Play Me First,Play Me First, And Dont Forget Play Me First....

I was supposed to been departed for my godparents home not too long ago, But I said "Fuck It" I'll pass on that and just head over there in the morning. I really do not feel like putting up with their shit today, especially after the other day...Which I do not want to re-iterate without catchin a fuckin tude' over it, I would rather be in a UFO space traveling right about now. Given alot of things in this world and day can be changed and indeed will be, but for now I'll settle with the shit I have been dealing with for a while. I feel as if I have a high tolerance for alot of things in this world, Why!? Hell if I know, So if you find out before I do let me know. I'll pas on the psycho-Eval. Just know that if I end up in the grave before my time I'll hopefully rock the casket screaming "FUCK YOU BASTARDS!!!", rather its the stress I've brought upon myself or the stress of others in my life.
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I mean yes I honestly intend to share as much pain & stress possible with my bto's so they will not be the only ones in this fucking world distraught and angry, Like myself I try to live a stress and drama free life. If it is not one thing it is completely and totally another thing going or has gone wrong, Rather its someone talking about "Us" as a cohesive unit or singling out me & Ty. Now I could also go off into why I said just calling out Me & Tyler but I'm not because that person's Sister/Cousin is a advent reader of my blog, Typically I do not care what I said could be sent back to the broad but this time I'll take the bigger approach and leave it be. Outside of that its the stress and drama with my bro Ty and Chicky wings mom, I love them dearly and I always come to the rescue and battlelines when shit happens to hit the fan. Only thing is I hate how someone so young and has grown into a young adult (Womanhood) acts out on every little thing that someone does, Now do not get me wrong with me being on both ends of this spectrum is quite the troublesome thing.
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It is so much stress and bullshit a person will take before they will snap and go back off the deep end, and with her just saying things that is not meant to be said or even fathoming that shit is down right completely wrong. Also having the mentality "I Am The Only Friend He Needs" is basically setting yourself up to fall flat on your face, Due to the fact you not only will explode on the first itch you get thinking something or someone has violated your spot which will cause a rift or tear between the relationship you two have built. Given your "Not together" it is the things that are done inbetween times, So I am honestly not faulting one side of this issue. Actually I am faulting myself right along with this given Myself & Ty had this conversation, Which i am not to go into detail on.
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Now as far as this goes I do take your word for face value about you saying this is not about Ty, But my gut instinct does tell me otherwise and I would like to go in on this and elaborate but i will wait until further notice for this to see where it will lead. Moving right along, Seeing as you along with the last person I was involved with just do not understand the bullshit that was dished out just for you to worsen it.
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Now we've set and talked about this, And hopefully it will resolve itself, but until I will say this. You know where I stand as far as this goes so please attempt to handle this and do not let shit like that get under your skin, It makes for a stressed life and a early grave....And on that note this concludes this blog, I'll probably go back downstairs and watch Kill Biil Vol 1 & 2 for like the millionth time...Laterz