After 3 years of emotional back and forth with this womman, I thought I wouldnt be more bothered by learning that she does not want me, yet share all of these things. Especially because this was something I had to think about while we were not still involved. Yeah. I guess I thought I’d be more hurt, Or that I’d care more.
In which case I do...Then again. That is something I will not tell via my blog, without saying in person if it is said.
After 3 years, once I finally rid myself of my healthy/unhealthy emotional connection to her, I just may feel free. I need to learn to stop looking to her or caring for her & her thoughts maybe even her well being. I live my life accordingly. I need to put the “friendship” we have/had in perspective and move forward with my life. Seemingly as time progress and she keeps up this shit that is going on now, there just may be no realistic hope for something more in the future. she wants me to get beyond it... I think I just may get beyond that, So shit will no longer hurt.
So why all this emotion now? Hell if I know. Especially because I have too many needs to get done, or things I shouldnt have let happen thus far.
Clearly, I don’t know how I feel about this. Do I wish I didn’t know at all? Some say ignorance is bliss. But I don’t know.
How did you find out that your “him” or “her” was involved with a new boo? Or How did you feel once they continue to try and bring you into something emotional with out knowing they did so? How did you react, if at all? Initial reactions are usually strong, but with time comes clarity. It is what it is. Thanks for reading!
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