The Tinyest Things

Now again it is the peg-leg bastard, Lmao Just checking in.Now I'ma get straight to business with this one, I have no time for the bullshit.

I just caught wind a associate of mines, Me and her crossed paths before. Just lost her son to S.I.D.S, for the slow people who do not know what S.I.D.S..It is Sudden Infant Death Syndrome. Now that I have dropped alittle knowledge on you people, whoever the fuck you maybe. You should read this to educate yourself on it, then go google some more info if you can or are not hip to this shit.

"SIDS is most likely to occur between 2 and 4 months of age, and 90% occur by 6 months of age. It occurs more often in winter months, with the peak in January. There is also a greater rate of SIDS among Native and African Americans.

The following have been linked to an increased risk of SIDS:

* Babies who sleep on their stomachs
* Babies who are around cigarette smoke while in the womb or after being born
* Babies who sleep in the same bed as their parents
* Babies who have soft bedding in the crib
* Multiple birth babies (being a twin, triplet, etc.)
* Premature babies
* Babies who have a brother or sister who had SIDS
* Mothers who smoke or use illegal drugs
* Teen mothers
* Short time period between pregnancies
* Late or no prenatal care
* Situations of poverty"

Now when I count wind of this VIA facebook, it did not aggravate me until she posted that (S.i.d.s) in her status and it instantly made me think of the possible child I could've had. The broad should remain nameless for sake of bullshit, and it also made me think of my other Ex Ajene. Being that she is so many months along in her pregnancy, So I'm pretty sure you are hip to this being the person you are. If not I urge you to go handle that Asap, because I'll be damned if god forbid this shit happens to you. I do not need for this to be taken lightly, or as anytype of way to establish anything with anyone. Not even the yamp I almost had a child with back in 08 transitioning into 09, but deadass though it really made me think that and put me into a emotional state of mind. Now the following end to this blog is very dear and personal, comment if you would like. If not makes me no difference I am doing this for myself as a form of ventilation...

Kennedy...Daddies unborn girl, I know one thing led to another and you were not able to have been brought into this world. Seriously I believe dad would not have been as ready for you as I thought I would've been, though your mother you would've known was yours if not been her spitting image (Hoped to Jesus you would've been my spitting image). Would have cherished you to this very day, unknowingly you may not have been mines. Though that would have been up for debate of me being the father, I find humor in that now because I did not have to go through it. Though it still bothers me with the thought of you not coming to, I have to deal with it. Day in and day out. Seriously I assume its a form of my fault for not letting go, or more so not taking the topic or subject of child birth lightly. As some women do, though I refer to those who do take child birth lightly. Blind or ignorant, or Animals if you would rather take it that far. Though I would've not known what to do with myself if you would've came to and could've suffered a fate such as s.i.d.s., So for now I hope where ever you are. How ever you are, your watching and maybe waiting to come to a reality. over Whom could've been your mother, and me maybe. I do not know why I am emotional over this, but I am. Maybe one day, Just one day of my own. I will have a child of my own to know or understand the form of love, a child can bring one....Until that day...I love you until my very last dying breath....I bid you adios papi's amiga amor.