He LAMENTS!!! After taking a hiatus from everything social

I turned 24 back in March. I know...I know. I'm not at "Mid-life crisis" yet, still on the kinda young side. It’s really not much of a milestone like 25 (Though I am a fucking year away from it), I’m not quite in my late twenties yet, just hitting the mid's. The last 3 or 4 years of my life have been full of growth and many changes subtle & non-subtle changes. Very painful experiences... These experiences that felt too ill to be fucking true.

Although my birthday weekend was damn good, it managed to have a few minor wrinkles in it. Between familia, women drama as always, along with me trying to make sense of all of it, I realized how much I may or may not matured in the past few years, and much more growing still has happen. I remember being 21 thinking I knew so much about the punkass world. Looking back in retrospect, I would have probably loved to have learned between then and now.

Cherish all friendships.

"Not all friendships are created equal" Which is true, though I am blessed with a good number of people who I can turn to for anything. I have learned over the years that part of being a good friend is allowing people to be there for you as much as you are there for them. Like relationships with chicks, relationships require time and effort. I am grateful for those people who are great friends to me.

Love just does not trump all.

Love clouded my logic on many occasions. Not just in relationships only. Love for anyone leaves you to tolerate bullshit and can cloud your good judgment along with your ability to take of your needs if you let it. please distinguish logic and good sense from the emotion of it all. Take care of yourself, even though it may hurt you to do so.

Self-love is more under-rated these days.

Or I just didnt utilize it. Actually, I’m not sure if I can put it into words. I deadass know is that I started to take a real interest in pursuing my happiness, I’m not apologetic about shit, like I used to be in the past. I’m not just taking on an "Fuck it all" attitude. I am actively attempting in taking care of my physical and mental health (Post on that to come sooner or later). I try not to, unless my happiness at that moment is caught up in deciding between two chicks, which in case happens often. HEY! I'm a work in progress, and I've been scarred by love like all. Hell ask me I've been scarred more than most.

"Letting go of something can take as much work as trying to hold on to it."

Trying not to think about something or someone is hard work. Especially when the situation or person keeps making appearances in your life. Letting go requires you to make amends with whatever the situation is. It really requires accepting it for what it is, with nothing else behind it. It means surrendering (which I've never been good at anyway). In most cases, it feels like giving up or losing a fight in some way that you knew in your mind you could win. "Letting go" really just means making room for future possible blessings or struggles. Either way, trying to carry too much at once will weigh you down. I do this more than anything, Everything that came with you can’t stay.