Come Home With Me...

Like deadass it feels good to be around some damned internet and lights, An Not feel like a total complete loser nah mean? Today has been full of many surprise's, Like deadass though given my un-announced Digi-Vacation not only due to the fact the net is no longer in service at my former residence. The lights were turned off also out of the blue, Now before I venture into that. The damn supposed "Estate-Sale" as my uppercrust God-father puts it, this dude like has been str8 blackin' with the insurance money he is now fingering due to his mothers death. I assume that is his way of getting completely over it, whichever his excuse is I really do not care at all.
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Given we all knew me living in that home was to come to an end in general was completely inevitable, but given I had did some digging myself over the course of the summer. Not only did I find out some missing pieces and reasons in my timeline to how things had played out over the course of the past 2 years of my fucked up loser like life, The end of this summer will go down as one of the most memorable for a long time. Now as far as living where I am now (Mary's Home) my God-father told the mortgage comp. "If you want the house back that bad you can have it!", which is just about the "nigger-ish" way as they would phrase it.Its cool none the less everyone is out for self and it seems to remain that way, Its funny someone spoke about all of this shit happening months ago as if they knew it was to happen. Well it may be my anger talking and the person whom I might be on their blogger feed will see this blog, Thank you for predicting that i assume. One big fucking thank you was in order, Outside of that I still do not know where I will be living or residing however you would like to label that. I was assured of one thing it will not be on the streets even though honestly I did and or still do expect it, I just want to continue to strive not to be like anyone because in the end believing I am the chosen one however you would like to over think that. Will be one of the ones at the end of the road, Being view throughout the lies and everything I've either put 6
myself in or endured As "He was unique" so I think.
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Outside of that my relationship with my current girlfriend is quite the special and refreshing her, I thank her for the things she had blessed me with mentally and bringing me back from the road I probably was heading down nah mean? But deadass I am grateful that this is going such a way, If it was to (God-Forbid end) I would honestly love to remain as her friend or bestfriend (Overthink on that while I play hopskotch in your brains fools) Ass. Other than that I have another war on another battle field to partake in, Damn you Egan!!! I'm still preparing for that war when it comes I hope I am like deadass ready, Outside of that I've just been like really losing it mentally. Like if it was not for Ajene being @ my side when she "technically has no time for a BF" I am very apprecitive of the time given and time well spent nah mean? Outside of that I'll be waiting until January to do the school thing, do not ask why nor comment. No need i've been jinxed enough, I need not no ones encouragement and shit keep it to your fucking self.
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Other than that i've still managed to have fun, As I always intend to. Been hooping just about every tuesday, today marked my 2nd tuesday str8. Been great for the soul and body seeing as i've gained weight and then lost it, I would love to get back to the "06 Rick" where i was 218Lbs...Deadass sexy. Outside of that I do not really talk to alot of people, Again seeing as I see myself slippin into that dark Rick again where I do not want contact with alot of people. Why? I wish I knew, I ran across Rachele's lil cuzzo not too long ago she peeped me leaving the grocery store while she and her gramz (Grandmother) was on the way in. It was akward but hey shit's been weirder lately, like not seeing my GF for a whole fucking week. I aint even gonna go in on that just glad i could see her, other than that i'm pretty much done and chattin we E on FB so until next blog...Much love and Miss Me please?