The More I sit and think more and more about the last time I blogged, I notice i've strayed completely away from it and being where I am is out the exact general area where my last blog in august went down. Outside of that I'm just throwing whomever reads this some minor updates on myself, I've became fully engaged and committed to a loving still growing relationship (Since November 22-23 which ever she picks). The relationship has been booming despite the things i've did and or have hidden, but i did do what was preached by keeping it completely honest with her even if it almost cost me my relationship. Yet you can not going on living in a lie, and with how i feel about her and my hearts and hers both in its entirety, I rather live in the dreaded reality of her knowing me for me and not the covers i had pulled over her eyes before.
I am still glad she decided to continue to invest time in me in turn it has and in a sense gave me a great security in my heart and if i honestly lost it or was taken away from it, I would most definitely be pissed, bitter, and everything under the Nebula's black hole. With The Possibility of her moving to GA for better school and Career choices....It honestly hurts me quite deeper than I and You (Whomever Reading This) may know, But i am willing to put my own heart on the back burner or in the blender for this woman to have and pursue whatever is she may like to do. Thats highly akward because ever since my last important female in my life did what she did to me I've felt things from this relationship that was in the previous heartbreak, but it seems like it can not and will not happen indeed anything is possible (Addidas Shout Out). None the less I love her more than my next breath and it might be the smell of bleach and cleaning materials in the aire i'm continuosly smelling while typing this, but hey atleast i know i got this blog out. I am highly glad @ how my crew took to Rachele yet she has yet to say more than a whole fucking 5 sentences to me today, indeed i been feeling highly affectionate towards the woman and lack thereof but it kinda has been reciprocated but then again it has not.
On another note my brothers and myself (Familia Royale B.K.A Fam Royale) We still tighter than ever, and i belive nothing will not tear that bond for shit. With us growing older and tighter together as a band of brothers i will forever cherish the times we've spent and our spats we had with one another, Britt (Howze) Is my lil sis til the death of me with her angry blackself...Jenniva Too even though i do not like her half the time. but family is to be hated and half liked...Everyone else who was not specifically included that doesnt mean i do not love you or cherish the times but these are some of the people...Well most of the people i deal with and or hear from on a daily basis kin. For Rachele "I Dont Know How To Spell Her Middle Name" Watson I love you dearly and again more than my next breath and for you anything in my heart and or outside of my own power u can have it..I'll try my damndest to keep you happy and content even for the things i cannot give you right now or lack there of but please know if it never matters or if we are to be no more this blog will not be deleted or cursed....Love ya ma...Sincere
Sincere + Soul Amazing = Souly Sincere Amazing... (Couldn't think of a better Answer) ~1~
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