Music (Intro)

Okay,okay,okay,okay...OKAY!! So we have reached the conclusion, or shall I say beginning of something that I've spent using as a channel of release. Am I glad to bring it to its own conclusion? No, as it will bring further blogs along with more things, That i will be trying to get more possible thoughts or more issues with self articulated. So I will not feel as crazy, thank god for music. Along with the artist's I keep in rotation, Deadass though. I honestly have not been lost into a lot of new music, Due to the fact I still listen to the same things that got me through some of the times where I feared alot of things. An with that said I just thank the musical presence or appreciation I've garnered over the time being.

I mean I could sit here and go on & on, about all the times I had music. Or I could sit here and talk about recent times when I thought no one cared, But why? For what? I mean it'll make me feel better. Yes, indeed. Though I really have come to the realization that, I will never trust a female as I previously did. Why? because it brings you one of two things, Obsession Or Depression. Which in case may not be true, I will agree while I beg to differ. Due to the recent disappointments I've endured, and Yes! To those who have known what I have spoken about, To catch those up to speed. I recently received request from both of my ex's, Not calling no names. Though I did accept one and ignored the other, Why? I wish I knew. I mean I asked one of my other ex's who reached out to me and made sure I was not completely fucking crazy, or close to suicidal. Which I, like everyone else has had those thoughts of making life a light thought. Asked me and I quote not her exact words but something close to,(Copy & Pasted From FB Message):


"Did (Insert Ex's name here) not get you for everything you practically owned? or brought with you? Yet your attempting to end whatever bad blood between ya'll? Did you not learn your lesson when you went out of your way to prove (Insert other ex's name here) wrong!? I understand closure is something you are seeking, Or even wanting rekindle a friendship or possible relationship of some sort. Personally Rick, I do not support that choice. Let alone you thinking of anyone of your ex's, me included. Though I care about you as a friend, And very incline to us becoming bff's. I do not, refuse to see you as you were a few months ago. You lost track of time, And alot of other things that came behind that. So please with whatever you decision is I advise this: Please do not set yourself up for failure of any type. It is bad enough Ruby stopped fucking with you for whatever reason, And Now you and Kandis barely speak now. Which I like some of your other ex's are probably jumping for joy, That Ashley woman was crazy. An you lost more of your belongings, even though it was just a shirt. It was a bday you raised complete hell about, So please, please, please, I reiterate...Do not under any circumstance set yourself up for failure. Or Indulge in anything with your heart, because it is bound to be spat upon again."

I read that over, and over. An seriously tried to think about what to do or not to do, Though I went with my first judgment. An accepted, now what or where this is to go. How the fuck do I know? Hell I barely trust women now, and that is not even based off of the other women from my past. Just the fact I feel Heart in something, brings you bad things. That or I am just maybe still "INcomplete" without her or those two, hell even maybe the others. Though do keep in mind, "INcomplete" will be a series compared to "Every GF's Worse Nightmare" . Deadass though, If you vibe with me or some of the music I listen to, think of it as "Cinematic Hallucinations" or "Well Isnt This Awkward" along with "Well This Isnt Awkward" Deadass though. This is what I compared "Every GF's Worse Nightmare" and now it will be "INcomplete" title subject to change, So keep rocking with me. An We'll get to the point of what I will be trying to articulate.


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Deadass though: Personal note.

I would like to personally thank every last person, whom either stops by. Maybe Reads, Or hell just to give me another hit on this fucking page. Though Honestly I do this to exorcise my demons, or heartbreaks. Maybe play me the 808's with it...seriously though, Feel me. If you ever any need anything or anyone, or feel like your life is shitty. Hey! Read my blog and maybe just maybe my life may be worse than yours according to the date or the story given in the blogs...Laters people...R.Ray