Day 30: Who are you?

Who am I? I am Rick Ray, A nobody who intends to be somebody if I have to say the minimum. Though I never really care about being someone, well atleast to the world. Just to the key few who could possibly view me as something, or even someone to be totally honest. I am also someone who has forgotten to care about just about everyone, along with overcoming a lot of the things that were probably self inflicted from dumb decision making. Yet I believe it is just me being human, Overcoming the obstacles of life I guess. I'm no expert at one thing, nor will I ever be. So where does that possibly leave me? Shit, I could throw you a idea. Though there is some out there who could careless given I've shown you otherwise along with growth, lol even a little more maturity depends on how you feel.

I often battled with a lot of things over the last 2yrs, 3 if you count the beginning of this one. Which I've made it this far, I've came to terms with a lot of things. An learned a lot in the process, rather it is dealing with the nobodies. Or the women who meant nothing for me, Yet I tried dearly to feign feelings or some sort of emotions to bed then down. An honestly admitting that the only meaningful relationships I've been in since I've been over 21 happen to been in between 08...then right back again in 09. So all the other ones I've been with in afterwards did not mean a damn thing, yet here I go opening up myself up to a point of vulnerability. Which kinda drew out that newly formed defense mechanism of mines, Which grew a heart colder. In the same sense take things of myself as far as emotions, and feeling be less likely given. Yet it doesnt feel like me, though I may force myself to become used to it. Then again I may not, I am not totally sure. With the fact of is, I'll just deal with and play it out to the best of its ability. an speak alil more about some spoken word lol still no poet this way. never have never will be...

Have you ever a picture you held in your mind? An over time the circumstances made you feel like dying? With passion that was truly divine? To Realize you worked so hard, still didnt make it that far. Though love is everything so you push to break that barrier? Gotta understand the corruption in your mind in due time.

I had more to share, but hey its all I had to give you for the last day. So in the end I am Rick Ray, and you should get to know me or enjoy the blog more. Try to find me at the other blogsite I am apart of, and You'll still see and hear from more of me on my own blog site. Thank you for toughing it out with me for this 30-day blog challenge. An to Alicia B, Thanks for coming back to the blog. I'll make sure it is worth your time, I feel like your my lil bloggin protege...Deadass though.