stay off of this netbook since it is not mine, with no pun being shot at its owner I just had my run with people who are beyond tight about their electronics. <~~~with that last line someone is bound to IM me about that, just like earlier which that nigga never answered my question about why she feels I am raging war on her life. <~~~yet again this will be another topic of discussion with that said, Am I not full of attention seeking lines? This is why I shall end thie blog some time soon.
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For the record again my blogs are pre-typed since the internet is to be used in increments, and I would hate to have my gf trying to thrash me so I do type these on Microsoft word b4 hand. I post them and log right the fuck back off, once I am financially sound enough to cop my own laptop and/or internet connection to roll with it then we’d be back up and running so until then. Love me, love Mexican food and anime…Laterz… KeepIt Harlem