Hey world, I'm back again...But this time i'm in need of a lil therapy after this morning i mean like really on a serious go in to s shrink type shit,since i'm not keen on telling anyone or asking anyone to help me i'll just utilize my blog as my therapist for the time being cuz i need someone to talk to and it damn sure wont be my god-parents, Nor my bro E...So Lets go in please to the Chase lounge we go....
(Only Certain Parts Are Picked From This Conversation Only Cuz These Are Some That Like Really Made Me OD)
"and you think u goddamn slick 3:40 AM"
"like i dont know how u fucking feel about that damn girl you lying bitch 3:40 AM"
What is there to be slick about? I mean deadass though, I do not really do much of nothing besides run around between Ty crib and maybe out to southwest other than that i'm typically @ home trying to get this job situation together. I Came home to this at about 5-10 minutes b4 this shit had popped off.
"ohh dont fuckin play dumb 3:42 AM"
"imma need u to stop playing like u just oh so fuckin hurt over us 3:43 AM"
"when u been wanting to fuck with her 3:43 AM"
Now by this time I'd became quite intrigued about what and where this was coming from? Like damn i am getting blacked on when i just set down at the computer and was bout to shoot the breeze probably tell her i love her even though i kinda had a gut feeling something was about to splash the curb...Check my FB Status i put up
"Sincere Fam Royale Ray Is Starting To Feel Like Someone Or Someone Close To Him Is Gonna Do Something Dastardly And It Will Not End Pretty, And Was Asked "Have You Ever Been In Love More With Someone Whom You Loved More Than Yourself" I Said "Yeah, But We See Where Went Right!?" 3:37Am" <~~~~Now If You Look Above to the mentioned time from that particular time, having gut feelings is a bitch aint it? Moving on....
How can some one fake being completely hurt over someone they truly loved and still loved, Whom could've been the mother of their child (I'm always going to catch hell for that but mind u i've been working on this blog since she signed off Current time being 11:37Am)....So I'm going to quit while i am ahead b4 this turns out to be long that what it probably will be...So to whomever is reading this i hope your still with me, if not I guess i'm just venting on my own like normally....
"Sincere Fam Royale Ray Is Like Dag Soon As I Made The Previous Status, Something Shakes And Breaks....And I Aint Been Home A Half Hour Yet..3:53Am"
Yeah when i posted that i had a few comments from her calling me some more mothafuckaz and everything else inbetween, but i dont even think thats when i were even close to finding out what she was blackin and going in on me for...
Now Lets take a step back a few minutes to b4 my last status was posted...
"cuz im not even gon try to put us baq together ever 3:45 AM"
"u slimy ass bitch 3:45 AM"
Yet again i continue to get blacked on...or when i'm not being vocal about my thought of me and her being no more i still continue to make shit worse for no apparent reason...fucked up right?
"but wit anyone else i was fine 4:01 AM"
"but when i did with sum one else and went to the doc 4:05 AM"
"Harlem_Boi_Black_2k5:and outside of that i havent even thought of fucking or being bothered with no other female...because i know whom i want and work for having...and yet u talked or heard from me half or more than half of this past week and iwasnt doing much of nothing or probably out and about...4:07 AM"
"Harlem_Boi_Black_2k5:and yet i still manage to tell you everything i'm doing as if we're together and that backfires yet again...So i'll ask one more time what else could i have possibly said and or done that makes u say such to me? 4:08 AM"....
My Current Fb Status B4 I Posted @ 8:11PM:
Sincere Fam Royale Ray Still Believes In The Peace He Once Had With Himself B4 This...And Even After The Hardest Part...I'm Am Mad,Partly Hurt...But I Do Hope "He" Whoever Dude Is Ma...Is Holding You Closely/Or Your Probably On The Road To Making Him Love You More Than I Did...Signing Off Sincere "The Anomaly"...
And Hers posted @ 9:46PM.....
Rachele SoulAmazing Watson is thinking times like this make me wanna never go baq till i think of the good times. Only for you to wake me from the good time dream with the words and misunderstanding....
Well what more can i say that does not ever get misunderstood? or I may misunderstand when I get blacked on for something that's basically a mirage in your mind when i'm not doing nothing wit nobody and just in hope and in prayer we could go back to the "us" in January..Seems like the more i stay quiet the more shit gets assumed, or the more i be vocal...the more it becomes strangled and i've done nothing but love and Respect her...and i admit i told my lies but it was out of fear and Rick is not and will never be perfect and completely far from it..But I will not and i repeat WILL NOT let anyone or anything put me in a mindset to go lay on rock bottom ever again...No pun intended but my world has been upside fucking down during this break up and everything inbetween that does not have shit to do with u or us in general aint about shit but it compiles my feelings an shapes me for the summer to go lay under a rock with Air conditioning so i dont have to say this and let everyone think Rick is in the trash and left where he deserves to be
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