In My Mind

Whattup world its ya boi Sincere again...Bloggin' fresh thoughts and updating since i said i'd keep this blog updated regularly b4 i'd blog when i wanted but i feel this here is what keeps me somewhat sane since no one really asks or sits down and conversates with me...Just even if its for a few minutes...I love conversating just as much as blogging because blogs cant up and walk away when you get into the heat of a good conversation even if your listening but anyway i've been feeling out of it as well as down for the past few days....



Whats the point of having 3 female bestfriends who dont call you? Dont conversate with you ( The exception of Cinnamon)...and rarely ever see anymore...I dont talk to Swiper (Falisha) as often as i once did....I dont talk to Brittany as much as i did or used to since she dont talk to me no more since she was my main bestfriend...which is some complete BS....Cinnamon i talked to her day in day out..only because she loves to talk and listen so i guess i'm content with that for now...

outside of that i've seen one of the shortest engagements ever...and only bad thing is someone's sister is what cause the end of this...wow and the person believed it could've been me or some one else snitching wow shows who's paranoid and who aint right?...Also i've been thinking about some of the things me and Kandis was talking about that one day we had our serious conversation...its funny she kept my strawberry letter...it kinda made me feel warmer on the inside...

I miss having a girlfriend but then again it wouldnt work out because given the past...either from cheating on or cheated...it kinda bothers me that i had alot of potential around me...but dont bother to put it to use for many reasons but none to name right now...

and i hate the fact i've been constantly thinking of my ex alot even after the fact we ended on a sour note and due to the fact i beleive that the person she is....matter of fact i refuse to get off into that story because i'm already thinking of her..i never have regrets but i do think in the back of my mind if we wouldnt have started fucking last summer we'd still be friends atleast...because you know they say sex alters the playing field...and its a proven fact over and over again...and some shit is better left unsettled..closure would be the last thing on my mind...but anyway on with bloggin of random thoughts...

Why is it whoever is reading these blogs..Yes You The Fucking Reader...never leaves a comment or show the u were here is it that you do not understand where i am coming from or is it a shock that someone like myself is very capable of putting words together...lol i have a way with words dont i?

plus its not often u get me to talk professional or non-niggerish...cuz most of you people of your stature are not worth the words of a civilized person like myself...also i was taught its better to be thought dumb than open your mouth and reveal all knowledge..with that said dont assume "Oh he's not a dummy afterall" cuz you'd be selling yourself extremely short thinking this or any of my previous blogs are something of showing my intelligent side...its really not its just i've been suffering from a horrid case of insomnia cuz of me thinking too much and or heartache...so catch up dummie get your vocab up if u dont know what insomnia is.

also let me add it seems when certain people read anything i say i get down played i dont get no "That was nice" or "That kid knows his shit" i'm glad i'm in bloggin for the fact of remaining sane and or for the love of being me...or i'd be highly pissed dont no one ever tell me your writing skills are quite dope....is it i dont talk about what dont intrests u in the first place? oh well move on to the next blog...or is it i dont talk about bouncing pussy's and how many hoes i fucked? oh well get over it...i do things of the such because i am a guy but i aint ignorant with it in the least bit and this just happens to be one of my very many random thoughts...

People never realize how committed to friends and those i call Fam until its too late...i mean really i'm all in and down for anything anywhere any given time...and really i'm in it for the love and admiration even if its not for the respect but hey fuck it...I love being the unsung hero....i just hate how certain people's attitude change...Its like if you've been with me for so long or even just act one way then another when u catch a attitude its pointless as fuck....but i suffer from that same clothe...so i aint gonna complain too much about that

anywho...why is it some folk just expect me to be "The Chosen 1" my name aint fucking Lebron...i'm only Rick (Roderic If You Nasty)...A.k.a Sincere one and only who does what he does when he does it..and i love being there for my peoples (Check previous blogs to see who) just that if u dont call me and or tell me whats up or whats eating at you i cant help u if u dont help yourself dun dun...

As far as this summer is concerned i'm having mad fun...but i do miss school i wanna go back to school this fall so when and if it does fall through and happens i'm on point with it and will get my shit str8 so i can get my degreee and better myself to the point of reaching for the universe cuz its all mines...and i refuse to settle for less...and those that do fuck wit me on a regular knows u fuck wit me your stuck with me and sticking with me like i stick with you knows we're going places but anyway its 7:25Am and i'm bout to watch tv until i get sleepy i'll probably blog again tonight dun dun's laters....