Where Is Rick Ray!?

I've been around people (If you ever miss me, or wondered why i havent posted a blog please listen to Charles Hamilton's "I'll Be Around and you'll hear me as you hear him), But yea i've been going through it alot as of lately many ups and downs. More downs than ups,like man i just want to tell god "God, you taught me alot an awful lot but as of recently i feel awful alot. Are my negative thoughts and trials and tribulations i've been going through are you hugging me tighter?". even though i really want to i just want to lay down and call it a night...but i cant, its mad elementary and my passion is history. None the less I am blessed to be this stressed (If you dont get it you never will), a i've been taking more supernatural vacations for a internal staff development since i've been going through it all. That does not mean i have not spoken to everyone,but then again it does mean i havent since i dont really answer my phone as much as i use to. I missed the times when my phone rung constantly off the chain, but now and given how i've been feelin' i'm glad the broad (Phone) barely rings at all.
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Outside of that I have been growing a hard disdain for my own parents (like, really those i refer to as my god parents), But its cool i've been doing that for the last month or so, Its beginning to peak and i dont need that since i am worried about other things in this blasted place we call earth. I mean its nothing personal....Or should i say nothing that was not personal, but given money is the root of all evil in alot of peoples world and minds...I assume thats alot of peoples biggest or greatest falls...since the bill has to be paid nigga simple an plain. Like...I understand that, but i'm not willing to sell my soul for it. I guess that is what separates me from alot of others rather i'm on the wrong or correct side of the spectrum, Not that i care since i am human (Sometimes). So yeah, About my internet connection it is not off as of totally just yet, but when it does i'll be sure to post whenever i get a chance where ever there may be a computer or Internet connection. YES!! to those who have reached out to me about my blog...I have taken or have tried to take a hiatus from it, since this shit seems like its the only way to get or give answer to some of those peoples questions. I didnt expect that to happen or for it to come to that but it did, but i re iterate that i am not one to fall off and no one have little to no connection with me(Sometimes i am)
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I know my blogs be in pieces after i finally jot down my thoughts on here, but i do hope some of you all actually get the portrait i am attempting to paint with fingers no brush just yet. And to those i talk to I think of you all everyday when i do not hear from you or vice versa just know it is nothing personal, far from it but please understand and bare with me and or share my pain of the upcoming obstacles that will be in my or our path soon...Just like i share and identify with the majority of you all regardless of the situation...take that and call that "crack" for my free download my blog... BLOW BABY!!!!