Not Totally In Shambles.

Stopit5 slime, ever felt stupid for being a "Fighter" or felt even more stupid for being "passionate"? I have, like deadass though I really fuckin' do though. I was always told never to be sorry or apologize for being passionate about anything or anyone, but what about when it brought you pain and/or borderline obsession. What about when you get trapped in a woman's words? Example: "When you get it together then we could be." Like deadass, that there is what some dudes be going off of. This is not even aimed at anyone in particular, just simple thoughts of a duder who is up at "3am" (Title sound familiar?). Other than that, I've been low key. Dont mind the ignorant webcam pics in this post, I was having fun playing on the webcam deadass. plus a few of those pictures were for someone to see my braids, the others were for my own ignorant purpose.

I have almost completely lost all faith in women, like seriously and that is not even to tie into my previous post where I said something about "No money, No job. No Love". Like I sat down with my big bro Quest (Clark) and chatted him up on the topic, given he's almost 30 he is very insightful. He begged to differ, I cannot remember for the life of me what his comment on my status on FB when I said it in spanish. Though he said something close to "It shows one self worth." , and back to the conversation that was. He told me he noticed that I have a fighter's spirit, maybe lack there of hunger. Though added it may be due to the fact I feel I always been defending myself for however long, which kinda put a inside dance of victory on light for me. Knowing someone else noticed, an yet again I heard the cliche' "Your time is coming" hell its taken too long. Duder is 23 now and I've came a long way if I must say so myself, though I am karma is a thick enticing bitch who is having her way with me. Deadass like awkward I met another woman who introduce herself to me while hanging out in Pontiac,MI by the name of Rachele, I like seriously made the face you see below this paragraph. I think all women named Rachele are the fucking devil themself, Just like women name Ajenae (my lil sister) along with the other form of Ajene. Are either man eaters in the making or full fledge dick snappers (Inside), but um like really though she seems cool. Only thing is this Rachele is a year older than I, and the most intriguing thing is her bday is March 8th. I would said the thought of her 2 children scares me out of my cargo shorts, but I'm kid friendly. So I didnt fully shit myself yet, I cant get with the fact that I totally feel indifferent to women as I use to. Like I'm seriously not really saying too much of anything, not being as friendly. When conversation pops off, I am like really not there. Its not even like I stare at limbs (most times I dont) but I do not give them the bubbly look I use to, I am more in tuned to just trying to stay to myself. Could it be about twat? nah, far from it. So far its far fetched with a leak in its hand (Pokemon-Flow), Then not to mention I just do not feel...I dont know, I cant really explain the notion on that note.

Though I will say this, I deadass know for a fact (Insert Whomever name here) we will meet again. Soon, very very soon so count your hours. Dont be speculatin' me landing anytime soon, when we do meet (Insert Whomever name here) it will be ever-essence at its best. Please please puhlease believe that, I could be talking shit...It could be Media gone take review out. (Sly smile) Or most def...The Ugly herbal. Dig that? Ummm other than that, it has been on hell of a fucking year. Nonetheless Jan-Present day, yea....elevator status. take that how you want, and my year doesnt even seem like it is about to slow down. So could it be more shit for me to get away from? or has my past finally came for its payment? However it is interpreted, its all on you. As far as me? I do not know, but I know "Not knowing what I'm doing is what keeps me going is what keeps me keeping up, Not knowing what I proving is what keeps me flowing"..As i inhale the diesel, I try to paint pictures with no easel. I no its no equal, Tried going with its so peaceful. Though I go over your head no hat...So gone head fallback, anyone reading this blog. Know anything the broad can say is all facts, Don king brilo pad ass chicken. Its all good mami get yours, Wont be the first nor will I be the last nigga. I just attempt to find that peace of mind I swore I had with her or you. or someone else...how ever it figures itself out. Rick Ray will always have something to say...Deadass!? Deadass!